Das Büchlein der ewigen Weisheit
(The Little Book of Eternal Wisdom)

Wisdom, is Personified in the Old Testament Book of Sirach (Ecclesiasticus), as an Elusive Woman; remember that Jesus Christ, the Wisdom of God, had yet to be Born. Wisdom is Personified here, in the above Painting, by a Female Figure (She, Her), and Crowned with a Victory Laurel, Acquires Knowledge through Reading of Scripture. True Wisdom's Ultimate Source is God. Angels assist Mankind in the Acquisition of God's Wisdom, "but not a Wisdom of this Age, nor of the Rulers of this Age who are Passing Away".
- Painting by SAMACCHINI, Orazio - from private collection

1 Corinthians, Chapter 2
When I came to you, Brothers, proclaiming the Mystery of God, I did not come with Sublimity of Words or of Wisdom.
For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ, and Him Crucified.
I came to you in Weakness and Fear and much Trembling,
and my Message and my Proclamation were not with Persuasive (words of) Wisdom, but with a Demonstration of Spirit and Power,
so that your Faith might Rest not on Human Wisdom, but on the Power of God.
Yet we do speak a Wisdom to those who are Mature, but not a Wisdom of this Age, nor of the Rulers of this Age who are Passing Away.
Rather, we speak God's Wisdom, Mysterious, Hidden, which God Predetermined before the Ages, for our Glory,
and which none of the Rulers of this Age knew; for if they had known it, they would not have Crucified the Lord of Glory.
But as it is Written: "What Eye has not seen, and Ear has not heard, and what has not entered the Human Heart, what God has prepared for those who Love Him",
this God has Revealed to us through the Spirit. For the Spirit Scrutinizes everything, even the Depths of God.
Among Human Beings, who knows what pertains to a Person, except the Spirit of the Person that is within? Similarly, no one knows what pertains to God, except the Spirit of God.
We have not received the Spirit of the World, but the Spirit that is from God, so that we may understand the things freely given us by God.
And we speak about them not with Words taught by Human Wisdom, but with Words taught by the Spirit, describing Spiritual Realities in Spiritual Terms.
Now the Natural Person does not accept what pertains to the Spirit of God, for to him it is Foolishness, and he cannot Understand it, because it is Judged Spiritually.
The Spiritual Person, however, can Judge everything but is not subject to Judgment by anyone.
For "Who has known the Mind of the Lord, so as to Counsel Him?" But we have the Mind of Christ.


Blessed Henry Suso

German Mystic, born about 1295, died 1366, declared Blessed in 1831 by Gregory XVI, who assigned his Feast in the Dominican Order to 2 March. Great Spiritual Writer, using the name Amandus. Noted Preacher in Switzerland and the Area of the Upper Rhine. Spiritual Advisor to Dominicans.

In "Das Büchlein der ewigen Weisheit", published early in 1328, Suso is Eminently Practical and speaks-out-of the Fullness-of his Heart to "simple men who still have imperfections to be put off". In the Judgment of Scholars, it is considered the "most beautiful Fruit of German Mysticism", and is placed next to the "Homilies" of Saint Bernard, and the "Imitation of Christ" by Thomas à Kempis. In the second-half of the 14th and in the 15th Century, there was no more widely-read Meditation Book in the German Language.


The Little Book of Eternal Wisdom

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(Part 1 of 3)


CHAPTER I - How Some Persons are Unconsciously Attracted by God

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) Her have I Loved, and have Sought her out from my Youth, and have Desired to take Her for my Spouse, and I became a Lover of Her Beauty. These Words, Stand written-in the Book of Wisdom and are spoken-by the Beautiful and all-Loving Wisdom.

A Servant was Filled-with Disgust and Dejection-of Heart, on his First setting-forth on the Uneven Ways. Then did the Eternal Wisdom meet him in a Spiritual and Ineffable Form, and Lead him through Bitter and Sweet, until 'She' brought him to the Right Path of Divine Truth. And after Well Reflecting on his Wonderful Progress, he thus spoke-to God: Sweet and Tender Lord! from the Days of my Childhood, my Mind has sought-for something with Burning Thirst, but 'What' it is, I have not, as yet, Fully Understood. Lord, I have Pursued it Ardently, many a Year, but I never could Grasp it, for I Know not 'What' it is, and yet it is something that Attracts my Heart and Soul, without which I never can attain True Rest. Lord, I sought it in the First Days of my Childhood, as I saw done around me, in Creatures, but the more I sought it in them, the less I Found it, and the 'Nearer' I Approached them, the 'Further' I Receded from it, for every Image that Presented itself to my Sight, before I wholly-tried it, or gave myself-up, Quietly to it, Warned me away thus: "I am not what thou seekest!" And this Repulsion, I have Experienced more-and-more in all things. Lord, now my Heart Rages-after it, for my Heart would so-gladly Possess it. Alas! I have so-constantly had to Experience what it is Not! But what it is, Lord, I am not as yet Clear. Tell me, Beloved Lord, What it is indeed, and What is its Nature, that so Secretly Agitates me.

Answer of Eternal Wisdom -- Dost thou not Know it? And yet it has Lovingly Embraced thee, has often Stopped thee in the Way, until it has at-length, Won thee for itself alone.

The Servant -- Lord, I never-Saw it; never-Heard of it; I know not what it is.

Eternal Wisdom -- This is not Surprising, for its Strangeness, and thy Familiarity-with Creatures, were the Cause. But now, open thy Interior Eyes and See Who I am. It is I, the Eternal Wisdom, Who, with the embrace-of My Eternal Providence, have Chosen thee in-Eternity, for Myself alone. I have Barred the Way to thee, as-often-as thou wouldst have parted-company with Me, had I Permitted thee. In all things thou didst ever-meet with some Obstacle, and it is the Sweet Sign of My Elect, that I will Needs have them for Myself.

The Servant -- Tender Loving Wisdom! And is it Thou I have so long been Seeking-for? is it Thou, my Spirit has so-constantly Struggled-for? Alas, my God, why didst Thou not show Thyself to me long ago? Why hast Thou delayed, so-long? How many a weary-Way have I not wandered!

Eternal Wisdom -- Had I done so, thou wouldst not have known My Goodness so Sensibly, as now thou Knowest It.

The Servant -- O Unfathomable Goodness! how very-Sweetly hast Thou not Manifested Thyself to me! When I was 'Not', Thou gavest me Being. When I had Separated-from Thee, Thou didst not Separate-from me; when I Wished-to Escape from Thee, Thou didst Hold me Sweetly Captive. Yes, Thou Eternal Wisdom, if my Heart might-Embrace Thee, and Consume all my days with-Thee in Love and Praise, such would be its Desire; for Truly, that Man is Blest, whom Thou dost Anticipate so-Lovingly, that Thou lettest him have nowhere, True Rest, till he Seeks his Rest in Thee, alone. O Wisdom Elect! since in Thee I have found Him, Whom my Soul Loveth, Despise-not Thy poor-Creature. See how Dumb my Heart is, to all the World in-Joy and Sorrow. Lord, is my Heart always to be Dumb towards Thee? O give my Wretched Soul 'Leave', my Dearest Lord, to Speak a Word with-Thee, for my Heart is too-full to contain itself any-longer; neither has it anyone in all this World, to-whom it can Unburden itself, except to-Thee, my elected-Lord, Father, and Brother. Lord, Thou alone Knowest the Nature of a Love-overflowing Heart, and Knowest that no one can Love, what he cannot, in any-way Know. Therefore, since I am now to Love Thee alone, give me to-Know Thee, entirely, so that I may be also able-to Love Thee, entirely.

Eternal Wisdom -- The Highest Emanation of all-Beings, taken-in their Natural Order, is through the Noblest Beings, to the Lowest, but their Refluence (flowing-back) to their Origin is through the Lowest, to the Highest. Therefore, if thou art Wishful to-Behold Me, in My Uncreated Divinity, thou must Learn how to Know and Love Me here in My Suffering Humanity, for this is the Speediest-way, to Eternal Salvation.

The Servant -- Then let me remind Thee today, Lord, of Thy Unfathomable Love, when Thou didst Incline Thyself from Thy Lofty Throne, from the Royal Seat of the Fatherly Heart, in Misery and Disgrace, for Three-and-Thirty Years, and didst show the Love which Thou hast for me and all Mankind, Principally-in the most Bitter Passion of Thy Cruel Death. Lord, be Thou reminded-of this, that Thou mayest Manifest Thyself, Spiritually-to my Soul, in that most-Sweet and Lovely Form, to which Thy Immeasurable Love did bring Thee.

Eternal Wisdom -- The more-Mangled, the more-Deathly I am for Love, the more-Lovely am I to a well-Regulated Mind. My Unfathomable Love shows itself in the Great Bitterness of My Passion, like the Sun in its Brightness, like the Fair Rose in its Perfume, like the Strong Fire in its Glowing Heat. Therefore, hear with Devotion how Cruelly I Suffered for thee.


CHAPTER II - What Happened before the Crucifixion

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) Eternal Wisdom -- After the Last Supper, when on the Mount of Olives, I gave Myself up to the Pangs of Cruel Death, and when I felt that he was present before Me, I was bathed-in a Bloody Sweat, because of the Anguish-of My Tender Heart, and the Agony-of My Whole Bodily Nature. I was Ignominiously Betrayed, taken Prisoner like an Enemy, Rigorously Bound, and led, Miserable-away. After this, I was Impiously Maltreated with-Blows, with-Spittle, with-Blindfolding, Accused before-Caiphas, and pronounced Worthy-of Death. Unspeakable Sorrows of Heart, were then seen in My Dear Mother, from the First Sight, she had of My Distress, till I was Hung-upon the Cross. I was Shamefully Presented-before Pilate, Falsely Denounced, and Sentenced-to Die. They stood-over against-Me with Terrible Eyes, like Fierce Giants, and I stood before them, like a Meek Lamb. I, the Eternal Wisdom, was Mocked as a Fool in a White Garment, before Herod, My Fair Body was Rent and Torn, without Mercy, by the Rude Stripes-of Whips, My Lovely Countenance was drenched-in Spittle and Blood, and in this Condition, I was Condemned, and Miserable and Shamefully led-forth with My Cross, to-Death. They shouted after Me very Furiously, so that: Crucify, Crucify the Miscreant! resounded-to the Skies.

The Servant -- Alas! Lord, the Beginning is indeed, so-Bitter, how will it End? If I were to see a Wild Beast, so-Abused, I should hardly be-able-to Bear it. With what Reason, then, must not Thy Passion, Pierce my Heart and Soul! But, Lord, this is a Great Marvel to my Heart; I would needs-seek Thy Divinity, and Thou showest me Thy Humanity; I would needs-seek Thy Sweetness, and Thou settest before me Thy Bitterness; I would needs Conquer, Thou Teachest me to Fight. Lord, what dost Thou mean?

Eternal Wisdom -- No one can attain Divine Exaltation or Singular Sweetness, except by Passing-through the Image of My Human Abasement and Bitterness. The Higher one Climbs, without Passing-through My Humanity, the Deeper one Falls. My Humanity is the Way one must go, My Passion, the Gate through which one must Penetrate, to arrive-at that which thou Seekest. Therefore, lay aside thy Faint-Heartedness, and enter with-Me, the Lists-of Knightly Resolve; for, indeed, Softness beseems not the Servant, when his Master stands ready, in Warlike Boldness. I will put thee on, My Coat-of Mail, for My entire Passion must thou Suffer over-again, according-to thy Strength. Make up thy Mind, to a Darting Encounter for thy Heart, before thou shalt Subdue thy Nature, must often Die, and thou must Sweat the Bloody Sweat-of Anguish, because of many a Painful Suffering under which I mean to-Prepare thee for Myself; for with Red Blossoms, will I Manure thy Spice Garden. Contrary to Old Custom, must thou be made Prisoner and Bound; thou wilt often be Secretly Calumniated and Publicly Defamed by My Adversaries; many a False Judgment will People Pass-on thee; My Torments must thou then, diligently-carry in thy Heart, with a Motherly Heartfelt Love. Thou wilt obtain many a Severe Judge of thy Godly Life; so also will thy Godly Ways be often Mocked as Folly, by Human Ways; thy Undisciplined Body will be Scourged-with a Hard and Severe Life; thou wilt be Scoffingly Crowned with Persecution-of thy Holy Life; after this, if only thou shalt issue-forth from thy own-Will and Deny thyself, and shalt stand as Wholly Disengaged-from all Creatures, in the things which might Lead thee Astray, in thy Eternal Salvation, even as a Dying Man, when he Departs hence, and has nothing-more to do with this World -- if only thou shalt do this, then wilt thou be led-forth, with Me, on the Miserable Way-of the Cross.

The Servant -- Woe is me, Lord, but this is a Dreary Pastime! My Whole Nature, Rebels-against these Words. Lord, how shall I ever Endure it all? Gentle Lord, One thing I must say: couldst Thou not have found-out some other-way, in Thy Eternal Wisdom, to Save me, and show Thy Love for me, some way which would have exempted Thee from Thy Great Sufferings, and me from their Bitter Participation? How very-wonderful do Thy Judgments appear!

Eternal Wisdom -- The Bottomless Abyss of My Hidden Mysteries (in which I 'Order' everything according-to My Eternal Providence), let no-one Explore, for no-one can Fathom it. And yet, in this Abyss, what thou askest about, and many things besides, are possible, which yet never happen. However, know this much, that, in the Order in-which Emanated Beings now are, a more-Acceptable or more-Pleasing way, could not be. The Lord-of Nature, Knows-well what He can do, in Nature. He Knows what is best-suited to every Creature, and He Operates-accordingly. How should Man, better-Know the Hidden-things of-God, than in His 'Assumed' Humanity? How might he, who has Forfeited all-Joy through Irregular Lusts, be Rendered Susceptible-of Regular and Eternal Joy? How would it be possible, to-follow the Unpracticed Way of a Hard and Despised Life, unless it had been followed-by God Himself? If thou didst Lie, under Sentence-of Death, how could He, Who should Suffer the Fatal Penalty in thy stead, better prove His Fidelity and Love towards thee, or better Excite-thee, to Love Him in-return? Him, therefore, whom MyUnfathomable Love, My Unspeakable Mercy, and My Bright Divinity, My most-Affable Humanity, Brotherly Truth, Espousing Friendship, cannot move to Ardent Love, what-else shall Soften his Stony Heart? Ask the Fair Array of all Created Beings, if ever I could have maintained My Justice, evinced My Fathomless Mercy, ennobled Human Nature, poured-out My Goodness, reconciled Heaven and Earth, in a Way, more-Efficacious than by My Bitter Death?

The Servant -- Lord, Truly, I begin to Perceive that it is even so, and he whom Want-of Understanding has not-Blinded, and who well-Considers the Subject, must Confess it to Thee, and Extol the Beautiful Ways of Thy Love, above all-Ways. But still, to-follow Thee is very-Painful, to a Slothful Body.

Eternal Wisdom -- Be not Terrified, at the following-of My Passion. For he whose 'Interior' is so-possessed by God, that Suffering is Easy-to him, has no-Cause to Complain. No one enjoys Me more in My Singular Sweetness, than he who Stands-with Me, in Harsh Bitterness. No one Complains so much of the Bitterness-of the Husks, as he to whom the 'Interior' Sweetness of the Kernel is Unknown. For him who has a Good 'Second', the Fight is half-Won.

The Servant -- Lord, Thy Comforting Words have given me such Heart, that, methinks, I am able to-do and Suffer all things in Thee. Therefore, I Desire that Thou wouldst Unlock for me the entire Treasure-of Thy Passion, and tell me still more about it.


CHAPTER III - How it was with Him on the Cross,
According to the Exterior Man

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) Eternal Wisdom -- When I was Suspended-on the Lofty Tree of the Cross, because of My Unfathomable Love to thee, and all-Mankind, My Whole Frame was very Grievously Distorted, My Bright Eyes were Extinguished, and turned-in My Head; My Divine Ears were filled-with Scoffing and Blasphemy; My Delicate Nostrils were Wounded-with Foul Smells; My Sweet Mouth was Tormented-with Bitter Drink; and My Tender Feeling with Hard Blows. The Whole Earth was not able-to afford Me any Rest, for My Feeble Head was bowed-down with Pain and Distress, My Fair Throat was Unnaturally Distended, My Pure Countenance Polluted-with Spittle, My Beautiful Complexion faded. Lo! My Comely Figure withered entirely-away, as though I were an Outcast Leper, and had never been the Fair and Eternal Wisdom.

The Servant -- O Thou most Gracious Mirror of all Graces, in which the Heavenly Spirits, Regale and Feed their Eyes, would that I had before me Thy Delicious Countenance, in its Deathly Aspect, until I had Well Steeped it in the Tears-of my Heart; would that I might Behold, again-and-again, those Beautiful Eyes, those Bright Cheeks, that Tender Mouth, all Ghastly and Dead, till I had fully-Relieved my Heart, in Fervent Lamentation over my Love. Alas! Sweet Lord, Thy Passion affects so-Deeply, the Hearts of some People, that they are able to Lament-over Thee with the Greatest Fervor, and Weep-for Thee, from their very Hearts. O God, Could I, and Might I, now Represent all Devout Hearts with my Lamentation, might I shed the Tears-of all-Eyes, and utter the Doleful Words of all-Tongues, then would I show Thee today, how near-to my Heart, Thy Woeful Passion lies.

Eternal Wisdom -- No one can better-show, how Deeply his Heart is Affected-by My Passion, than he who Endures it with-Me, in the Practice-of Good Works. To Me, a Free Heart, unconcerned-about Perishable Love, and ever intent-on following the Main Thing, according to the Type-of My Contemplated Passion, is more-Agreeable, than if thou didst always-Bewail Me, and didst Shed as many Tears from Weeping-over My Torments, as there ever Rained, Drops-of Water from the Sky; for the Following-of Me, was the Cause in which I Suffered Bitter Death, although Tears are also Pleasing and Agreeable to Me.

The Servant -- O Sweet Lord, since then, an Affectionate Following of Thy Meek Life, and Voluntary Passion, is so-agreeable to Thee, I will in Future be more-Assiduous in a Voluntary Following, than in a Weeping Sorrow. But, as I ought to have both, according to Thy Words, Teach me how I shall Resemble Thee in both.

Eternal Wisdom -- Renounce thy Pleasure in Dissolute Sights and Voluptuous Words; let that Savor Sweetly of Love, and be Grateful to thee, which before, was Repugnant to thee; thou shouldst Seek all thy Rest in Me, shouldst Willingly Suffer Wrong from others, Desire Contempt, Mortify thy Passions, and die-to all thy Lusts. Such is the First Lesson in the School-of Wisdom, which is to be Read in the Open, Distended Book-of My Crucified Body. And Consider and See, whether, if anyone in all this World, were to do his Utmost, he could yet be to-Me, what I am to-him?


CHAPTER IV - How Very Faithful, His Passion Was

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Lord, if I forget Thy Worth, Thy Gifts, Thy Benefits, and all things, still One (1) Thing Moves-me and Goes-to my very Heart; this is, when I well Reflect, not only on the Way-of our Salvation, but also on its Unfathomably Faithful Way. Dear Lord, many a one, so Bestows a Gift on another, that his Love and Faith are better-known by his Way, than by his Gift. A Small Gift, in a Faithful Way, is often better-than a Great One, without this Way. Now Lord, not only is Thy Gift so-great, but also the Way of it, methinks, is so Unfathomably Faithful. Thou didst not only Suffer Death for me, but Thou didst also Seek, whatever is Deepest in Love, whatever is most Intimate and Hidden, in which Suffering can, or may be Experienced. Thou didst really do as though Thou hadst said: Behold all Hearts, if ever a Heart was so full of Love; look on all My Limbs; the Noblest Limb I have is My Heart; my very Heart have I permitted to be Pierced-through, to be Slain and Consumed, and Bruised into small pieces, that nothing in Me or upon Me might remain unbestowed, so that ye might know My Love. Alas! Lord, how was it in Thy Mind, or what were Thy Thoughts? Might one not-indeed, Learn something farther, on this Head?

Eternal Wisdom -- Never was there a Thirsty Mouth, that longed so-ardently for the Cool Fountain, nor a Dying Man, for the Pleasant Days of Life, as I longed to-Help all Sinners, and to-render Myself Beloved-of them. Sooner, couldst thou Recall the Days that are gone, Sooner, couldst thou make-Green, all Withered Flowers, and gather-up every Drop-of Rain, than Possess the Power to-Measure the Love which I bear-to thee, and all-Mankind. And, therefore, was I so Covered-with Marks-of-Love, that one could not have placed the Small Point-of a Needle on any spot of My Lacerated Body, that had not its particular Love-Mark. My Right Arm stretched-out; My Left very Grievously Distended; My Right Foot Perforated; My Left, Cruelly Transfixed; that I hung Fainting, and in Great Distress-of My Divine Limbs; all My Delicate Members were Immovably Fastened to the Hard Bed of the Cross. My Hot Blood, because of My Anguish, burst-forth in many a Wild Gush, which overflowed My Expiring Body, so that it was a most-Piteous Sight to see. Behold a Lamentable Thing! My Young, My Fair and Blooming Body began to-Fade, to-Wither and Pine-away, My Weary and Tender Back, had a Hard Pillow on the Rough Cross, My Heavy Body gave-way, My Whole Frame was Gashed-with Wounds, and like one Great Sore, and All-this, My Loving Heart, Willingly-endured.


CHAPTER V - How the Soul Attains Hearty Repentance
and Gentle Pardon Under the Cross

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Now then, Cheer-up thou Soul of-mine! Collect thyself entirely, from all 'Exterior' things, into the Calm Silence of thy 'Interior', that so, thou mayest Break-away, and Wander at-large, and Run Wild in the Rugged Wilderness of an Unfathomable Sorrow-of Heart, up-to the High Rock of Misery, now Contemplated; and mayest Cry-aloud from the Depths-of thy Sad and Languishing Heart, till it resound-over Hill and Valley, throughout the Sky, and Pierce even to-Heaven, before all the Heavenly Host; and speak-with thy Lamentable Voice thus: Alas, ye Living Rocks, ye Savage Beasts, ye Sunny Meads! who will give me the Burning-fire of my Full Heart, and the Scalding Water of my Sorrowful Tears, to Wake you up, that ye may Help me to-Bewail the Unfathomable Heartrending Woe which my poor-Heart, so Secretly Suffers? Me, had my Heavenly Father adorned-above all Living Creatures, and elected-to-be His own Tender and Blessed Spouse. And lo, I have Fled-from Him! Woe is me! I have Lost the Beloved-of my Choice, my only-One! Woe on my Wretched Heart! Forever Woe! What have I Done, what have I Lost! I have Fled-from myself, all the Host-of Heaven, all that could give me Joy and Delight, have Fled-from me! I sit Forsaken, for my False Lovers were Deceivers. O Misery and Death! How Falsely and Miserably have ye not-Forsaken me, how Despoiled me, of all the Good, with which my only Love, had Arrayed me! Alas Honor! alas Joy! alas all Consolation! how am I utterly Robbed-of You! Whither shall I turn myself? The entire-World has Forsaken me, because I have Forsaken my only-Love. Wretched me! When I did so, what a Lamentable Hour it was! Behold in me, a Late Daisy, behold in me a Sloe Thorn, all ye Red Roses, ye White Lilies! take notice how very-quickly that Flower Withers, Fades, and Dies, which this World gathers! For I must always, thus-Living, Die; thus-Blooming, Fade; thus-Youthful, grow-Old; thus-Healthy, Sicken. And yet, Tender Lord, all that I Suffer, is of small-Account, compared-to my having made-Wroth Thy Fatherly Countenance; for this is to me a Hell and a Grief, above all Grief. Alas, that Thou shouldst have been so-Graciously Kind, that Thou shouldst have Warned me so-Tenderly, and Drawn me so Affectionately, and that I should have so Utterly Despised it all! O Heart of Man! what canst thou not Endure! As Hard-as Steel, must thou be, not to-Burst utterly-with Woe. True, I was once called His Beloved Spouse: Woe is me! I am not now Worthy to-be called His Poor Handmaid. Nevermore, for Bitter Shame, may I Raise my Eyes. Henceforth, in Joy and Sorrow, my mouth, to-Him, must be Dumb. O how Narrow, for me, is this Wide World! O God, were I but in a Wild Forest, where no one might Hear or See me, but where I could Cry Aloud to my Heart's Desire, to the Relief-of my Poor Heart; for other Consolation, I have none! O Sin, to what a pass, has thou brought me! Woe to thee, thou False World! Woe to him that serves thee! How hast Thou rewarded-me, seeing that I am a Burden-to myself and Thee, and ever must be. Hail, all-Hail to you, ye Rich Queens! ye Rich Souls, who, by the Misfortunes-of others, have become Wise; who have continued-in your First Innocence-of Body and Mind; how unwittingly-Blessed ye are! O Pure Conscience! O Free and Single Heart! how Ignorant are ye of the State-of a Heart, Oppressed and Sorrowful through Sin! Ah me, Poor Spouse, how Happy was I with my Beloved, and how-Little did I Know it! Who will give me the Breadth-of the Heavens for Parchment, the Depth-of the Sea for Ink, Leaves and Grass for Pens, that I may Write fully-out my Desolation-of Soul, and the Irreparable Calamity which my Woeful separation-from my Beloved has brought upon-me! Alas that ever I was Born! What is left, but for me, to cast-myself, into the Abyss-of Despair?

Eternal Wisdom -- Thou must not Despair. Did I not Come-into the World for the sake-of thee, and all Sinners, that I might lead thee back-to My Father in such Beauty, Brightness, and Purity, as otherwise thou never couldst have Acquired?

The Servant -- O what is that, which sounds so Sweetly, in a Dead and Outcast Soul?

Eternal Wisdom -- Dost thou not know Me? What! art thou Fallen so-Low, or hast thou Lost thy Senses, because of thy Great Trouble, my Tender Child? And yet it is I, the all-Merciful Wisdom, I Who have opened-wide the Abyss-of Infinite Mercy, which is, however, hidden-from all the Saints, to Receive thee, and all Penitent Hearts. It is I, the Sweet Eternal Wisdom, Who became Wretched and Poor, that I might Guide thee back-again to thy Dignity. It is I, Who Suffered Bitter-Death, that I might bring thee again, to-Life. Lo, here I am, Pale, Bloody, Affectionate, as when Suspended-between thee, and the Severe Judgment of My Father, on the Lofty Gibbet of the Cross. It is I, thy Brother. Behold, it is I, thy Bridegroom! Everything that thou ever didst against Me, will I Wholly Forget, as though it had never-happened, provided only that thou Return-to Me, and never quit Me more. Wash thyself in My Precious Blood, lift-up thy Head, open thy Eyes, and be of Good Cheer. Receive, as a Token of entire-Peace and complete-Expiation, My Wedding Ring on thy hand, receive thy First Robe, Shoes on thy Feet, and the Fond Name-of My Bride, for-ever! Lo, I have garnered thee up, with such Bitter Toil! Therefore, if the Whole World were a Consuming Fire, and there lay in the Midst-of it a Handful-of Flax, it would not, from its very Nature, be so susceptible-of the Burning Flame, as the Abyss-of My Mercy, is ready-to Pardon a Repentant Sinner, and Blot-out his Sins.

The Servant -- O my Father! O my Brother! O all that can Ravish my Heart! And wilt Thou still be Gracious, to my Offending Soul? O what Goodness, what Unfathomable Compassion! For this, will I fall-prostrate at Thy Feet, O Heavenly Father! and thank Thee from the Bottom-of my Heart, and beg-of Thee to look-on Thy only-Begotten Son, Whom, out-of Love, Thou gavest-to Bitter Death, and to-Forget my Grievous Misdeeds. Remember, Heavenly Father, how Thou didst Swear-of-Old, to Noah, and didst say: I will Stretch My Bow, in the Sky; I will look upon it, and it shall be a Sign of Reconciliation between Me and the Earth. O look now upon it, Tender Father, how Cruelly stretched-out it is, so that its Bones and Ribs can be-Numbered; look how Red, how Green, how Yellow, Love has made it! Look, O Heavenly Father, through the Hands, the Arms, and the Feet, so Woefully Distended, of Thy Tender and only-Begotten Son. Look at His Beautiful Body, all Rose Color with Wounds, and forget Thy Anger against me. Remember that Thou art only called the Lord-of Mercy, the Father-of Mercy, because Thou Forgivest. Such is Thy Name. To whom did Thou give Thy Best-Beloved Son? To Sinners. Lord, He is Mine! Lord, He is ours! This very day, will I Enclose-myself with His bare-extended Arms, in a Loving Embrace, in the bottom-of my Heart and Soul, and Living or Dead, will never-more be separated-from Him. Therefore, do Him Honor today, in me, and Graciously Forget that, wherein I may have Angered Thee. For, methinks it were easier, for me to Suffer Death, than ever to Anger Thee, my Heavenly Father, again. Neither Afflictions nor Oppressions, neither Hell nor Purgatory, are such causes-of Lamentation to my Heart, as that I ever should have Angered and Dishonored Thee, my-Creator, my-Lord, my-God, my-Savior, the Joy and Delight of my Heart. Oh, if for this I could give-Voice to my Grief-of Soul, through all the Heavens, till my Heart should Burst-into a Thousand Pieces, how Gladly would I do it! And the more-entirely Thou Forgivest my Evil Deeds, so-much the Greater, is my Sorrow-of Heart at having been so-Ungrateful, in-return-for Thy Great Goodness. And Thou, my only Consolation, Thou my Tender Elected One, Eternal Wisdom! how can I ever make Thee a Complete and Proper, Return-of Thanks, for having at so Dear-a-Rate, Healed and Reconciled, with Thy Pangs and Wounds, the Breach which all Created Beings could not have made Good? And, therefore, my Eternal Joy, Teach me how to-bear Thy Wounds and Love-Marks on my entire-Body, and how to have them, at all-times in my keeping, so that all this World, and all the Heavenly Host, may see that I am Grateful, for the Infinite Good which, out-of Thy Unfathomable Goodness alone, Thou hast Bestowed-on my Lost Soul.

Eternal Wisdom -- Thou shouldst give thyself, and all that is thine, to Me, Cheerfully, and never take them back. All that is not-of Absolute Necessity to thee, shouldst thou Leave Untouched; then will thy Hands be Truly Nailed-to My Cross. Thou shouldst Cheerfully, set-about Good Works, and Persevere-in them; then will thy Left Foot be made-Fast. Thy Inconstant Mind and Wandering Thoughts, shouldst thou make, Constant and Collected in Me; and thus thy Right Foot will be Nailed-to My Cross. Thy Mental and Bodily Powers must not seek-Rest in Lukewarmness; in the Likeness-of My Arms, they should be Stretched-out in My Service. Thy Sickly Body must often, in Honor-of my Dislocated Bones, be Wearied-out in Spiritual Exercises, and Rendered incapable-of Fulfilling, its own-Desires. Many an Unknown Suffering, must Strain thee to Me, on the Narrow, Bed-of the Cross, by which thou wilt become Lovely, like Me, and of the Color-of Blood. The Withering-away of thy Nature, must make Me Blooming again; thy Spontaneous Hardships must be to My Weary Back, as a Bed; thy Resolute Resistance to Sin, must Relieve My Spirit; thy Devout Heart must-Soften, My Pains, and thy High Flaming Heart, must-Kindle, My Fervid Heart.

The Servant -- Now, then, fulfill Thou my Good Wishes, according-to Thy Highest Praise, and according-to Thy very-best Will; for indeed Thy Yoke is Sweet, and Thy Burthen, Light; this do all those know, who have experienced it, and who were once over-Laden with the Heavy Load of Sin.


CHAPTER VI - How Deceitful the Love of This World is, and How Amiable God is

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Sweetest God, if I leave Thee, but a Little, I am like a Young Roe (Deer), which has strayed-from its Dam (Mother), and is Pursued-by the Hunter, and Runs Wildly about, until it Escapes, back-to its Cover. Lord, I flee, I run-to Thee with Ardent Desire, like a Stag to the Living Waters. Lord, One (1) little-hour without Thee, is a Whole Year; to be Estranged, One (1) Day from Thee, is as-much-as a Thousand Years, to a Loving Heart. Therefore, Thou Branch-of Salvation, Thou Bush-of May, Thou Red-Blooming Rose Tree, Open and Spread-out the Green Branches of Thy Divine Nature. Lord, Thy Countenance is so Full-of Graciousness, Thy Mouth, so Full-of Living Words, Thy Whole Carriage, such a Pure Mirror-of all Discipline and Meekness! O Thou Aspect-of Graciousness, to all the Saints, how very Blessed is he, who is found Worthy-of Thy Sweet Espousals!

Eternal Wisdom -- Many are Called-to them, but Few, are Chosen.

The Servant -- Gentle Lord, either they have Broken-with Thee, or Thou with them.

Eternal Wisdom -- Lift up, therefore, thy Eyes, and Behold this Vision.

The Servant, Lifted-up his Eyes and was Terrified, and, with a Deep Sigh, said: Woe to me, Dear Lord, that ever I was Born! Do I See-aright, or is it only a Dream? I saw Thee before, in such Richness-of Beauty, and such Tenderness-of Love; now, I see Nothing but a Poor, Outcast, Miserable Pilgrim, who stands Wretchedly, leaning-on His Staff, before an old-decayed City. The Trenches are in-Ruins, the Walls falling-down, only that, here-and-there, the High Tops of the old-Timber Work, still Project Aloft; and in the City, is a Great Multitude-of People; among them, are many that look like Wild Beasts, in a Human Form: and the Miserable Pilgrim goes Wandering-about, to see if any one will take him, by the Hand. Alas! I Behold the Multitude, Drive him with-Insult, away, and hardly look at him, because of the things, about which they are Busy. And yet some, but only a very-Few, offer to give him their Hands; this, the other Wild Beasts, come and prevent. Now I hear the Miserable Pilgrim begin to sigh-Woefully, and cry-Aloud: O Heaven and Earth have Pity on me -- me who have Garnered-up this City, with such Bitter Toil, and who am so Badly Welcomed in it, while those who have spent no-Labor upon it, are yet so Kindly Received!

Lord, such is what has been shown me in the Vision. O Thou Eternal God, what does it Mean? Am I Right or Wrong?

Eternal Wisdom -- This Vision, is a Vision-of Pure Truth. Hearken-to a Lamentable thing; O let it Touch thy Heart, with Pity! I am, the Miserable Pilgrim Whom thou didst see. At One Time, I was in Great Honor, in that City, but now I am brought-down to Great Misery, and Driven-out.

The Servant -- Dearest Lord! what is this City, what are the People in it?

Eternal Wisdom -- This Decayed City, is an Image-of that Spiritual Life, in which I was Once, so Worthily Served. And while they were Living-in it, so Holily and Securely, it begins in many-places to Fall, very much to Ruin; the Trenches begin to-Decay, and the Walls to-Crack, that is to say, Devout Obedience, Voluntary Poverty, Secluded Purity in Holy Simplicity, begin-to Disappear, and, at-last, to such-a-Degree, that Nothing is to-be-seen Standing, except the High Timber Work of mere-Exterior Observance. As to the Great Multitude, the Beasts in Human Form, they are Worldly Hearts under Spiritual Disguises, who, in the Vain Pursuit-of Transitory Things, drive Me out-of their Souls. That a Few should, nevertheless, offer-to give Me their Hands, but are Hindered-by the Rest, Signifies that some Men of Good Intentions, and Devout Feelings, are Perverted-by the Speech and Evil Example, of others. The Staff on which thou didst see Me Stand Leaning, is the Cross-of My Bitter Passion, with which I Admonish them, at all times, to Think-on My Sufferings, and to-Turn, with the Love-of their Hearts, to Me alone. But the Cry-of Misery thou didst hear is My Death which even here begins to Cry Aloud, and ever Cries Aloud, because of those in-whom neither My Unfathomable Love nor My Bitter Death, is able to do so-much-as, to Expel the Worm-of Sinful Thoughts from their Hearts.

The Servant -- O Lord, how it cuts-through my very Heart and Soul, to think Thou Art so-Lovable, and yet, in-spite-of all Thy Advances, art in many Hearts, so utterly-Despised. Ah! Tender Lord, what will Thy Advances be, to those who, though they see Thee in the Miserable Shape, in which Thou art Rejected-by the Multitude, yet stretch-out their hands to Thee, with Sincere Faith and Love?

Eternal Wisdom -- Those who, for My Sake, give-up Perishable Affections, and Receive Me with Sincere Faith and Love, and Remain Constant, to the End, will I Espouse-with My Divine Love and Sweetness, and will give them My Hand in Death, and Exalt them on the Throne-of My Glory, before the Whole Court of Heaven.

The Servant -- Lord, there be many, who think they will still Love Thee, without giving-up Perishable Love. Lord, they will, needs-be, very Dear to Thee, and yet will, not-the-less, Indulge-in Temporal Love.

Eternal Wisdom -- It is as Impossible as-to Compress the Heavens together and Enclose them in a Nut Shell. Such Persons, array themselves in Fair Words, they Build-upon the Wind, and Construct-upon the Rainbow. How may the Eternal, abide-with the Temporal, when even One (1) Temporal Thing, neither can, nor will, Endure another? He but Deceives himself who thinks he can Lodge the King-of-kings in a Common Inn, or Thrust Him into the Mean Dwelling of a Servant. In entire-Seclusion from all-Creatures, must he keep himself, who is Desirous-of Receiving his Guest, as he ought.

The Servant -- Alas, Sweet Lord, how completely-Bewitched must they all be, not to see this!

Eternal Wisdom -- They stand-in Deep Blindness. They Endure, many a Hard Struggle, for Pleasures which, they neither Fix their Attachment, nor afford them Full Gratification. Before they obtain One (1) Joy, they meet with Ten (10) Sorrows, and the more they Pursue their Lusts, the more are these Upbraided-with being Insufficient. Lo! Godless Hearts, must needs-be, at all times, in Fear and Trembling. Even the Fleeting Pleasure they Obtain, proves very Harsh to them, for they Procure it with much-Toil, they enjoy it in Great Anxiety, and Lose it with much Bitterness. The World is full-of Untruth, Falsehood, and Inconstancy; when Profit is at an End, Friendship is at an End, and to speak shortly, neither True Love, nor Entire Joy, nor Constant Peace of Mind, was ever obtained by any Heart, from Creatures.

The Servant -- Alas! Dear Lord, what a Lamentable Thing it is, that so-many a Noble Soul, so-many a Languishing Heart, so-many an Image Formed-after God in such Beauty and Sweetness, that in Thy Espousals, ought-to-be Queens and Empresses, Powerful in-Heaven and on-Earth, should so-Foolishly, go-Astray and Degrade themselves! Oh, wonder-of-wonders! to think that, of their own-Accord, they should be Lost! since, according-to Thy Words-of Truth, the fell Separation-of the Soul from the Body, were Better-for them, than that Thou, the 'Life-Eternal', shouldest have-to Separate-from their Souls, where Thou findest no-Dwelling-Place. Oh, ye Dull Fools, Behold how your Great Ruin, Prospers, how your Great Loss, Increases, how you allow the Precious, the Fair, the Delightsome Moments to pass-away, which ye may Hardly, or indeed Never-again Possess, and how Gaily you carry yourselves the while, as though it concerned you not! Alas! Thou Gentle Wisdom, did they but Know-it, and Feel-it, surely, they would Desist.

Eternal Wisdom -- Listen to a Wonderful and Lamentable thing. They Know-it and Feel-it at all-Hours, and yet do not Desist; they Know-it, and yet will not Know-it; they Beautify-it, like Unsound Argument, with Dazzling Brightness, which yet is unlike the Naked Truth, as so-many of them at-Last, when it is too-Late, will have-to Feel.

The Servant -- Alas! Tender Wisdom, how Senseless they are, or what does it mean?

Eternal Wisdom -- Here will they needs-escape Calamity and Suffering, and yet Fall-into the Midst-of it; and as they will not Endure the Eternal Good and My Sweet Yoke, they will be Overwhelmed-by the Inevitable Doom of My Severe Justice, with many a Heavy Burthen. They Fear the Frost, and Fall-into the Snow.

The Servant -- Alas! Tender and Merciful Wisdom, remember that, without being Strengthened-by Thee, no one can Accomplish anything. I see no other Help for them, than to-Raise their Eyes to Thee, and to-Fall at Thy Feet with Bitter, Heart-felt Tears, entreating that Thou wouldst Vouchsafe to-Enlighten them, and Free them from the Bonds, with-which they are made-Fast.

Eternal Wisdom -- I am at all-Times, Ready to-Help them, if only they be ready. I do not Turn away-from them.

The Servant -- Lord, it is Painful for Love, to-separate from Love.

Eternal Wisdom -- Very True, if I could-not, and would-not, Lovingly make Good, all Love, in Hearts-of Love.

The Servant -- O Lord, it is Impossible, to leave-off Old Custom.

Eternal Wisdom -- But, it will be yet more-Impossible, to-endure Future Torments.

The Servant -- They are perhaps so well-Regulated in-themselves, that it does them no-Injury.

Eternal Wisdom -- I was the best-Regulated of Men, and yet the most self-Mortified. How may that be Regulated, which, from its very Nature, Corrupts the Heart, Confuses the Mind, Perverts Discipline, Draws-off the Heart from all Fervor, and Robs it of its Peace? It breaks-open the Gates, behind which Godly Living lies-Hidden, that is, the Five (5) Senses. It casts-forth Sobriety, and introduces Audaciousness, the Loss-of Grace, Estrangement-from God, Interior Tepidity, and Exterior Sloth.

The Servant -- Lord, they do not think they are Hindered so-much, if only what they Love, have the Appearance-of a Spiritual Life.

Eternal Wisdom -- A Clear-Seeing Eye, may just-as easily-be Blinded-by Whole-Meal, as by Pale-Ashes. Behold, was ever any Person's Presence, so-Harmless as Mine, among My Disciples? No Unprofitable Words, Fell from-us, among-us, there was no Extravagant Demeanor, no Beginning-Loftily in the Spirit, and Sinking-Down in the Depth-of Endless Words; there was Nothing-but, Real Earnestness and Entire Truth without any Deceit. And yet, My Bodily Presence, had to be Withdrawn-from them, before they became Susceptible-of My Spirit. What a Hindrance, then, must-not a merely Human Presence prove! Before they are Influenced-to Good, by One (1) Person, they are Seduced-by a Thousand; before they are Reformed-in One (1) Point, by Good Precept, they are often, Led-astray by Bad-example; and, to Speak-briefly, as the Sharp Frost in May, Nips the Blossoms and Scatters them Abroad, so the Love-of Perishable-things, Blights Godly Seriousness and Religious Discipline. If thou hast still-a-Doubt, Respecting it, look-around thee into the Beautiful, Fruitful Vineyards, which formerly were so-Delightful in their First Bloom, how utterly-Withered and Ruined they are, so that they contain Few Traces more, of Fervent Seriousness, and Great Devotion. Now, this produces an Irreparable Injury, for it has become a Thing-of Habit, a Spiritual Decorum, which, Secretly, is so Destructive-of all Spiritual Salvation. It is all the more Pernicious, as it appears Innocent. How many a Precious Spice-Garden is there, which, adorned-with Delightful Gifts, was a Heavenly Paradise, where God was well-Pleased to Dwell, which, now, by Reason-of Perishable Love, has become a Garden-of Wild Weeds; where Lilies and Roses formerly-grew, now-stands Thorns, Nettles, and Briars, and, where Angels were used to-Dwell, Swine now Root-up the Soil. Woe, Betide the Hour, when all Lost Time, when all Good Works Neglected, shall be Reckoned-up, when every Idle Word, Spoken, Thought, Written, whether in-Secret or in-Public, shall be Read-out before God, and the Whole World, and its Meaning, without Disguise, be Understood!

The Servant -- Alas! my Lord, some Hearts there are, of so-Tender a Nature, that they are much-sooner, Attracted-by Love, than Fear, and as Thou, the Lord-of Nature, art not a Destroyer, but a Fulfiller-of Nature, O, therefore, most Kind and Gracious Lord, put an End, to this Sad Discourse, and tell me how Thou art a Mother of Beautiful Love, and how Sweet, Thy Love is.


CHAPTER VII - How Lovely God is

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Lord, let me Reflect-on that Divine Passage, where Thou speakest-of Thyself in the Book of Wisdom: Come over to Me, all ye that desire Me, and be filled with My Fruits. I am the Mother of Fair Love; My Spirit is Sweet, above Honey, and the Honeycomb. Wine and Music, Rejoice the Heart, but the Love of Wisdom is above them both.

Ah, Lord! Thou canst show Thyself so-Lovely and so-Tender, that all Hearts, must-needs, Languish for Thee, and Endure, for Thy Sake, all the Misery of Tender Desire; Thy Words-of Love, flow so-Sweetly out-of Thy Sweet Mouth, and so-Powerfully Affect many Hearts, in their Days-of Youthful Bloom, that Perishable Love is Wholly Extinguished in them. O my Dear Lord, this-it-is, for-which my Soul Sighs, this-it-is, which makes my Spirit Sad, this-it-is, about which I would Gladly, hear Thee Speak. Now, then, my only Elected Comforter, Speak One (1) little-word to my Soul, to Thy Poor Handmaid; for, Lo! I am Fallen, Softly Asleep, beneath Thy Shadow, and my Heart watcheth.

Eternal Wisdom -- Listen, then, My son, and See, incline-to Me, thy Ears, Enter Wholly into thy Interior, and Forget thyself and all-things. I am in Myself, the Incomprehensible Good, which Always-was and Always-is, which Never-was and Never-will be-uttered. I may indeed give Myself to Men's Hearts, to be Felt by them, but no-Tongue can Truly express Me in Words. And yet, when I, the Supernatural, Immutable Good, present Myself to every Creature, according-to its Capacity, to be Susceptible-of Me, I Bind the Sun's Splendor, as it were, in a Cloth, and give thee Spiritual Perceptions of Me, and of My Sweet Love, in Bodily Words thus: I set Myself, Tenderly-before the Eyes-of thy Heart; now, Adorn and Clothe-thou, Me, in Spiritual Perceptions, and Represent Me as-Delicate and as-Comely, as thy very Heart could wish, and Bestow-on Me all those things, that can move the Heart to Especial Love, and entire Delight-of Soul. Lo! All and Everything, that thou and all Men can Possibly Imagine of-Form, of-Elegance, and Grace, is in Me, far-more Ravishing than anyone can Express, and in-Words like these, do I Choose-to make Myself Known. Now, listen further: I am of High Birth, of Noble Race; I am the Eternal Word, of the Fatherly Heart, in which, according-to the Love-abounding Abyss of My Natural Sonship, in His Sole-Paternity, I possess a Gratefulness before His Tender Eyes, in the Sweet and Bright-flaming Love-of the Holy Ghost. I am the Throne-of Delight, I am the Crown-of Salvation, My Eyes are so-Clear, My Mouth so-Tender, My Cheeks so-Radiant and Blooming, and all My Figure so-Fair and Ravishing, yea, and so Delicately Formed, that if a Man were to-lie in the Glowing Furnace, till the Day-of Judgment, only to have One (1) Single Glance at My Beauty, he would not Deserve it. See, I am so-Deliciously Adorned, in Garments-of Light, I am so Exquisitely set-off with all the Blooming Colors of Living Flowers, that all May-Blossoms, all the Beautiful Shrubs of all Dewy Fields, all the Tender Buds of the Sunny Meads, are but as Rough Thistles, compared-to My Adornment.

In the Godhead, I Play the Game of Bliss,
Such Joy the Angels find in this,
That unto them a Thousand Years
But as One Little Hour appears.

All the Heavenly Host follow Me, Entranced-by New Wonders, and Behold Me; their Eyes are fixed-on Mine; their Hearts are Inclined-to Me, their Minds bent-on Me, without Intermission. Happy is he who, in Joyous Security, shall take Me, by My Beautiful Hand, and join-in My Sweet Diversions, and Dance forever, the Dance-of Joy, amid the Ravishing Delights, of the Kingdom-of Heaven! One (1) Little Word, there Spoken-by My Sweet Mouth, will far-Surpass the Singing-of all Angels, the Music-of all Harps, the Harmony-of all Sweet Strings. My Faithfulness is so made to-be Loved, so Lovely am I to-be Embraced, and so-Tender for Pure Languishing Souls to Kiss, that all-Hearts ought to break, for My Possession. I am Condescending and Full-of Sympathy and always present-to the Pure Soul. I abide with her in-Secret, at-Table, in-Bed, in the Streets, in the Fields. Turn Myself whichever way I Will, in-Me there is Nothing that can Displease, in-Me is everything that can Delight the Utmost Wishes-of thy Heart, and Desires-of the Soul. Lo! I am a Good, so-Pure, that he, who in his day, only gets One (1) Drop-of Me, regards all the Pleasures and Delights of this World, as nothing but Bitterness; all its Possessions and Honors as Worthless, and only fit to be Cast-away; My Beloved Ones are Encompassed-by My Love, and are Absorbed-into the One Thing alone, without Imaged Love, and without Spoken Words, and are Taken and Infused-into that Good, out of which they Flowed. My Love can also Relieve, Regenerate Hearts, from the Heavy Load of Sin, and can Give a Free, Pure, and Gentle Heart, and Create a Clean Conscience. Tell Me, what is there, in all this World, able to Outweigh, this One (1) thing? For he who gives his Heart, Wholly to-Me, Lives Joyfully, Dies Securely, and obtains the Kingdom-of Heaven, here, as-well-as, Hereafter.

Now, Observe, I have Assuredly given thee many Words, and yet My Beauty has been as little Touched-by them, as the Firmament, by thy Little Finger, because no-Eye has ever seen My Beauty, nor Ear heard it, neither has it ever entered any Heart. Still, let what I have said to thee, be as a Device, to-show thee the Difference between My Sweet Love, and False, Perishable love.

The Servant -- Ah! Thou Tender, Delicious, Wild Flower, Thou Delight-of the Heart, in the Embracing-arms of the Pure, Loving Soul, how familiar is all this to him who has even Once (1), really Felt Thee; but how Strange is it to that Man who knows Thee not, whose Heart and Mind are still in the Body! O, Thou most Heart-felt Incomprehensible Good, this is a Precious Hour, this is a Sweet Moment, in which I must open-to Thee a Secret Wound, which my Heart, still bears-from Thy Sweet Love. Lord, Plurality in Love, is like Water in the Fire. Lord, Thou knowest that Real Fervent Love, cannot-bear Duality. Alas! Thou only Lord of my Heart and Soul, my Heart desires-that Thou shouldst have a particular-Love for me, and that I should be particularly-Pleasing, to Thy Divine Eyes. O Lord, Thou hast so-many Hearts, that Ardently Love Thee, and are of much-Account, with Thee. Alas! my Sweet and Tender Lord, how stands it with me, in this matter?

Eternal Wisdom -- My Love is of that sort, which is not Diminished, in Unity, nor Confounded-in Multiplicity. I am as entirely-Concerned and Occupied-with thee alone, with the Thought, how I may at all-Times, Love thee alone, and Fulfill everything that Appertains to thee, as though I were Wholly Disengaged-from all other things.

The Servant -- O Rare! O Wonderful! Whither am I Borne, how am I gone-Astray! how is my Soul, utterly Dissolved by the Sweet Friendly Words of my Beloved! Oh, turn-away Thy Bright Eyes from me, for they have Overcome me. Wherever was there a Heart so-Hard, a Soul so-Lukewarm, so-Cold as, when it heard Thy Sweet, Living Words, so-exceedingly Fiery as they are, was not Fain to-Melt and Kindle-in Thy Sweet Love! O Wonder-of-wonders! that he who thus sees Thee, with the Eyes-of his Soul, should not Feel his very Heart, dissolve-in Love. How Right Blessed is he, who bears the Name of Thy Spouse, and is so! What Sweet Consolations and Secret Tokens of Thy Love, must not he Eternally, receive-from Thee! O thou Sweet Virgin, Saint Agnes, thou Fair Wooer of Eternal Wisdom! how well couldst thou Console thyself, with thy Dear Bridegroom, when thou didst say, "His Blood has Adorned my Cheeks, as with Roses". O Gentle Lord, that my Soul were, but Worthy, to be called, Thy Wooer! And were it indeed Possible, that all Delights, all Joy and Love, that this World can Afford, might be found, United-in One (1) Man, how gladly would I Renounce him, for the sake of that Name! How Blessed is that Man, that ever he was Born into the World, who is named Thy Friend, and is so! Oh, if a Man had even a Thousand Lives, he ought to Stake them, at once, for the sake-of acquiring Thy Love. Oh, all ye Friends-of God, all ye Heavenly Host, and thou Dear Virgin, Saint Agnes, Help me to Pray-to Him; for never did I Rightly Know, what His Love was. Alas! thou Heart-of mine, Lay-aside, Put-away all Sloth, and see if, before thy Death, thou mayest Advance so-far as to Feel, His Sweet Love. O thou Tender Beautiful Wisdom! O my Elected One! What a Truly Right, Gracious Love, Thou canst be, above all Loves, else in the World! How very different is Thy Love, and the Love-of Creatures! How False, is everything that appears Lovely in this World, and gives itself out to be something, as soon as one really begins to Know it. Lord, wherever I might Cast my Eyes, I always found something to Disgust me; for, if it was a Fair Image, it was Void-of Grace; if it was Fair and Lovely, it had not the True Way; or if it had indeed this, still, I always found something, either Inwardly or Outwardly, to which the entire Inclination-of my Heart, was secretly Opposed. But Thou art Beauty, with Infinite Affability, Thou art Grace, in Shape and Form, the Word, with the Way, Nobility with Virtue, Riches with Power, Interior Freedom and Exterior Brightness, and One (1) thing Thou art which I have never found in-Time, namely, a Power and Faculty-of Perfectly Satiating every Wish, and every Ardent Desire, of a Truly Loving Heart. The more one Knows Thee, the more one Loves Thee; the more Acquainted one is with Thee, the more Friendly one finds Thee. Ah me! what an Unfathomable, Entirely Pure Good, Thou art! See how Deceived, all those Hearts are, that Fix their Affections on anything else! Ah! ye False Lovers, flee far from me, never come near me more. I have chosen for my Heart, that One (1) only Love, in which my Heart, my Soul, my Desire, and all my Powers can alone be Satiated-with a Love, that never Dissolves-away. Oh Lord, could I but trace Thee on my Heart! could I but Melt Thee with Characters-of Gold, into the Innermost Core-of my Heart and Soul, so that Thou mightest never be Eradicated, out of me! Oh, Misery and Desolation! that ever I should have Troubled my Heart with such things! What have I Gained, with all my Lovers, but Time Lost, Forfeited Words, an Empty Hand, few Good Works, and a Conscience, Burdened-with Infirmity? Slay me, rather, in Thy Love, O Lord, for from Thy Feet, I will never-more, be separated.

Eternal Wisdom -- I go-forth, to meet those who seek Me, and I receive with Affectionate Joy, such-as Desire, My Love. All that thou canst ever Experience-of My Sweet Love, in-Time, is but as a little-drop to the Ocean-of My Love, in-Eternity.


CHAPTER VIII - An Explanation of Three Things Which Most of All Might be Likely to be Repugnant to a Loving Heart in God - The First Thing - How He can appear so Wrathful and Yet be so Gracious

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Three (3) things there are, at which I Marvel very much; One (1) is, that Thou shouldst be Beyond all Measure, so Amiable Thyself, and yet so-Severe a Judge of Evil Deeds. Lord, when I Reflect-on Thy Severe Justice, my Heart, with Passionate Voice exclaims: "Woe to all who Persist in Sin!" for did they but know, the Strict Account-of every-single Sin, which Thou wilt Infallibly Require, even from Thy very Dearest Friends, they would sooner Pluck-out their Teeth and Hair, than ever Provoke Thy Anger! Woe is me! How very Terrible is Thy Angry Countenance, how very Intolerable, Thy Ungentle Averted Looks! So Full-of Fire, are Thy Threatening Words, that they cut-through Heart and Soul. Shield me, O Lord, from Thy Wrathful Countenance, and extend not Thy Vengeance against me, to the Next World. Lo! when I only Doubt, lest, because of my Guilty Deeds Thou mayest have turned Thy Face, Angrily away-from me, it is a thing so-Insupportable, that nothing in all this World is so-Bitter to me. Oh, my Lord and Father, how could my Heart endure Thy Angry Countenance, Forever! When I but Seriously reflect-on Thy Countenance, Inflamed-with Anger, my Soul is so-Horrified, all my Strength is so-Shaken, that I can liken it, to Nothing else than to the Heavens, beginning to Darken and Grow Black, to Fire, Raging-in the Clouds, and to a Mighty Thunder, Rending them, so that the Earth Trembles, and Fiery Bolts dart-down upon Men. Lord, let no one confide-in Thy Silence, for Verily, Thy Silence will soon be turned-to Dreadful Thunder. Lord, the Angry Countenance-of Thy Fatherly Anger, to that Man, who is Fearful of Provoking and Losing Thee, is a Hell, above all Hells. I will say nothing of that Furious Countenance-of Thine which the Wicked, at the Last Day, will have to-behold in Bitterness-of Heart. Woe, Everlasting Woe, to those who shall have to expect so-Great a Calamity!

Lord, all this is a Profound Mystery to my Heart, and yet Thou sayest that Thou art so-Gracious and so-Good.

Eternal Wisdom -- I am the Immutable Good, and subsist the Same and am the Same. But that, I do not Appear the Same, Arises-from the Difference-of those who view Me differently, according-as they are With or Without Sin. I am Tender and Loving in My Nature, and yet a Terrible Judge-of Evil Deeds. I Require from My Friends, Childlike Awe, and Confiding Love, in order that Awe, may Restrain them from Sin, and Love Unite them to Me, in-Faith.


CHAPTER IX - The Second Thing - Why God, after Rejoicing the Heart, Often Withdraws Himself from His Friends, by Which His True Presence is Made Known

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Lord, all has been Explained to my Heart's Satisfaction, except One (1) thing. In Truth, Lord, when a Soul is quite Exhausted, with Yearning after Thee, and the Sweet Caresses of Thy Presence, then, Lord, art Thou Silent, and sayest Not a Word. O Lord! ought not this to Grieve my Heart, that Thou, my Tender Lord, Thou Who art my only One (1) Love, and the Sole Desire of my Heart, shouldst yet Behave Thyself so Strangely, and in such a Way, hold Thy Peace?

Eternal Wisdom -- And yet do all Creatures, Cry Aloud-to Me, that it is I.

The Servant -- O Dear Lord! that is not enough for a Languishing Soul.

Eternal Wisdom -- If every little Word I utter, is a little Word of Love to their Hearts, and every Word of the Sacred Scriptures, written by Me, is a Sweet Love-letter, as though I Myself had written it, ought this not to be Enough for them?

The Servant -- O Lord, Thou Knowest-well, that to a Loving Heart, everything that is not its only-Love. and its only-Consolation, is Insufficient. Lord, Thou art so-very Intimate, Choice, and Fathomless a Love; lo! if even all the Tongues-of all the Angels were to Address me, Love-Unfathomable would still Pursue and Strive after Him alone, Whom it Longs-for. A Loving Soul, would still take Thee for the Kingdom-of Heaven, for surely Thou art her Heaven. Alas! Lord, may I venture to say that Thou shouldst be a little more Favorable-to such Poor Affectionate Hearts, as Pine and Languish for Thee, as Breathe-out so many an Unfathomable Sigh to Thee, as look up so-Yearningly to Thee, Crying Aloud from their very Hearts, Return to us, O Lord! and Speaking and Reasoning with themselves thus: "Have we Cause to Think we have Angered Him, and that He will Forsake us? Have we Cause to Think He will not give us His Loving Presence back-again, so that we may Affectionately Embrace Him, with the Arms of our Hearts, and Press Him to our Bosoms, till all our Sorrow Vanish? Lord, all this Thou Knowest and Hearest, and yet Thou art Silent!"

Eternal Wisdom -- I Know it, and See it with Heart-felt Eager Joy. But now, since thy Wonder is so Great, answer Me a Question. What is that which, of all things, gives the most-Delight to the Highest of Created Spirits?

The Servant -- Lord, I would Fain Learn this from Thee, for such a Question is too Great for my Understanding.

Eternal Wisdom -- Then I will tell Thee. Nothing, Tastes Better to the very Highest Angel, than, in all things, to do My Will; so that if he knew that it would tend-to My Praise, to Root-up Nettles, and other Weeds, it would be for him, of all things, the most-Desirable to Perform.

The Servant -- Ah, Lord, how dost Thou Strike Home to me, with this Question! For surely Thy Meaning is, that I ought to keep myself Disengaged and Serene in Joy, and seek Thy Praise alone, both in Sorrow and Delight.

Eternal Wisdom -- A Desertion, above all Desertion, is to be Deserted, in Desertion.

The Servant -- Alas! Lord, but it is a very Heavy Woe.

Eternal Wisdom -- Where is Virtue Preserved, except in Adversity? Yet know, that I often Come and Ask for Admission into My House, and am Denied. Often am I Received-like a Poor Pilgrim, and Meanly Entertained, and Speedily Driven-out. I come even to My Beloved, and Fondly take up My Abode with her, but this takes place so-Secretly, that it is Totally Hidden from all Men, except those only, who Live-in entire Seclusion, and Perceive My Ways, who are ever-Careful to Correspond-to My Graces. For in virtue-of My Divinity, I am a Perfectly Pure Essential Spirit, and am Spiritually received-into Pure Spirits.

The Servant -- Gentle Lord, methinks Thou art altogether a Hidden Lover, therefore I desire Thou wouldst give me some Signs-of Thy True Presence.

Eternal Wisdom -- In Nothing, canst thou discern My Presence so well as in this, namely, when I Hide and Withdraw Myself from the Soul, as not till then, art thou capable-of Perceiving Who I am or What thou art. I am the Eternal Good, without which no one, has any Good. When I, the Eternal Good, pour Myself out so Graciously and Lovingly, everything into which I enter is made Good. By this Goodness, My Presence is to be Known, even as is the Sun by his Brightness, who, in his Substance, is yet not to be Seen. If ever thou art Sensible of Me, Enter-into thyself and Learn-to separate the Roses from the Thorns, and to Choose-out the Flowers from the Grass.

The Servant -- Lord, Truly I Seek, and Find in myself, a Great Inequality. When my Soul is Deserted, she is like a Sick Person, who can Relish nothing; who is Disgusted with everything; the Body is Languid, the Spirits are Dull; Dryness within, and Sadness without; all that I See and Hear, is then Repugnant-to me, and I know not how Good it is, for I have Lost all Discrimination. I am then Inclined-to Sin, Weak in-Resisting my Enemies, Cold and Lukewarm in all that is Good; he who visits me finds an Empty House, for the Master, who gives Wise Counsel and makes all the Family, Glad at Heart, is not within. But, Lord, when in the midst-of my Soul, the Bright Morning Star rises, all my Sorrow passes-away, all my Darkness is-scattered, and Laughing Cheerfulness appears. Lord, then Leaps my Heart, then are my Spirits Gay, then Rejoices my Soul, then is it my Marriage Feast, while all that is in-me, or about-me, is Turned-to Thy Praise. What before was Hard, Troublesome, and Impossible, becomes Easy and Pleasant; Fasting, Watching, Praying, Self-denial, and every Sort-of Rigor, are made Sweet by Thy Presence. Then do I Acquire great-Assurance in many things, which, in my Dereliction, I had Lost; my Soul is then Overflowed-with Clearness, Truth, and Sweetness, so that she Forgets all her Toil; my Heart can Sweetly Meditate, my Tongue - Loftily Discourse, and whoever seeks High Counsel from me, Touching his Heart's Desire, finds it; for then I am as though I had Overstepped the Bounds-of Time and Space, and stood in the Ante-Chamber of Eternal Salvation. Alas, Lord! who will Grant that it might only be, of Longer Duration, for Behold, in a Moment, it is Snatched-away, and I am again Stripped and Forsaken. Sometimes I Pursue it, as if I had never Gained it, till at last, after much Sorrow and Trouble of Heart, it comes-back. Lord! art Thou this thing, or am I it, or what is it?

Eternal Wisdom -- Thou art and hast of thyself, Nothing but Imperfection; I am it, and this is the Game of Love.

The Servant -- But, Lord, what is the Game of Love?

Eternal Wisdom -- All the Time that Love is with Love, Love does not know how Dear, Love is; but when Love separates-from Love, then only, does Love feel how Dear, Love was.

The Servant -- Lord! this is a Dreary Game. Alas, Lord! is Inconstancy never cast-aside in anyone, while Time lasts?

Eternal Wisdom -- In very few Persons, for Constancy belongs-to Eternity.

The Servant -- Lord, who are these Persons?

Eternal Wisdom -- The very Purest of all, and in Eternity the most-like to God.

The Servant -- Lord, which are they?

Eternal Wisdom -- They are those Persons who have Denied themselves, in the most Perfect Manner.

The Servant -- Gentle Lord, Teach me how, in my Imperfection, I ought to Behave in this Manner.

Eternal Wisdom -- In Good Days, thou oughtest to look at Evil Days, and in Evil Days, not to Forget Good Days; thus can neither Elation, Injure thee in My Company, nor Despondency in Dereliction. If, in thy Faintheartedness, thou canst not-Endure My Absence with Pleasure, Wait for Me, at least with Patience, and seek Me Diligently.

The Servant -- O Lord, long Waiting is Painful.

Eternal Wisdom -- He who will needs have Love in-Time, must know how to-bear Weal and Woe. It is not enough to Devote-to Me, only a Portion-of the Day. He who would enjoy God's Intimacy, who would hear His Mysterious Words, and mark their Secret Meaning, ought always to keep-within Doors. Alas! how is it that thou always Permittest thy Eyes to-Wander so Thoughtlessly around, when thou hast, Standing-before thee the Blessed and Eternal Image of the Godhead, Which never for a Moment, turns away from thee? Why dost thou let thy Ears Escape-from thee, when I Address thee, so many a Sweet Word? How is it that thou so Readily Forgettest thyself, when thou art so-Perfectly Encompassed-with the Eternal Good? What is it thy Soul seeks in Exterior Things, who carries within herself so Secretly, the Kingdom-of Heaven?

The Servant -- What is the Kingdom of Heaven, O Lord, which is in the Soul?

Eternal Wisdom -- It is Righteousness, and Peace, and Joy in the Holy Ghost.

The Servant -- Lord, I Understand from this Discourse, that Thou hast much Hidden Intercourse with the Soul, which is Wholly Hidden from her, and that Thou dost Secretly Attract the Soul, and dost Leisurely Initiate her into the Love and Knowledge of Thy High Divinity, her who at First, was only concerned-with Thy Fair Humanity.


CHAPTER X - The Third Thing - Why God Permits His Friends to Suffer
So Much Temporal Suffering

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Another thing, Lord, I have at my Heart; may I Venture-to tell it Thee? May I indeed Venture-to Dispute-with Thee, like Holy Jeremiah? Gentle Lord, People say as follows: that how Sweet soever Thy Love may be, Thou dost yet, Allow it to prove very-Harsh to Thy Friends, in the many Severe Trials which Thou sendest them, such as Worldly Scorn and much Adversity, both Inwardly and Outwardly. Scarcely is anyone, say they, admitted-to Thy Friendship, but he has forthwith to gather-up his Courage for Suffering. Lord, by Thy Goodness! what Sweetness can they have in all this? Or how canst Thou Permit it in Thy Friends? Or art Thou Pleased, not to Know anything about it?

Eternal Wisdom -- Even as My Father Loves Me, so do I Love My Friends. I do to My Friends now, as I have done from the Beginning-of the World.

The Servant -- This is what they Complain-of; and therefore, say they, Thou hast so-few Friends, because Thou allowest them to Prosper in this World, so very Sorrily. Lord, on this Account there are also indeed many who, when they gain Thy Friendship, and ought to Prove Constant in-Suffering, Fall-off from Thee; and (Woe is me! that I must say it in Sorrow of Heart, and with Bitter Tears) Relapse-to that State which, through Thee, they had Forsaken. O my Lord, what hast Thou to say to this?

Eternal Wisdom -- This is the Complaint-of Persons of a Sick Faith, and of Small Works, of a Lukewarm Life, and Undisciplined Spirit. But thou, Beloved Soul, up-with thy Mind, out-of the Slime and Deep Slough of Carnal Delights! Unlock thy Interior Sense, Open thy Spiritual Eyes and See. Mark-well, What thou art, Where thou art, and Whither thou dost belong; for then shalt thou Understand that I do the very-Best, for My Friends. According-to thy Natural Essence, thou art a Mirror-of the Divinity, thou art an Image-of the Trinity, and a Copy of Eternity; for as I, in My Eternal, Uncreated Entity, am the Good which is Infinite, so art thou, according-to thy Desires, Fathomless, and as-little-as a Small Drop can Yield in the Vast Depth of the Sea, just so-little can all, that this World is able to-afford, Contribute-to the Fulfillment-of thy Desires. Thus, then, art thou in this Wretched Valley of Tears, where Joy and Sorrow, Laughing and Weeping, Mirth and Sadness, are Mingled-together; where no Heart ever obtained Perfect Happiness; for it is False and Deceitful, more than I will tell thee. It Promises-much and Performs-little; it is Short, Uncertain, and Changeable; Today - much Joy, Tomorrow - a Heart Full-of Woe. Behold, such is the Disport of this Scene-of Time!


CHAPTER XI - On the Everlasting Pains of Hell

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) Eternal Wisdom -- O my chosen one! Now Look, from the very-bottom of thy Heart at this Lamentable Misery. Where are Now, all Those, who heretofore sat-down amidst this Temporal Scene, with Tranquillity and Pleasure, with Tenderness and Comfort-of Body? What avails them, all the Joys of this World, which are as soon Vanished-on the Wings-of Swift Time, as though they had never been? How quickly-over is that Carnal Love for which Pain must be Eternally Endured! O ye Senseless Fools! Where is now, what ye so Gaily Uttered: "Hail, ye Children of Merriment, let us give Holiday to Sorrow, let us Cherish the Fullness of Joy!" What avail Now, all the Pleasures ye ever obtained? Well may ye Cry-aloud with Sorrowful Voice; Woe upon us that ever we were Born-into the World! How has Swift Time, Deceived us! How has Death, Stolen-upon us! Is there anyone, still-upon the Earth, who could be more-Deceived, than we have been-Deceived? Or is there anyone, Willing to take-Counsel from the Calamity-of others? If anyone, were to-Bear all the Sufferings-of all Mankind, for a Thousand Years, it would only be as a Moment against this! How very-Happy is that Man, who has Never sought-after Pleasures, Displeasing-to God, who for His Sake has Renounced all Temporal Delights! We Foolish Ones, we Deemed such Men, Forsaken and Forgotten-of God; but see how He has Embraced them, in Eternity, with such Marks-of Honor, before all the Heavenly Host. What Harm, can all their Sufferings and Disgraces, Now do them, which have Turned-out so-much to their Joy? Meanwhile, all that we so-Entirely Loved, how is it Vanished? Ah, Misery on Misery! and it must Last Forever. Oh, Forever-and-ever, what are thou? Oh, End without End! Oh, Dying, above all Dying, to be Dying every Hour, and yet never-to Die. Oh, Father and Mother, and all that we ever held Dear, God Bless you Forever-and-ever, for we shall never See you, and Love you again; we must Ever, be Separated-from you. Oh, Separation, oh, Everlasting Separation, how Grievous thou art! Oh, Wringing, oh, Shrieking and Howling Forever, and yet never to be Heard! Nothing but Sorrow and Distress must our Wretched Eyes behold, our Ears be filled with Nothing -- but alas! Nothing, save only Woe, is me! Oh, all Hearts, let our Lamentable Forever-and-ever! Move your Compassion, let our Miserable Forever! Pierce-to your Core. Oh, ye Mountains and Valleys, why do ye Wait for us, why do ye Keep us so long, why do ye Bear with us, why do ye not Bury us from the Lamentable Sight? Oh, Sufferings of that-World, and Sufferings of this-World, how very Different ye are! Oh, Time Present, how Blinding, how Deceiving thou art, that we should not have Foreseen this, in the Bright Days of our Youth, which we Wasted so Luxuriously, which will never-more Return! Oh, that we had but One (1) little Hour, of all those Vanished Years! Yet this is Denied, by God's Justice, and without any Hope for us, Ever, must-be Denied. Oh, Suffering, and Distress, and Misery, in this Forgotten Land, where we must be Separated-from all that is Dear, without Solace or Hope, Forever-and-ever! Nothing else would we Desire, than that, if there was a Millstone, as-Broad-as the Whole Earth, and in Circumference, so-Large, that it everywhere Touched the Heavens, and that if there came a little Bird, every Hundred Thousand Years, and took-from the Stone, as-much-as the Tenth Part of a Grain-of Millet, so as in Ten Hundred Thousand Years, to Peck-away from the Stone as-much-as an entire Grain-of Millet; we Unfortunates, would Desire nothing-more than that, when the Stone came to an End, our Torments too, might Terminate; and yet even this cannot be. Behold, such is the Song-of Woe, which succeeds, the Joys of this World.

The Servant -- Oh, Thou Severe Judge, how Terrified are the Depths-of my Heart, how Powerless sinks my Soul, beneath the Load-of Sorrow and Compassion, for those Unhappy Spirits! Who is there in the World that hears this, and is so-Insane as not to Tremble at such Fearful Distress? Oh, Thou, my only Love, Forsake me not! Oh, Thou, my only Chosen Consolation, do not thus Separate-from me! Sooner than be thus Separated-from Thee, my only Love, Forever-and-ever (I will say nothing of the rest), oh, Misery of Misery! I would prefer to be Tormented, a Thousand Times a Day. When I but think-of such a Separation, my Heart, for Anguish, is like to Break. Yes, Tender Father! do with me here what Thou Wilt, Thou hast my Free Consent, but, oh, Deliver me from this Woeful Separation, for I could, by no-Means, Endure it.

Eternal Wisdom -- Cast-away thy Fear. That which is United-in-Time, remains Undivided-in-Eternity.

The Servant -- Oh, Lord, would that all Men heard this, who still-Consume their Days, so Foolishly, so that they might become Wise, and might Reform their Lives, before these things should Overtake them. Oh, ye Senseless, Obdurate Men! how long will ye Protract your Foolishness, Sinful Lives? Be Converted-to God, and Shield yourselves against this Wretched Misery, and Lamentation-of Eternal Woe.

CHAPTER XII - On The Immeasurable Joys of Heaven

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) Eternal Wisdom -- Now lift-up thy Eyes and See, where thou dost Belong. Thou dost Belong-to the Fatherland-of the Celestial Paradise. Thou art here as a Stranger Guest, a Miserable Pilgrim; therefore, as a Pilgrim, hastens-back to his Home, where his Dear Friends, Expect him and Wait-for him, with Great Longing, so shouldst thou desire-to Hasten-back to thy Fatherland, where All will be Glad to see thee, where All, Long so-Ardently for thy Joyous Presence, that they may Greet thee Tenderly, and Unite thee, to their Blessed Society forever. And didst thou but Know, how they Thirst-after thee, how they Desire that thou shouldst Combat Devoutly in Suffering, and Behave Chivalrously in all Adversity, even such as they have Overcome, and how they now with Great Sweetness, remember the Cruel Years, through which they once-passed, Truly, all Suffering would only be the Easier to thee, for, the more-Bitterly thou shalt have Suffered, the more-Honorably wilt thou be Received. Oh, then, how Pleasant will Honor be, what Joy will then Pervade thy Heart and Mind, when thy Soul shall be so Honorably Praised, Commended, and Extolled by Me, before My Father and all the Heavenly Host, because she has Suffered so-much, and Fought against, and Overcome so-much, in this Scene of Temporal Strife, in whose Fullness of Reward, many a one who has never known Affliction, will have no Participation. How Brightly will not then, the Crown Shine, that here-below is Gained-with such Bitterness! How Exquisitely Beautiful will not the Wounds and Marks Glitter, which, here-below, are Received from My Love! So Welcome, wilt thou be made, in thy Fatherland, that the Greatest Stranger to thee, of all its Countless Hosts, will Love thee more-Ardently and Faithfully, than any Father or Mother ever-Loved, the Child of their Bosom, in this Scene-of Time.

The Servant -- O Lord, through Thy Goodness, dare I Hope that Thou wilt tell me yet-more, about my Fatherland, so that I may Long-for it all-the-more, and may Suffer every Affliction, the more-Cheerfully? Yes, my Lord, what Manner-of Place is my Fatherland? Or what do People do there? Or are there very many People there? Or do they really Know so-Well, what takes-place with us on Earth, as Thy Words declare?

Eternal Wisdom -- Now, then, Ascend thou on-High with Me. I will carry thee Thither, in-Spirit, and will give thee, after a Rude Similitude, a Distant Glimpse into the Future. Behold above, the Ninth Heaven, which is Incalculably more than a Hundred Thousand Times larger-than the entire Earth, there is another Heaven, which is called Coelum Empyreum, the Fiery Heaven, so called, not from its being-of Fire, but from its Immeasurably Transparent Brightness, which is Immovable and Unchangeable in its Nature; and this is the Glorious Court, in which the Heavenly Hosts dwell, where the Morning Star, with the rest, Praises Me, and all the Children of God Rejoice. There stand, Encompassed with Inconceivable Light, the Everlasting Thrones, from which the Evil Spirits were-hurled, in which the Elect are-seated. See how the Delightful City shines-with Beaten Gold, how it glitters-with Costly Jewels, inlaid with Precious Stones, Transparent as Crystal, Reflecting Red Roses, White Lilies, and all Living Flowers. Now, look on the Beautiful Heavenly Fields themselves. Lo! here all Delights of Summer, here Sunny Meads of May, here the very Valley-of Bliss, here the Glad Moments are seen Flitting-from Joy to Joy; here Harps and Viols, here Singing, and Leaping, and Dancing, hand-in-hand Forever! here the Gratification of every Desire, here Pleasure without-Pain, in Everlasting Security! Now, look how the Countless Multitude drink to their Hearts' Desire at the Living Fountains of Gushing Water; look how they Feast their Eyes on the Pure, Clear Mirror, of the Revealed Divinity, in which all things are made Plain and Evident to them. Steal a little Nearer, and Mark how the Sweet Queen of the Celestial Kingdom, whom thou Lovest with so much Ardor, Soars Aloft in Dignity and Joy over the Whole Celestial Host, Reclining Tenderly on her Beloved, Encircled-with Rose-Flowers and Lilies-of the Valley. See how her Ravishing Beauty fills with Delight and Wonder, all the Heavenly Choirs. Oh, now Behold what will Rejoice thy Heart and Soul, and see how the Mother-of Compassion has turned her Compassionate Eyes towards thee and all Sinners, and how Powerfully she Appeals-to her Beloved Son, and Intercedes-with Him. Now, turn round with the Eyes-of thy Pure Understanding, and Behold also how the High Seraphim and the Love-abounding Souls of the Seraphic Choirs, Blaze-up Perpetually in Me; how the Bright Company of the Cherubim have a Bright Infusion and Effusion-of My Eternal Inconceivable Light, how the High Thrones and Hosts, the Lordships, Powers, and Dominations, regularly fulfill My Beautiful and Eternal Order, in the Universality of Nature. Mark, too, how the Third Host of Angelic Spirits, Executes My High Messages and Decrees in the Particular Parts of the World; and see, how Lovingly, how Joyfully, and variously the Multitude is Marshaled, and what a Beautiful Sight it is! Turn next, thy Glance and see how My Chosen Disciples and Best Beloved Friends, sit in-Repose and Honor, upon their Awful Judgment-Seats, how the Martyrs, Glitter in their Rose-colored Garments, the Confessors shine in their Vernal Beauty, how Refulgent the Virgins appear, in their Angelic Purity, how all the Heavenly Host, overflows-with Divine Sweetness! Oh, what a Company! Oh, what a Joyous Band! Blessed, Thrice Blessed is he who was Born-to dwell, where they dwell! Lo, to this very Fatherland I shall carry-home from Misery and Tribulation, Arrayed-in all the Richness of her Rich Morning Gift, My Beloved Bride in My Arms. I shall Adorn her Interiorly, with the Beautiful Garment of the Eternal Light of that Glory which will Exalt her above all her Natural Powers. She will be Clothed Exteriorly with the Glorified Body, which is Seven Times brighter-than the Sun's Light, Swift, Subtle, and to-Suffering, Impassive; then I shall put on her the Crown-of Delight, and on the Crown, a Golden Garland.

The Servant -- Gentle Lord, what is the Morning Gift, and what the Crown and Golden Garland?

Eternal Wisdom -- The Morning Gift is a Clear Vision of that, which here below, thou dost merely Believe-in, an Actual Comprehending-of that which now, thou Hopest for, and a Heartfelt Pleasant Enjoyment-of that, which on-Earth. thou Lovest. As to the Beautiful Crown, it is Essential Reward, but the Blooming Garland is Accidental Reward.

The Servant -- Lord, what is that?

Eternal Wisdom -- Accidental Reward, consists in such Particular Delight as Souls obtain by Particular and Meritorious Works, wherewith they have Conquered, here-below, even as the Souls of Great Doctors, Steadfast Martyrs, and Pure Virgins. But Essential Reward consists in the Contemplative Union of the Soul with the Pure Divinity, for Rest she never can, till she be Born above all her Powers and Capacities, and Introduced-to the Natural Entity of the Persons, and to the Clear Vision of their Real Essence. And in the Emanation of the Splendor of Their Essence she will find Full and Perfect Satisfaction and Everlasting Happiness; and the more-Disengaged and Abstracted the self-expression of such Souls is, the more Free Will be their Soaring Exaltation; and the more Free their Exaltation, the Deeper will be their Penetration into the Vast Wilderness and Unfathomable Abyss of the Unknown Godhead, wherein they are Immersed, Overflowed, and Blended-up, so that they desire to have no other Will, than God's Will, and that they become the very same that God is; in other words, that they be made Blessed by Grace, as He is by Nature. Raise then thy Cuntenance Joyfully, forget for a while all thy Tribulations, Comfort thy Heart in this Dark Silent Scene with the Secret Vision which thou now Enjoyest of the Society-of the Blessed, and behold how Blooming and Fair those faces appear, which here on-Earth were so often Red with-Shame, for My Sake; lift up thy Glad Heart, and speak as follows: Where now is that Bitter Shame, which so Cruelly Pierced your Pure Hearts? Where now the Bowed Heads, the cast-down Eyes? where the Suppressed Sorrow of Heart, the Deep Sighs and Bitter Tears? where the Pale Looks, the Dire Poverty, and Manifold Infirmities? Where is now the Miserable Voice thus speaking: "Alas, my Lord and my God, how Sad at Heart I am!" Where are all those now who so greatly Oppressed and Despised you? No more are Heard such Words at these: "Ho, for the Combat! ho, for the Strife! be ready Day and Night like one who Fights against the Heathen!" Where is now what you were wont, in the Presence of Grace, to say a Thousand Times, Interiorly: "Art thou Prepared to Combat Steadily when Forsaken?" No more is heard the Sad and Lamentable Cry, which you so often uttered: "O God, why hast Thou Forsaken me!" Rather do I hear the Sweet Words, Lovingly Sounding in your Ears: "Come hither to Me, My Blessed Ones, possess the Everlasting Kingdom, prepared for you, from the Beginning of the World". Where is now all the Sorrow and Affliction which ye ever Endured on Earth? O God, how Swiftly is it all Vanished like a Dream as though ye had never known Tribulation! Of a Truth, Gentle Lord, how Inscrutable are Thy Judgments to the World! Happy you, ye Elect, it is all over now with Dwelling in Nooks and Corners, with Stealing Away and Hiding yourselves from the Senseless Follies of other Men. Oh, if all Hearts were but one Heart, they could not sufficiently reflect on the Great Honor, the Immeasurable Deserts, the Praise which you will evermore possess. O ye Heavenly Princes, O ye Noble Kings and Emperors, O ye Eternal Children of God, how Full of Joy are your Countenances, how Full of Gladness your Hearts! What a Loftiness of Soul ye have! How Right Cheerfully do your Voices swell-forth in this Song: Praise and Thanksgiving, Glory and Benediction, Grace and Joy and Everlasting Honor to Him, from World-to-World, from Eternity-to-Eternity, from the very bottom of our Hearts, to Him by Whose Goodness we possess all these things for ever-and-ever! Amen! Lo, here is our Fatherland, here is Heartfelt Jubilation, here is Unfathomable Everlasting Life!

The Servant -- O Wonder above all Wonders! Ah, Fathomless Good, what art Thou? Yes, my Gentle Lord, my Chosen One, how Good it is to be here! O my only Love, let us Tarry here!

Eternal Wisdom -- It is not yet, Time to-Tarry here. Many a Sharp Conflict hast thou still to Endure. This Vision has only been Shown-to thee, that thou mayest, Presently, Revert-to it, in all thy Sufferings, as thus thou canst never Lose Courage, and wilt Forget all thy Sorrow; and Further, as an Answer-to the Complaint-of Foolish Men, who say that I allow My Friends, to-Fare so Hard. See then what a difference there is between My Friendship, and the Friendship of this Temporal State; and to Speak, according-to the Truth, how much better than others, My Friends fare-at My Hands. I will say Nothing of the Great Trouble, Labor, and many a Severe Tribulation, in which they Swim and Wade, Night and Day; only this, that they are so-Blinded, they do not Understand it. It is indeed My Eternal Economy, that a Mind not Regulated, should be a Sharp Torment and Heavy Burden to itself. My Friends have Bodily Distress, but then, they have Peace-of Heart. The Friends of the World, hunt-after Bodily Comfort and Ease, but in their Hearts, their Souls and Minds, they gain Nothing, but Trouble and Vexation.

The Servant -- Those Persons, Lord, are out-of their Right Senses, and are Raving, who would-needs compare Thy Faithful Friendship, and the World's Friendship, together. That, they should do-so, because Thou hast Few Friends, who have no Suffering to Complain of, is the Fault-of their Great Blindness. O Lord, how very Soft and Gentle, is Thy Fatherly Rod! Blessed is he, on whom Thou sparest it not. Lord, I now Plainly-see, that Tribulation does not Proceed-from Thy Harshness, but rather from Thy Tender Love. Let no one say for the Future, that Thou hast-forgotten Thy Friends. Those, hast Thou forgotten, (for Thou hast Despaired of them), on whom Thou dost Spare Chastisement here below. Lord, in all Fairness those ought not to have Joyous Days, nor Pleasures, nor Comfort here below, whom Thou dost intend to Shield above from Eternal Misery, and Endow-with Everlasting Delight. Grant, O Lord, that these Two (2) Visions may Never disappear-from the Eyes-of my Heart, so that I never may Lose, Thy Friendship.

He who has Offended God, must be Punished; and, therefore, we ought always to Beg of Him, to Chastise us in this World, and not in the Next. That Sinner is to be Pitied, who does not receive his Chastisement in this Life.

by Saint Alphonsus Liguori


CHAPTER XIII - On the Immeasurable Dignity of Temporal Suffering

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Tell me now, Tender Lord, what this Suffering is, which Thou Thinkest so very Profitable and Good?

Eternal Wisdom -- What I mean is Every-Kind of Suffering, whether Willingly Accepted or Unwillingly Incurred -- as when a Man makes a Virtue of Necessity, in not Wishing to be-Exempt from Suffering, without My Will, and Ordering it, in Humble Patience, to My Eternal Praise; and the more-Willingly he does this, the more Precious and Agreeable, it is to Me. Touching such Kinds-of Suffering, Hear further, and Write it down, in the Bottom-of thy Heart, and keep it as a Sign, to set-before the Spiritual Eyes, of thy Soul. My Dwelling, is in the Pure Soul, as in a Paradise-of Delights, for which Reason, I cannot Endure that 'She' should Lovingly and Longingly, attach 'Herself' to anything. But, from Her very Nature, She is Inclined-to Pernicious Lusts, and therefore I encompass Her Path, with Thorns. I Garnish all her Outlets with Adversity, whether She like it or not, so that She may not-escape from Me; Her Ways, I Strew-with Tribulation, so that She may not set the Foot-of Her Heart's Desire, anywhere, except-in the Loftiness-of My Divine Nature. And if all Hearts, were but One (1) Heart, they would not be-able-to Bear even that least Reward, which I certainly will give for the Suffering, Endured-by anyone for Love of Me. Such is My Eternal Order in all Nature, from which I do not Swerve; what is Precious and Good, must be Earned with Bitterness; he who Recoils at thus, let him Recoil; Many are indeed Called, but Few are Chosen.

The Servant -- It may well be, Lord, that Suffering is an Infinite Good, provided it be not without Measure, and not too Dreadful and Overwhelming. Lord, Thou alone Knowest all Hidden Things, and didst Create all Things in-Weight, in-Number and Measure; Thou Knowest also, that my Sufferings are Measureless, that they are Wholly Beyond my Strength. Lord, is there anyone in all this World, who has Constantly, more Painful Sufferings than I? They are to me Invincible -- how am I to Endure them? Lord, if Thou wouldst send me Ordinary Sufferings, I could Bear them, but I do not see how I can ever Endure such Extraordinary Sufferings as these Sufferings, which in so Hidden a Manner, Oppress my Heart and Soul, which only Thou canst Perfectly Understand.

Eternal Wisdom -- Every Sick Man, Imagines that his own Sickness is the Worst, and every Man in-Distress, his own Distress, the Greatest. Had I sent thee other Sufferings, it would have been the same. Conform thyself Freely, to My Will, under every Pain which I Ordain thee to Suffer, without Excepting this, or the other Suffering. Dost thou not know that I only desire what is best for thee, even with as kindly a feeling as thou thyself? Hence it is, that I am the Eternal Wisdom, and that I know Better than thou, what is for thy Good. Hence it is, that thou mayst have felt, that the Sufferings which I Send, are much-more Exquisite, and Penetrate Deeper, and Operate Better, for him who does them Justice, than all Self-chosen Sufferings. Why then dost thou so Complain to Me? Address Me rather as follows: O my most Faithful Father, do to me at all times, what Thou Wilt!

The Servant -- O Lord, it is so Easy to Talk, but the Reality is so Difficult to Endure, for it is so-very Painful.

Eternal Wisdom -- If Suffering gave no Pain, it could not be called Suffering. There is Nothing more-Painful than Suffering, and Nothing more-Joyful, than to-have Suffered. Suffering is a Short Pain, and a Long Joy. Suffering gives to the Sufferer, Pain Here and Joy Hereinafter. Suffering, kills Suffering. Suffering is Ordained, that the Sufferer may not Suffer Eternally. Hadst thou so much Spiritual Sweetness and Divine Consolation and Heavenly Delight as, at all times, to Overflow-with the Divine Dew, it would not be for thee, so very Meritorious of itself, since, for all this together, I should not have-to Thank thee so much; it could not Exculpate thee, so-much-as an Affectionate Suffering, or Patience-in Adversity, in which thou Sufferest for My Sake. Sooner, will Ten (10) be Perverted and Ruined, in the midst-of a Great Delight and Joyous Sweetness, than One (1), in the midst-of Constant Suffering and Adversity. If thou hadst as much Science, as all the Astronomers, if thou couldst Discourse as Ably-of God, as all the Tongues-of Men and Angels, and didst possess the Treasures-of Knowledge of all the Masters, not all this could Avail-to Advance thee, in a Good Life, so-much-as if thou didst Give thyself up, and didst Abandon thyself, in all thy Sufferings to God; for the Former is Common-to the Good and the Bad, but the Latter is Proper-to My Elect alone. If anyone were able, Rightly, to Weigh Time and Eternity, he ought rather to Desire to Lie-in a Fiery Furnace for a Hundred Years, than to be Deprived in Eternity, of the smallest Reward, for the smallest Suffering; for This has an End, but the Other is without End.

The Servant -- Ah, Sweet and Dear Lord, how like a Sweet Harp, are these Words to a Suffering Mortal! Lord, Lord, wouldst Thou but Cheer me thus, and come-to visit me in my Sufferings, I should be Glad to Suffer; it would then be Better for me to-Suffer, than not to-Suffer.

Eternal Wisdom -- Now, then, Hearken-to the Sweet Music of the Distended Strings of that Divine Harp -- a God-Suffering Man -- how Richly it Sounds, how Sweetly it Vibrates. Before the World, Suffering is a Reproach, but before Me, it is an Infinite Honor. Suffering is an Extinguisher-of My Wrath, and an Obtainer-of My Favor. Suffering makes a Man, in My Sight, Worthy-of Love, for the Sufferer is like Me. Suffering is a Hidden Treasure which no one can make Good; and though a Man might Kneel before Me a Hundred Years, to-beg a Friendly Suffering, he nevertheless would not Earn it. Suffering changes an Earthly Man, into a Heavenly Man. Suffering brings with it the Estrangement-of the World, but confers, instead, My Intimate Familiarity. It lessens-Delight and increases-Grace. He, to whom I am to-show Myself a Friend, must be Wholly Disclaimed and Abandoned-by the World. Suffering is the surest-Way, the nearest-Way, and the shortest-Way. He who Rightly Knows, how Profitable, Suffering is, ought to Receive it, as a Gift, Worthy-of God. Oh, how many a Man there is, who once was a Child of Eternal Death, and Plunged-in the Profoundest Sleep, whom Suffering has Wakened-up and Encouraged-to a Good Life. How many a Wild Beast, how many an Untamed Bird, there is in Human Form, whom Constant Suffering has shut-up, as-it-were, in a Cage, who, if anyone were-to Leave him Time and Place, Free, would do his best to Escape-from his Salvation. Suffering is a Safeguard, against Grievous Falls; it makes a Man know himself, Rely-on himself, and have Faith in his Neighbor. Suffering keeps the Soul Humble, and Teaches Patience. It is the Guardian of Purity, and confers the Crown of Eternal Salvation. There is probably no-Man Living, but who Derives Good from Suffering, whether he be in a State-of Sin, or on the Eve-of Conversion, or in the Fruition-of Grace, or on the Summit-of Perfection; for it Purges the Soul as Fire Purges Iron and Purifies Gold; it Adorns the Wrought Jewel. Suffering takes-away Sin, lessens the Fire-of Purgatory, Expels Temptation, Consumes Imperfections, and Renovates the Spirit. It imparts True Confidence, a Clear Conscience, and Constant Loftiness of Mind. Know that it is a Healthy Beverage, and a Wholesome Herb above all the Herbs-of Paradise. It Chastises the Body which, at any rate, must Rot-away, but it Nourishes the Noble Soul which shall Endure Forever. Behold, the Noble Soul blooms-by Suffering, even as the Beautiful Rose by the Fresh Dews of May! Suffering makes a Wise Mind, and an Experienced Man. A Man who has not Suffered, what does he know? Suffering is Affection's Rod, a Paternal Blow, given to My Elect. Suffering Draws and Forces Men to God, whether they like it or not. He who is always Cheerful in-Suffering, has for his Servants, Joy and Sorrow, Friend and Foe. How often hast thou not-Thrust an Iron Bit, between the Gnashing Teeth of thy Enemies, and Rendered them, with thy Joyous Praise, and thy Meekness in-Suffering, Powerless? Sooner would I Create Suffering out-of Nothing, than Leave my Friends, Unprovided with it; for in Suffering, every Virtue is Preserved, Man Adorned, his Neighbor Reformed, and God Praised. Patience in Suffering is a Living Sacrifice, it is a Sweet Smell of-Balsam, before My Divine Face, it is an Appealing Wonder before the entire Host-of Heaven. Never was a Skillful Knight in a Tournament so gazed at, as a Man who Suffers-well is gazed-at by all the Heavenly Court. All the Saints are on the side-of the Suffering Man; for, indeed, they have all Partaken-of it before him, and they Call-out to him with One (1) Voice, that it contains no Poison, but is a Wholesome Beverage. Patience in Suffering is Superior-to Raising the Dead, or the Performing-of other Miracles. It is a Narrow Way, which leads direct-to the Gates of Heaven. Suffering makes us Companions-of the Martyrs, it carries Honor with it, and Leads-to Victory against every Foe. Suffering, Clothes the Soul in Garments of Rose Color, and in the Brightness of Purple; in Suffering, She wears the Garland-of Red Roses, and carries the Scepter-of Green Palms. Suffering is for Her, as a Shining Ruby in a Young Maiden's Necklace. Adorned with it, She sings with a Sweet Voice and a Free Heart, a New Song, which not all the Angelic Choirs could ever sing, because they never knew Suffering. And, to be short, those who Suffer are called the Poor, before the World, but before Me, they are called the Blessed, for they are My Elect.

The Servant -- Oh, how Plainly does it appear, that Thou art the Eternal Wisdom, since Thou canst bring the Truth Home, with such Cogency, that no one Doubts it any-longer. No Wonder that he, to whom Thou dost make Suffering, appear so Lovely, can bear Sufferings. Lord, in consequence-of Thy Words, all Sufferings in Future must be Easier and Full of Joy for me. Lord, my True Father, Behold, I Kneel before Thee this day, and Praise Thee Fervently, for my Present Sufferings, and also for the Measureless Sufferings of the Past, which I deemed so very-Great, because they appeared so Hostile to me.

Eternal Wisdom -- But what is thy Opinion now?

The Servant -- Lord, my Opinion, in very Truth, is this: that when I look at Thee, Thou Delight-of my Eyes, with Looks of Love, the Great and Violent Sufferings with which, in so Paternal a Manner, Thou hast Disciplined me, and at the Sight of which Thy Pious Friends were filled-with such Terror, on my account, have been like a Sweet, Fall-of Dew in May.


CHAPTER XIV - On the Unspeakable Advantages to be Derived,
from Meditating on the Divine Passion

Passion of Christ - by Duccio

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Truly, Lord, the Unfathomable Good, which is found in Thy Passion, for those who Avail themselves, of the Time and Place to Meditate-on it, is a thing Hidden-from all Hearts. Oh, what a Sure Path, is the Way-of Thy Passion, along the Way-of Truth, up-to the very Pinnacle-of all Perfection. All Hail to thee, Glorious Saint Paul! thou Noble Light among all the Stars-of Heaven, who was Wrapt up so-High, and Initiated so-Deeply into the Mysteries-of the Godhead, when thou didst hear the Deep Words which it is not given-to Man to-utter, and who yet wast so Sweetly Touched in thy Heart, by this very Passion of Infinite Love, above everything else, that thou didst Exclaim: "I determined not to know anything among you save Jesus Christ and Him Crucified". Blessed be thou, too, among all Doctors, sweet Saint Bernard, whose Soul was so-Illuminated with the Brightness-of the Eternal Word, that most-Sweetly did thy Tongue, exhale-from a Full Heart, the Passion of His Humility, when thy Fervent Soul thus spoke: The Green Bunch of Myrrh, of my Lord's Bitter Passion, have I Fondly-taken betwixt my Breasts, and Tenderly Pressed-to my Heart; I do not ask, like the Bride, where He Rests at Noon whom I embrace in the midst-of my Heart: I do not ask where He feeds His Flock at Noon, whom my Soul so Longingly Beholds on the Cross; that is certainly Loftier, but this is Sweeter and Easier to attain. From this Love - O'erflowing Passion, I take what fully makes-up-for the Insufficiency of my own small Merits; herein lies my Complete Justification; to Meditate-on this Passion, I call Eternal Wisdom, the Perfection-of all Knowledge, the Riches-of all Salvation, an entire-Satisfaction of all Desert; it casts me down in-Prosperity, it Raises me up, in-Adversity, it keeps me in an even-Balance, between this World's Weal and Woe, and Guards me against all Evil in Complete Security. Sometimes I have Drunk out-of it a Draught-of Salutary Bitterness, but at-other-times, I have also Drunk out-of it a Draught-of Spiritual Consolation and Divine Sweetness. O Sweet Saint Bernard, therefore is it but Just, that thy Tongue should Overflow-with Sweetness, since thy Heart was so-Wholly Sweetened-with, Sweet Suffering. O Eternal Wisdom, in this, I observe that, whoever is Desirous-of Great Reward and Everlasting Salvation, of High Knowledge and Deep Wisdom, of Standing Erect in Joy and Sorrow, of possessing Full Security against all Evil, whoever Wishes-to Drink a Draught of Thy Bitter Passion, and Thy Singular Sweetness, must carry Thee at-all-times, O Crucified Jesus, before the Eyes-of his Heart.

Eternal Wisdom -- Thou dost not Rightly Know what Good, is Lodged-in it. Behold, Assiduous Meditation on My Passion makes out of Simple Man, a Master-of High Knowledge; Truly it is a Living Book, in which everything is to be found. How Right Blessed, is that Man who has it ever-before his Eyes, and Studies it! What Wisdom, Grace, Consolation, Sweetness, what Cleansing-from all Imperfection, may not such a Man obtain through the Devout Contemplation of My Living Presence! Respecting which, listen to what follows. It fell-out, many years ago, that a certain Preacher, in the beginning of his Conversion, had a Bitter Affliction of Inordinate Despondency, which, at times, so Overpowered him, that no Heart which had not experienced it, could Conceive it. And, as he once sat, after Meat, in his Cell, his Affliction was so-great, that he could neither Study nor Pray, nor Perform any other Good Deed, except sitting there, so Sadly, in his Cell, and laying his hands in his lap, as though he meant only, to take care of the Cell, for God's Sake, because he was no longer of any use in Spiritual Things. And, as he thus sat Disconsolate, it suddenly seemed to him as though he heard these Words, Distinctly Addressed to him: Why dost thou sit here? Arise and Betake thee to My Sorrowful Passion, for then wilt thou Overcome, thy own Sorrow. And Immediately, he Arose, for the Words were the same to him, as though they came from Heaven, and he began to Meditate-on the Sorrowful Passion of the Lord, in which all his own-Sorrow was Lost, so that he never felt it again, in the same manner.

The Servant -- O my Sweet Wisdom, Thou Understandest all Hearts, and Knowest that, above all things, I desire to have my Heart, Penetrated-with Thy Passion, in the face of all Men, and my Eyes turned, Day and Night, into Running Fountains of Bitter Tears. Alas! there is just now in my Soul, a Bitter Complaint, that Thy Passion does not, at all times, thoroughly Penetrate my Heart, and that I do not Meditate on it, so-Affectionately, as in Reason I ought to do, and as is Worthy of Thee, my Lord Elect; Teach me, therefore, how I ought to-Comport myself!

Eternal Wisdom -- The Meditation on My Torments, must Not be made, by going-through them, in a Hasty Manner, when One has Time and Opportunity, but it must be made by going-through them with Heartfelt Love and a Compassionate Searching into their Mysteries; for, otherwise, the Heart remains as Unaffected-by Devotion, as the Mouth, by Unchewed Sweet-tasting Food. If thou hast no Liking to-Meditate on My Passion, with Weeping Eyes, because of the Bitter Agony I Suffered, then oughtest thou to Meditate-on it with a Laughing Heart, because of the Joyous Benefit thou wilt find in it. But if thou hast no Mind, either to Laugh or to Cry, thou oughtest to Meditate-on it in the Dryness-of thy Heart, to My Honor and Praise, by doing which thou wilt have done, no-less-than, if thou hadst been Dissolved-in Tears or Steeped-in Sweetness; for then thou Actest from Love of Virtue, without regard to thyself. And that thou mayest take it all the more to Heart, listen to what follows. Such is My Severe Justice, that it permits no Wrong Deed in all Nature, be it Great or Small, to-Pass without-Atonement, and without being made Good. Now, how should a Great Sinner, who has perhaps Committed more than a Hundred Mortal Sins, and for every Mortal Sin subjected himself, by the Law of My Church, to do Penance Seven (7) Years Long, or else to complete his Upperformed Penance in the Furnace of Grim Purgatory -- how should such a Miserable Soul, fulfill her Penance? When would there be an End to her Sighs and Tears? Oh, how long, how much to-long, would it not appear to her! Behold, she has Speedily made all Good, by-means-of My Innocent, Meritorious Passion! With Reason, then, let her Grasp the Treasure-of My Acquired Merits, and apply it to herself, in Virtue of which, even if she ought to Burn a Thousand Years in Purgatory, she will be able, in a Short Time, to Discharge her Guilt and Penance, so as to attain Heaven, without any Purgatory at all.

The Servant -- O Tender and Eternal Wisdom, Teach me this in Thy Goodness; how glad should I be to make such a Grasp!

Eternal Wisdom -- The way to make such a Grasp is this. Let a Man Often and Seriously, Weigh-with a Penitent Heart the Greatness and Multitude of his Evil Deeds, by which he has so Wantonly Incensed the Eyes of his Heavenly Father; in the Next Place, let him account as Nothing, the Works-of his own Satisfaction, since, Reckoned-against his Sins, they are but as a Little Drop, in the Deep Ocean; and then, let him Confidently Weigh the Immeasurable Greatness of My Satisfaction; for the Least Drop of My Precious Blood, which everywhere, Flowed without Measure, out of My Body, would alone, Suffice-to Atone-for the Sins of a Thousand Worlds. Every Man, therefore, Appropriates so-much of My Satisfaction to himself, in Proportion as he Assimilates himself to Me, by Sympathetic Participation in My Sufferings. Moreover let a Man Humbly and Modestly merge the Smallness of his Works, in the Greatness of My Satisfaction or Atonement. And to tell it thee in a few words, know then, that all the Masters of Numbers and Measures would be Unable to Calculate the Immeasurable Benefit, which lies Hidden, in the Zealous Meditation of My Passion.


CHAPTER XV - From the Fond Caresses Which the Soul Has Had With God Beneath the Cross, She Returns Again to His Passion

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Thou hast Revealed to me, the Measureless Sufferings, which Thou didst Suffer in Thy Exterior Man, on the Gibbet-of the Cross, how Cruelly Tormented Thou wast, and Encompassed-about with the Bands of Miserable Death. Alas! Lord, how was it beneath the Cross? Or was there not one at its Foot, whose Heart was Pierced-by Thy Woeful Death? Or how didst Thou bear Thyself in Thy Sufferings, towards Thy Sorrowing Mother?

Eternal Wisdom -- Oh, listen now, to a Woeful Thing, and let it Sink-into thy Heart. When, as thou hast heard, I hung, Suspended-in Mortal Anguish before them, behold, they Stood-over against Me, and, with their Voices, called out Scoffingly to Me, Wagging their Heads Contemptuously, and Scorning Me utterly in their Hearts, as though I had been a Loathsome Worm. But I was Firm, amidst it all, and Prayed Fervently for them to My Heavenly Father; behold, I, the Innocent Lamb, was likened-to the Guilty Thieves; by One (1) of these was I Reviled, but by the Other, Invoked. I listened to his Prayer, and Forgave him all his Evil Deeds. I opened to him, the Celestial Paradise. Hearken to a Lamentable Thing. I gazed around Me, and found Myself, Utterly Abandoned, by all Mankind, and those very Friends, who had followed Me, stood now Afar-off; yea, My Beloved Disciples had all Fled-from Me. Thus was I left Naked, and Stripped-of all My Clothes. I had Lost all Power, and was without Victory. They Treated Me without Pity, but I bore Myself like a Meek and Silent Lamb. On whichever side I turned, I was Encompassed-by Bitter Distress of Heart. Below Me stood My Sorrowful Mother, who Suffered in the Bottom-of her Motherly Heart, all that I Suffered in My Body. My Tender Heart was, in consequence, Deeply Touched, because I alone, Knew the Depth of her Great Sorrow, and Beheld her Distressful Gestures, and Heard her Lamentable Words. I Consoled her very Tenderly, at My Mortal Departure, and Commended her to the Filial Care of My Beloved Disciple, and gave the Disciple in-charge, to her Maternal Fidelity.

The Servant -- Ah, Gentle Lord, who can here Refrain-from Sighing Inwardly, and Weeping Bitterly? Yes, Thou Beautiful Wisdom, how could they, the Fierce Lions, the Raging Wolves, be so Ungentle to Thee, Thou Sweet Lamb, as to treat Thee thus? Tender God, oh, that Thy Servant had but been there, to Represent all Mankind! Oh, that I had Stood-up there for my Lord, or else had gone to Bitter Death, with my only Love; or, had they not chosen to Kill me with my only Love, that I yet might have Embraced, with the Arms of my Heart, in Sorrow and Desolation, the Hard Stone-socket of the Cross, and, when it Burst Asunder, for very Pity, that my Wretched Heart, too, might have Burst, with the Desire to follow my Beloved.

Eternal Wisdom -- It was by Me, from all Eternity Ordained, that when My Hour was come, I alone, should Drink the Cup of My Bitter Passion, for all Mankind. But thou, and all those who Desire to Imitate Me, Deny yourselves, and take up, each of you, your own Cross, and follow Me. For this Dying to yourselves, is as Agreeable to Me, as though you had actually Gone-with Me, to Bitter Death itself.

The Servant -- Gentle Lord, Teach me then, how I should Die with Thee, and what my own Cross is. For, Truly, Lord, since Thou hast Died for me, I ought not to Live any more for myself.

Eternal Wisdom -- When thou dost Strive, to do thy Best, as-well-as thou dost Understand it, and for so doing, dost earn Scornful Words and Contemptuous Gestures, from thy Fellow Men, and they so utterly Despise thee in their Hearts, that they regard thee as Unable, nay, as Afraid, to Revenge thyself, and still thou Continuest, not only Firm and Unshaken in thy Conduct, but dost Lovingly Pray for thy Revilers, to thy Heavenly Father, and dost Sincerely Excuse them before Him; lo! as-often-as thou Diest thus to thyself, for Love of Me, so often is My own Death, Freshly Renewed and Made-to Bloom again in thee. When thou dost keep thyself Pure and Innocent, and still thy Good Works are so Misrepresented, that with the Joyful Consent of thy own Heart, thou art Reckoned-as one of the Wicked, and that from the Bottom-of thy Heart, thou art as-ready-to Forgive all the Injury thou hast received, as though it never had happened, and, moreover, to be Useful to and Assist thy Persecutors by Word and Deed, in Imitation-of My Forgiveness of My Crucifiers, then Truly, art thou Crucified with thy Beloved. When thou dost Renounce the Love of all Mankind, and all Comfort and Advantage, so-far-as thy Absolute Necessities will allow, the Forsaken State in which thou dost then stand, Forsaken-by all Earthly Love, fills up the place of all those who Forsook Me, when My Hour was come. When thou dost stand, for My Sake, so Disengaged from all thy Friends in those things by-means-of which they are an Impediment between Me and thee, even as though thy Friends did not belong to thee, then art thou to Me a Dear Disciple and Brother, standing at the Foot of My Cross, and Helping Me to Support My Sufferings. The Voluntary Detachment of thy Heart, from Temporal Things, and its Devotion to Me, Clothe and Adorn My Nakedness. When, in every Adversity, which may Befall thee from thy Neighbor, thou art Oppressed for the Love of Me, and dost Endure the Furious Wrath of all Men, from whichever side its Blast come, how Fiercely soever it come, and whether thou be Right or Wrong, as Meekly as a Silent Lamb, so that, in Virtue o' thy Meek Heart, and Sweet Words, and Gentle Looks, thou Disarmest the Malice-of the Hearts of thy Enemies; behold even this is the True Image of My Death, accomplished-in thee. Yes, wherever I find this Likeness, what Delight and Satisfaction have I not then, and My Heavenly Father also, in Man. Oh, carry but My Bitter Death in the Bottom of thy Heart, and in thy Prayers, and in the Manifestation of thy Works, and then wilt thou Fulfill the Sufferings and Fidelity of My Immaculate Mother and My Beloved Disciple.

The Servant -- Ah, Loving Lord, my Soul implores Thee to accomplish the Perfect Imaging of Thy Miserable Passion on my Body and in my Soul, be it for my Pleasure or my Pain, to Thy Highest Praise and according to Thy Blessed Will. I desire, also, in particular, that Thou wouldst describe something more of the Great Sorrow of Thy Sorrowing Mother, and wouldst relate to me how she bore herself in the Hour, that she Stood-under the Cross.


CHAPTER XVI - On the Worthy Praise of the Pure Queen of Heaven

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Oh, the Great Riches of the Divine Knowledge and Wisdom! how very Inscrutable are Thy Judgments, and how Unknown, Thy Ways. How many a Strange Way, hast Thou of bringing Poor Souls, back-to Thee! What were Thy Thoughts, or how Glad at Heart must Thou not have been, in Thy Eternal Immutability, when Thou didst so Nobly Create, the Pure, Tender, Illustrious Creature, above all Pure Creatures! Lord, then couldst Thou indeed say: I think the Thoughts of Peace. Lord, Thou hast, out of the Abyss of Thy Essential Goodness, reflected Thy Glory Interiorly to Thyself again, inasmuch as Thou hast led-back to their Origin, all Beings gone-Astray in their Divine Emanation. Yes, Heavenly Father, how should a Sinful Creature dare-to approach Thee, unless Thou hadst given him Thy own Elected Child, Eternal Wisdom, for a Guide? Yes, Eternal Wisdom, how should a Sinful Creature, dare at all times to discover his Uncleanness, before such Purity, unless indeed he took the Mother-of all Compassion, for his Protectress? Eternal Wisdom! if Thou art my Brother, Thou art also my Lord; if Thou art Truly Man, Woe is me! so art Thou also Truly God, and a very Severe Judge of Evil Deeds. For this reason, when our Poor Souls, are in the Narrow Prison-house of Fathomless Sorrow-of Heart, and we can neither Stir here, nor there, nothing remains for us except to lift-up our Miserable Eyes to thee, O chosen Queen of Heaven. Therefore, thou Mirror, Reflecting the Brightness of the Eternal Sun, thou Hidden Treasure of Infinite Compassion, this day do I, and all Penitent Hearts, Salute thee! O ye Exalted Spirits, ye Pure Souls, Stand-forth, Extol and Praise, Commend and Exult in the Ravishing Paradise of all Delight, the Sublime Queen! for I am not Worthy to do so, unless in her Goodness, she vouchsafe to allow me. O thou Chosen, Bosom Friend of God, thou Fair Golden Crown of Eternal Wisdom, permit me, a Poor Sinner, even me in my Weakness, to speak to thee a little, in Confidence. With a Trembling Heart, with a Countenance-of Shame, with Dejected Eyes, my Soul falls-down before thee. O thou Mother-of all Graces, methinks neither my Soul, nor any other Sinful Soul, requires Permission or a Passport, to Repair-to thee.

Mediatrix of All God's Blessings
and Channel of all God's Grace

Art thou not the Immediate Mediatrix of all Sinners? The more-Sinful a Soul is, the more-Reasonable it seems to her, that she should have Free Access to thee; the Deeper she is in Wickedness, the more-Reason she has to Press Forwards to thee. Therefore, my Soul, step Joyfully-forth! If thy Great Crimes, drive thee away, her Unfathomable Goodness invites thee to Draw near. O, therefore, thou only Consolation of all Sinful Hearts, thou only Refuge of Guilty Mortals, to whom so many a Wet Eye, so many a Wounded, Miserable Heart is Raised-up, be a Gracious Mediatrix and Channel-of Reconciliation between me, and the Eternal Wisdom. O think, think, thou mild Queen Elect, that thou derivest all thy Merits, from us Poor Sinners. What was it made thee God's Mother, made thee a Casket, in which the Eternal Wisdom reposed? O Lady, it was the Sins of us Poor Mortals! How couldst thou be called a Mother of Graces and Compassion, except through our Wretchedness, which has need-of Grace and Compassion. Our Poverty has made thee Rich, our Crimes have Ennobled thee above all Pure Creatures. O turn hither, then, the Eyes of thy Compassion, which thy Gentle Heart, never turned-from a Sinner, from a Forlorn Mortal! Take me under thy Protection, for my Consolation and Confidence are in thee. How many a Guilty Soul, after having bid Farewell-to God, and all the Heavenly Host, by Denying God and Despairing of Him, and being Lamentably Separated-from Him, has, by still clinging to thee, been Sweetly Detained, till at length, through thy Intercession, it has again Attained-to Grace. Who is the Sinner, how great so-ever his Crimes, to whom thy Overflowing Goodness has denied Assistance? Lo, when my Soul Seriously Reflects within herself, methinks it were only right, if it were possible, that while my Eyes Wept for Joy, my Heart should leap-out of my Mouth; so does thy name Dissolve-in my Mouth, like Honey-from the Comb. Even thou art called the Mother, the Queen of Compassion, yes, Tender Mother, yes, Gentle Mother of Compassion! O what a Name! O how Unfathomable is the Being whose Name is so Rich in Grace! Did ever the Melody of Song, Resound as Soothingly in an Agitated Heart, as thy Pure Name, in our Penitent Hearts? At this Exalted Name, all Heads in Reason, ought to Incline, all Knees to Bend. How often hast thou not put-to-Flight the Hostile Powers of Wicked Spirits, how often hast thou not-Allayed the Angry Justice of the Severe Judge! How often hast thou not-Obtained from Him Grace and Consolation! Yes, Poor Sinful Mortals as we are, what have we to say to it? How shall we ever, Acknowledge such Great Goodness? If all Angelic Tongues, all Pure Spirits and Souls, if Heaven and Earth and all that is contained in them, cannot Properly Praise her Merits, her Ravishing Beauty, her Graciousness and Immeasurable Dignity, alas! what shall we Sinful Hearts be able to do? Let us do our Best, and Express-to her our Acknowledgments, our Thanks; for indeed her Great Kindness does not look at the Smallness of the Gift, it looks at the Purity of Intention. Ah, Sweet Queen, with what Justice may not thy Gender, Rejoice-in thy Sweet Name; for Cursed was the First Eve, that she ever Eat-of the Bitter Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge; Blessed be the Second Eve, that she brought us again the Sweet Fruit of Heaven! Let no one Lament-over Paradise; One (1) Paradise we Lost, and have Won Two (2) others. For is she not a Paradise in whom Grew the Fruit of the Living Tree? in whom all Delight and Joy are contained together? And is not that also a Paradise, above every Paradise, in whom the Dead again Live, if they only Taste His Fruit, from Whose Hands, Feet, and Side, the Living Fountains which Irrigate all the Earth, Flow, the Fountains of Inexhaustible Mercy, Fathomless Wisdom, Overflowing Sweetness, Ardent Love, the Fountains-of Eternal Life? Truly, Lord, whoever Tastes of this Fruit, whoever has Drunk of this Fountain, knows that these Two (2) Gardens of Paradise, far-Surpass the Earthly Paradise. But thou, O Queen Elect, art the Gate-of all Grace, the Door of Compassion, that never yet, was shut. Heaven and Earth may Pass-away, ere thou wilt Permit anyone, who Earnestly Seeks thy Assistance, to Depart-from thee, without Obtaining it. Behold, for this very Reason, art thou the First Object, my Soul Sees, when I Awake, the Last, when I Lie down to Sleep. How should anything, which thy Pure Hands, Present-before God, and Commend unto Him, how small soever in itself, be Rejected? Take, O take, therefore, the Smallness of my Works and Present it, so that, in thy Hands it may Appear Something, before the Eyes-of God Almighty. Even thou art the Pure Vessel of Red Gold, Melted-down with Graces, Inlaid with Precious Emeralds, and Sapphires, and all Virtues, whose Single Aspect, in the Sight-of the Heavenly King, Surpasses that of all other Creatures. O, thou Lovely, Divine Spouse Elect, if King Ahasuerus was Captivated-by the Beauty-of Esther, if she was found Pleasing in his Eyes, above all Women, if she found Favor above them all, so that he did for her, whatever she Desired, O thou, all Red Roses and Lilies, Surpassing Beauty, how Justly may the King of Heaven, be Captivated-by thy Spotless Purity, thy Meek Humility, by the Sweet Smelling Nosegay of all thy Virtues and Graces! Or, who has ever caught the Wild and Noble Unicorn, if not thou? How Infinitely Pleasing, above all Mortals, in His Eyes, is thy Delicate and Love-inspiring Beauty, before which all other Beauty, Fades-like a Glow-Worm before the Brightness-of the Sun. What Overflowing Grace hast thou not found before Him for thyself, and us Mortals, who are without Grace! How should, how can, then, the Heavenly King deny thee anything? Truly mayest thou say, My Beloved is mine, and I am His. Ah! thou art God's, and God is thine, and ye Two (2) have an Eternal and Unfathomable Reciprocation-of Love, which no Duality can Divide. Think of us Poor Needy Ones, who continue to wander so-Wretchedly, in Sorrowful Affliction. Yes, Exalted Lady, of Heaven and Earth, arise now and be to us a Mediatrix, and an Obtainer-of Grace with thy Tender Child, the Eternal Wisdom. Ah, Eternal Wisdom, wilt Thou deny me anything? Even as I present Thee before Thy Heavenly Father, so do I present Thy Pure, Tender Mother before Thee. Look at her Mild Eyes which so-often looked Kindly on Thee; behold Those Fair Cheeks which she so-often Affectionately Pressed-to Thy Infant Face. O look at her Sweet Mouth which used to Kiss Thee so Fondly and Tenderly, again-and-again. Look at her Pure Hands which so-often Ministered-to Thee. O Thou Goodness, above all Goodness, how canst thou deny anything to her who Suckled Thee so Affectionately, and Bore Thee in her Arms; who Laid Thee to Rest, Wakened Thee, and Tenderly Reared Thee! O Lord, let me remind Thee of all the Love Thou ever didst experience from her in Thy Childhood's Days, when Thou didst sit in her Motherly Lap, and with Thy Playful Eyes didst Laugh so Pleasantly and Tenderly in her face with that Fathomless Love Thou hadst for her above all other Creatures! Think, too, of the Heart-Rending Woe, which her Maternal Heart endured with Thee under the Gibbet of Thy Miserable Cross, where she saw Thee in the Agony-of Death, and when her Heart and Soul so often Died-away in Sorrow and Distress with Thee. Lord, I entreat Thee, for her sake, to Grant me every means-of Shaking-off my Sins, of Acquiring Thy Grace, and never Losing it again.


CHAPTER XVII - On the Unutterable Heart-rending Grief,
of the Pure Queen of Heaven

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Who will give my Eyes as many Tears, as there are Letters, so that with Bright Tears, I may Write-down the Miserable Tears of the Unfathomable, Heart-rending Grief, of my Blessed Lady? Pure Lady and Noble Queen of Heaven and Earth, touch my Stony Heart with One (1) of thy Scalding Tears, One (1) of those which thou didst shed in Bitter Distress, for thy Tender Child, under the Wretched Cross, so that my Heart-of Stone may be Softened, and may Hearken to thee; for Heart-rending Grief is of such a Nature, that no one can have a True Knowledge of it, except him, whom it Touches. Touch then my Heart, O Lady Elect, with thy Sorrowful Words, and tell me in Short Significant Terms, simply as an Admonition, how it was with thee in thy Mind, and how thou didst support thyself, at the Foot of the Cross, when thou didst Behold thy Tender Child, the Beautiful and Tender Wisdom, so Lamentably Expire.

crucifixion10.jpg (23190 bytes) Mary's Answer -- Thou shouldst Hearken-to it, with Sorrow and Heartfelt Woe; for although I am now Exempt-from Suffering, yet, at that Time, I was not. Before I had reached the Foot-of the Cross, I had Endured many a Great, Unspeakable Anguish-of Heart, especially at the spot where I First caught sight-of the Beating, Kicking, and Ill-usage of my Child, on Beholding-which, my Strength forsook me, and thus Helpless, was I carried after my Dear Son, to the Foot-of the Cross. But, in respect of what thou askest, how I felt in my Mind, and how I Supported myself, listen to as much as it is possible for thee to-Know; for the Whole, no Heart that ever was made, can Fathom. Understand, then, that all the Sorrow, that ever could Afflict a Heart, would only be as a Drop, in the Ocean, compared-to the Unfathomable Sorrow, which my Maternal Heart, at that time, Endured; and, Understand, at the same time, that the Dearer, the Sweeter, the more-Precious the Beloved One is, the more-Insupportable is his Loss and Death. Now, where on the Whole Earth, was there ever a more Tender-One Born, a Lovelier-One Seen, than my own Best Beloved One, Jesus Christ, by-Whom and in-Whom I had Entire Possession, of all that the World could Bestow? I was already Dead-to myself, and Lived-only in Him, and when at-last, my own Fair Love was Slain, then only did I utterly-Die; and, as my only Love was but One (1), and, moreover, Dear to me, above all other Loves, so my only Sorrow was but One (1), and a Sorrow, above-all-Sorrows, that ever were expressed. His Fair and Gentle Humanity was, to me, a Delightful Spectacle; His Dignified Divinity was, to my Eyes, a Sweet Contemplation; to think of Him was my Heart's Delight; to speak of Him was my Pastime; to hear His Sweet Words was Music to my Soul. He was my Heart's Mirror, my Soul's Comfort; Heaven and Earth, and all that is in them, I Possessed in His Sweet Presence. Lo, when I saw my Love, Suspended-in Mortal Agony before me, alas, the sight! Alas, what a Moment was that! How Died, my Heart within me! How was my Courage Extinguished! How did my Strength, Fail me! I Looked-up, but I could not Help my Child. I looked-down, and saw only those who so Cruelly Ill-used Him. O how Narrow then to me, was all this World! I had Lost all Heart; my Voice had Died from me; I had, moreover, Lost all Strength and yet, when I came to myself, I raised thy Feeble Voice, and Spoke-to my Child, Complaining, such words as these: Alas, my Child! Alas, thou Child of mine! Alas, my Heart's Delightful Mirror, in which I have so often taken Delight to behold myself, how do I now see Thee Miserably Suspended before me! Alas, Thou Treasure, above all this World! My Mother, my Father, and all that my Heart can express (such art Thou to me), take me with Thee! Or, to whom wilt Thou leave Thy Wretched mother? Oh, who will Permit me to Die for Thee, to Suffer for Thee, this Bitter Death? Oh, Misery and Distress of a Love-torn Mother, how am I Robbed-of all Joy, of all Love, of all Consolation! Oh, thou Greedy Death, why sparest thou me? Take, take away the Poor Mother, with her Poor Child; to her, to-Live is Bitterer, than to-Die! Him, even Him, Whom my Soul Loveth, I see Dying! And as I thus Lifted-up my Voice in Lamentation, behold, my Child Consoled me very Affectionately, and, among other things, said: That in no other-Way, might Mankind be Redeemed, and that on the Third Day, He intended to Rise-again and Appear-to me and His Disciples; and He said further: Woman, cease thy Weeping; Weep no more, My Fair Mother, I will not Forsake thee for ever! And while my Child thus Tenderly Consoled me, and Commended me to the Disciple whom He Loved, and who also Stood-by, Full-of Sorrow (those Words of His were conveyed to my Heart in a Tone so Lamentable, and so Broken by Sighs, that they Pierced through my Heart and Soul like a Sharp Sword), even the Hard Hearts of the Jews were moved to Compassion for me. I Cast-up my Arms and my Hands, and, in the Anguish of my Heart, would gladly have Embraced my Beloved, yet this I might not do. And then I Sank-down, Overwhelmed by my Heart-rending Grief, at the Foot of the Cross and became Speechless; and when I returned-to myself, and could do Nothing else, I Kissed the Blood that Trickled-down from His Wounds, so that my Pale Cheeks and Mouth were all Tinged with Blood.

The Servant -- Ah, Thou Unfathomable Goodness, what Infinite Torture, what Infinite Misery is this! Whither shall I turn, or to whom shall I cast my Eyes? If I Look-up at the Beautiful Wisdom, I only see Woe and Distress, at which my Heart is like-to Sink within me. They Cry-out and Shout-against Him 'Outwardly', the Agony-of Death, Struggles-with Him 'Inwardly', all His Veins are on the Rack, all His Blood gushes-away, it is nothing but Ejaculations-of Woe, and Cheerless Dying without-Recovery. Then, if I but Turn my Eyes, to His Pure Mother, I see her Tender Heart Pierced, alas! with Wounds as though a Thousand Blades had Transfixed it. I see her Pure Soul, Lacerated-by Woe. Never were such Gestures-of Misery and Longing seen, as hers; Deprived was her Sick Body of all Strength, her Fair Countenance, Besmeared-with Mortified Blood. Oh, Great Misery, above all Misery! The Torture of His Heart, consists in the Affliction-of His Sorrowing Mother; the Torture of His Sorrowing Mother consists in the Innocent Death of her Beloved Son, more-Painful to her, than her own Death. He Beholds her and Consoles her Tenderly; she stretches-out her hands to Him, and would gladly-Die, instead-of Him. Alas! which of the Two (2), feels here the most-Bitterly? Whose is the Greater Distress? To both it is so Unfathomable, that there never was any Equal to it. Alas! the Motherly Heart. Alas! the Tender Womanly Mind. How was thy Maternal Heart ever able to Support this Infinite Sorrow? Blessed be that Heart, compared-to whose Sorrow, everything that ever was uttered-of a Heart's Sorrow, is only as a Dream, to the Reality. Blessed be Thou, O Rising Blush of Morning, above all Creatures! And Blessed be the Flower-enameled, Rose-scented Meadow of Thy Fair Countenance, Adorned-with the Ruby Red Blood of Eternal Wisdom! Alas! Thou Affable Countenance of Beautiful Wisdom, how dost Thou Fade, in Death! Alas! Thou Beautiful Body, how dost Thou Hang Suspended! Woe is me, Thou Pure Blood, how Hotly dost Thou run-down on Thy Pure Mother, who Bore Thee! Lament, ye Mothers, Lament with me over this Affliction! All ye Pure Hearts, let this Rose-colored, Pure Blood, which so be Sprinkles your Pure Mother, go to your Hearts! Behold, all Hearts, ye who ever had Sorrow, Behold and See, if ever there was Sorrow, like unto this Sorrow! Truly, it is a Wonder that our Hearts, melt-not here for Pity and Compassion; so Great, indeed, was this Distress, that Hard Stones were Rent Asunder, the Earth Trembled, the Sun was Extinguished, because they would Fain show Compassion-for their Creator!


CHAPTER XVIII - How it was with Him at that Hour in Regard of His Interior Man

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Eternal Wisdom! the more one Reflects on Thy Measureless Passion, the more-Unfathomable it appears. Thy Extremity was so very Great, under the Cross, but still more-so, on the Cross, according to Thy 'Exterior' Powers, which at that Hour, felt all the Pangs-of Bitter Death. But, Gentle Lord, how was it with Thy 'Interior' Man, with Thy Noble Soul? Had it no-Consolation, no-Sweetness, like other Martyrs Souls, so as to Mitigate its Cruel Sufferings? Or, when did Thy Sufferings come to an End?

Eternal Wisdom -- Now, Hearken-to a Misery-of-Miseries, such as thou never yet, didst hear of. Although My Soul, according to her Highest Powers, was at that Time, wrapt-in the Vision and Enjoyment of the Pure Divinity, Noble as, in Truth, she is, Behold, the Lower Powers of My 'Exterior' and 'Interior' Nature, were yet Wholly Abandoned-to themselves, even to the very Last Drop of Infinite Bitterness of Suffering, without any Consolation, so that no Torment was ever Equal to it. And as I was thus left, entirely Helpless and Forsaken, with-Running Wounds, with-Weeping Eyes, with-Extended Arms, with-the Veins of My Body on the Rack, in the Agony-of Death, then it was, that I Lifted-up My Voice in Lamentation, and cried out Miserably to My Father: My God, My God, why hast Thou Forsaken Me? And still in all this, My Will was United, in Eternal Conformity with His Will. And when all My Blood was Poured-out, and all My Strength Exhausted, behold, I was Seized-by a Bitter Thirst, because of My Mortal Agony. But I Thirsted still more, for the Salvation of Man. Then did they reach Me Vinegar and Gall, to Quench the Burning Thirst of My Parched Mouth. And when I had Accomplished the Work of Human Redemption, I cried out: It is Finished! I was Entirely Obedient to My Father, even unto Death. My Spirit, I Commended-into His Hands, saying: Into Thy Hands, I Commend My Spirit. And then My Noble Soul, Separated-from My Body, both of which yet remained Unseparated-from the Divinity! After this, a Sharp Spear was Thrust-into My Right Side; forthwith a Stream of Precious Blood gushed-out, and with it a Fountain-of Living Water. Behold, My Child, in an Extremity so Pitiable as this, did I Redeem thee, and all the Elect, and did Save thee, by the Living Sacrifice of My Innocent Blood, from Everlasting Death.

The Servant -- Alas! Tender and Loving Lord and Brother, with what Sorrowful, what Bitter Toil didst Thou not Reap me in! Alas! Noble Lord, how Ardently didst Thou Love me, how Generously didst Thou Redeem me! Woe is me, Thou Fair Wisdom, how shall I ever be in a condition to-Acknowledge Thy Love, and Thy Sufferings? If I had Samson's Strength, Absalom's Beauty, Solomon's Wisdom, and the Riches and Greatness of all Kings, my only Wish would be to Devote them to Thy Praise and Service. But, Lord, I am Nothing, and therefore can do Nothing. O Lord, how am I to Thank Thee?

Eternal Wisdom -- If thou hadst the Tongues of all the Angels, the Good Works of all Mankind, and the Powers of all Created Beings, thou yet couldst not Thank Me, nor Requite Me, for the Least Pang, which I Suffered for the Love of thee.

The Servant -- Tender Lord, Inform and Teach me, then, how I may become Pleasing-to Thee by-means-of Thy Grace, since no one is able to make Thee a Return, for the Tokens of Thy Love.

Eternal Wisdom -- Thou shouldst often set My Sorrowful Cross before thy Eyes, and let My Bitter Torments, Penetrate-to thy Heart, and Shape thy own Sufferings after them. If I allow thee to Pine and Wither, in Disconsolate Affliction and Dryness, without any Sweetness, thou shouldst not seek-after Strange Consolation. Let thy Cry-of Misery, Rise-to thy Heavenly Father, with a Renunciation-of thyself and all thy Desires, according-to His Fatherly Will. The Bitter thy Suffering is from 'Without', and the more-Resigned thou art from 'Within', the more like art thou to Me, and the more dear to My Heavenly Father, for herein the most Pious are put-to the Strongest Proof. What though, thy Desires may have a Thirsty Craving, to-seek Satisfaction and Delight, in something that might be Pleasant to them, yet shouldst thou Forego it for My Sake, and thus will thy Thirsty Mouth be steeped-with Me in Bitterness. Thou shouldst Thirst-after the Salvation-of Men. Thy Good Works, thou shouldst direct-to a Perfect Life, and Persevere-to the End. Thy Will must be Subject, thy Obedience Prompt-to thy Superiors; thy Soul, and all that belongs to it, thou must Surrender-into thy Heavenly Father's Hands, and thy Spirit, must ever be Dying, out-of Time, into Eternity, in Prefiguration-of thy Last Journey. Behold, thus Will thy Cross, be shaped-after My Miserable Cross, and Worthily Accomplished in it. Thou shouldst Wholly Lock thyself up with My Love-Wounded Heart, in My Open-Side, and Dwell there, and seek there thy Resting-Place. Then will I Wash thee, with the Waters-of Life, and Deck thee out, with My Precious Blood, in Purple. I will Associate Myself to thee, and Unite thee with Myself, Eternally.

The Servant -- Lord, never was there any Magnet, so Powerful in-attracting Hard Iron to itself, as Thy Love-fraught Passion, thus Presented-to my Soul, is Powerful to Unite to itself all Hearts. Alas! Thou Loving Lord, Draw me now by means-of Love and Sorrow away from this World, to Thee on Thy Cross, Fulfill in me the Closest Resemblance-to Thy Cross, so that my Soul may Enjoy Thee, in Thy Highest Glory.


CHAPTER XIX - On the Taking Down from the Cross

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Ah, Pure Mother and Tender Lady! When did thy Great and Bitter Affliction of Heart, which thou hadst for thy Son, come to an End?

pieta.jpg (34806 bytes) Mary's Answer -- Listen to my words with Sorrowful Compassion. When my Tender Child had Expired, and when He Hung Suspended before me, and all the Strength of my Heart, was Utterly Broken, though I could do nothing else, I yet Cast many a Glance, up-at my Dead Child. And when they came to take Him down, it was as if I had been Roused from the Dead. With what Motherly Love did I not press them to my Blood-stained Cheeks, and when He was Lowered-down to me, how Affectionately, beyond Measure, did I not Embrace Him, Dead as He was, in my Arms; how did I not Strain to my Heart, my only Love Elect, and Kiss again-and-again, the Fresh Bleeding Wounds of His Face! And yet, with what Revishing Beauty, His entire Body was Transformed, all Hearts could not Sufficiently Contemplate. Then did I take my Tender Child on-to my Lap, and look at Him. I looked at Him, and He was Dead! I looked at Him again-and-again, but He had neither Voice nor Consciousness. Then did I fetch many a Deep and Heart-rending Sigh, my Eyes shed many Tears, my Whole Figure was Deplorable to see, Scarcely had my Doleful Words reached my Lips, when they were Choked by Grief, and only Half-expressed. Alas, alas, Cried I, whenever was anyone so-Cruelly Used on Earth, as Thou, my Innocent and Beloved Child! Alas, my Child, my only-Consolation, my only-Joy, how art Thou Changed for me, into a Source-of much Bitterness! Where is now the Joy, I experienced at Thy Birth? Where the Delight I had in Thy Childhood? Where the Honor and Dignity I had in Thy Presence? Whither is all gone, that could Ravish my Heart? Oh Sorrow! Oh Anguish! Oh Bitterness! Oh Desolation of Heart! Truly is everything Transformed into an Unfathomable Desolation of Heart, into a Mortal Agony! Alas, Thou Child of mine, how am I so Shorn-of all Love, how has my Heart become Utterly Disconsolate! Such, and many such Words of Lamentation did I utter, because of my Deceased Child.

The Servant -- Oh, Pure and Beautiful Mother, permit me once more to console my Heart in this Moment, with thy Dear Child, my Lord, the Eternal Wisdom, before the Hour of Separation comes, before He is Snatched-away from us to the Grave. angel_christ_body_cano.jpg (62653 bytes) Immaculate Mother! however Unfathomable thy Heart's Affliction was, however Strongly it may Touch all other Hearts, thou didst yet, methinks, find some Pleasure in the Affectionate Embracing of thy Deceased Child. Oh, Pure and Gentle Lady, I desire that thou wouldst offer me thy Dear Child, as He appeared in Death, on the Lap of my Soul, so that I may Experience, according-to my Ability, in Spirit and Meditation, what thou didst in thy Body. Lord, my Eyes are turned to Thee in the most Rapturous Joy and in Deepest, Heart-felt Love, such as no other Love was ever regarded-with, by the Beloved. Lord, my Soul expands-to Thy Embrace, even as the Tender Rose, expands-to the Pure Sun's Brightness. Lord, my Soul stretches-out her arms to Thee, with Infinite Desire. Oh, my Loving Lord, with Ardent Desire I Embrace Thee today, and Press Thee to the Bottom-of my Heart and Soul, and put Thee in Mind of the Loving Hour of Thy Death, that Thou mayest never allow it to be Lost in me; and I request that neither Life, nor Death, nor Joy, nor Sorrow, may ever Separate Thee from me. Lord, my Eyes Contemplate, Thy Dead Countenance, my Soul Kisses again-and-again, all Thy Fresh Bleeding Wounds, all my Senses are fed with this Sweet Fruit, beneath the Living Tree of the Cross; and it is Reasonable, for this Person, Consoles-himself with his Innocent Life, the other with his Great Exercises and Strict Conduct; the one with this, the other with that; but, as for me, all my Consolation, all my Trust, are Lodged Wholly in Thy Passion, in Thy Satisfaction and Merited Reward, and therefore, I shall at all times carry Thy Passion, Joyfully in the Bottom of my Heart, and show the Image of it 'Outwardly', in Words and Deeds, to the Utmost of my Ability.


Oh, Enchanting Brightness of Eternal Light, how art Thou now for me Utterly Extinguished! Extinguish in me the Burning Lust of all Vice.

Oh, Pure Transparent Mirror of Divine Majesty, how art Thou now Defiled!
Cleanse away the Great Stains of my Evil Deeds!

Oh, Beautiful Image of Paternal Goodness, how art Thou Befouled and Utterly Defaced! Restore the Defaced and Faded Image of my Soul!

Oh, Thou Innocent Lamb, how Wretchedly art Thou used!
Amend and Atone for my Guilty, Sinful Life!

Oh, Thou King of all kings, and Lord of all lords, how does my Soul see Thee lying here in so Lamentable and Ghastly a Plight!
Grant, that since my Soul now Embraces Thee with Sorrow and Lamentation in Thy Dereliction, she may be Embraced by Thee with Joy in Thy Everlasting Glory.



CHAPTER XX - On the Lamentable Separation of the Grave

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Now, Tender Lady, put an End to thy Sorrow, and thy Sad Recital, and tell me how thou didst Separate-from thy Beloved.

Mary's Answer -- It was a Misery to See and Hear. Alas, all was yet Supportable, while I had my Child with me; but when they tore my Dead Child from my Blighted Heart, from my Embracing Arms, from my face, pressed-to His, and Buried Him, what a Wailing I set-up in that Hour would hardly be believed; and then, when it came to the Separation, oh, what an Agony, what Woe, were seen in me! For when they Separated me from my Beloved, the Separating, Wrestled-with my Heart like Bitter Death. Supported by their hands, who led me away, I walked with Tottering Steps, for I was Robbed-of all Consolation, my Heart Longed Woefully, to return to my Love, my Confidence was Wholly set-in Him, I Rendered Him alone, of all Mankind, Entire Fidelity and True Attachment, even to the Grave.

The Servant -- Oh, Affectionate and Tender Lady, for this do all Hearts greet thee, all Tongues praise thee, since all the Good that the Fatherly Heart has Vouchsafed to give us, Flowed-through thy Hands. Thou are the Beginning, thou art the Means, thou shalt also be the End. Alas, Pure and Tender Mother, let me remind thee Today, of thy Miserable Separation; think of thy Bitter separating-from thy Tender Child, and Help me, that I may not be Separated, either from thee or from His Joyous Countenance.

Yes, Pure Mother, even as my Soul now stands by thee, with Compassionate Sympathy, and Embraces thee with Ardent Desire, and, in Contemplation with Heartfelt Desire, with Thanksgiving and Praise, leads thee from the Sepulcher through the Gate of Jerusalem, back-again to thy House, so do I Crave that, at my Last Departure, my Soul may be again led by thee, O Pure and Tender Mother, to its Fatherland, and there be Confirmed-in Everlasting Bliss.


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CHAPTER XXI - How We Should Learn to Die, and of the Nature of an Unprovided Death

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Eternal Wisdom! if any one were to give me the Whole Earth for my own, it would not be so Agreeable to me as the Truth and the Advantage which I have found in Thy Sweet Doctrines. Therefore, do I desire from the very Bottom-of my Heart, that Thou, the Eternal Wisdom, wouldst Teach me still more. Lord, what is that which belongs, above all things, to a Servant of Eternal Wisdom, who is Desirous to Live for Thee alone? Lord, I should like to hear about the Union of Pure Reason with the Holy Trinity, when, in the True Reflection of the Eternal Birth of the Word, and in the Regeneration of her own Spirit, Reason is Ravished from herself, and Stands, Face-to-face with God.

Eternal Wisdom -- Let not him ask about what is Highest in Doctrine, who still stands on what is Lowest in a Good Life. I will Teach thee what will Profit thee more.

The Servant -- Lord, what wilt Thou Teach me?

Eternal Wisdom -- I will Teach thee to Die, and will Teach thee to Live. I will Teach thee to Receive Me Lovingly, and will Teach thee to Praise Me Lovingly. Behold, this is what Properly, belongs to thee.

The Servant -- Eternal Wisdom, if I had the Power to Fulfill my Wishes, I know not whether, in this Temporal State, I ought to wish anything else, as to Doctrine, than how to Die to myself, and all the World, how to Live Wholly for Thee, to Cherish Thy Love with all my Heart, to Receive Thee Lovingly, and to Praise Thee Lovingly. O God, how Blessed is that Man who is able to do this, and who Consumes in it, his Whole Life. But, Lord, dost Thou mean a Spiritual Dying or a Bodily Dying?

Eternal Wisdom -- I mean Both, One (1) and the Other.

The Servant -- What need have I, Lord, of being Taught-to Die Bodily? Surely it Teaches itself, when it comes.

Eternal Wisdom -- He who puts his Teaching off, till then, will find it too-Late.

The Servant -- O Lord, it is still somewhat Bitter for me, to hear about Death.

Eternal Wisdom -- Behold, even this is the Source-of those Unprovided and Terrible Deaths, whereof the Towns and Convents, now are Full. Behold, Death has often Bridled thee Secretly, and had Fain Ridden thee from hence, in the same way as he does the Countless Multitude, One (1) of whom I will now show thee. Open, therefore, thy Interior Sense, and See and Listen; see what Grim Death is like, in the Person of thy Neighbor, do but mark, the Lamentable Voice thou wilt Hear.

The Servant heard with his Understanding, the Voice of an Unprepared Dying Man, Cry Aloud and Speak as follows:

The Sorrows of Death have Surrounded me. Woe is me, Thou God of Heaven, that ever I was Born into the World. The Beginning of my Life was with Crying and Weeping, and now my Departure from it, is also with Bitter Crying and Weeping. Alas, the Sorrows of Death have Surrounded me, the Pains of Hell have Encompassed me! O Death, O Furious Death, what an Unwelcome Guest thou art to my Young and Joyous Heart! How Little, was I Prepared for thy Coming! Thou hast Attacked me from behind, thou hast Run me Down. Thou Leadest me Away, in thy Chains, like one that Leads a Condemned Man, Bound and Fettered, to the place where he is to be Slain. I Clasp my Hands above my Head, I Wring them with Anguish, in each other, for Gladly would I Escape from him. I look around me into all the Ends of the Earth, to see if any one will give me Advice or Help, and it cannot be. Death I hear, thus Fatally Speaking within me: Neither Learning, nor Money, nor Friends can Avail thee; thou art mine, by Right. Alas, and must it be so? O God, and must I then Depart from hence? Is a Last Separation, really at-hand? Woe is me, that ever I was Born! O Death, what art thou going to do with me?

The Servant -- Dear Man, why dost thou take it so Hard? This is the Common Lot of Rich and Poor, Young and Old. Many more have Died in their Youth, than in their Old Age. Or wouldst thou, perhaps, alone Escape Death? This would Prove a Great Want-of Understanding, in thee.

Unprepared Dying Man -- O Lord, what Bitter Consolation is this! I am not Without Understanding. Those are Without Understanding, who have not Lived for Him, and who are not Frightened-at Death. Such Persons are Blind; they Die like Cattle; they know not what they have before them. I do not Complain, that I must Die; I Complain that I must Die - 'Unprepared'. I do not merely-Lament the End of my Life, I Lament and Weep-over the Delightful Days, which are so Utterly Lost and Vanished, without any Profit. For Truly, I am like an Untimely and Rejected Abortion, like a Blossom, torn-off in May. My Days, have Sped Swifter than an Arrow from the Bow. I am Forgotten, as though I had never been, like a Track, which a Bird makes through the Air, which closes-behind it, and is Unknown-to all Men. Therefore are my Words, so Full of Bitterness, therefore is my Speech, so Full of Woe! Oh, who will enable me to be, as I once was, to have again those Pleasant Times before me, and to Know then, what I Know now! When those Times were mine, I did not Rightly Estimate them; I, Foolish Man, let them Pass, Swiftly Away; now are they Vanished from me; I cannot Recall them, I cannot Overtake them. No Hour so-Short, but I ought to have Valued it more-Preciously and Thankfully, than a Poor Man about to Receive a Kingdom as a Gift. Lo, this is why my Eyes shed Salt Tears, because they cannot Restore what I have Lost. Woe is me, O God; that I should have Feasted so-many Day Away, and that it Profits me now, so-Little. Why did not I Learn to Die all the Time? O ye Blooming Roses, that have still your Days before-you, Look at me, and Learn Wisdom; turn your Youth to God, and with Him alone, Occupy your Time, so that what has Happened to me, may not-Happen to you. Ah, me! how have I Consumed my Youth! No one would I Believe; my Wayward Spirit would Listen to no one. Alas, now am I Fallen-into the Snare of Bitter Death! My Days have Vanished, my Youth has Sped. Better were it for me, had my Mother's Womb become my Grave, than that I should so have Squandered-away my Time.

The Servant -- Be Converted-to God; Repent of thy Sins; if thy End be Well, then, will all be Well.

Unprepared Dying Man -- Alas, what do I Hear? How shall I do Penance? Seest thou not how Terrified I am, how Exceeding Great is my Distress? Even as a Little Bird, caught in the Claws of a Cruel Falcon, and become Senseless in the Agony of Dying, I am Unconscious of everything, except that I would Gladly Escape, and Cannot. Death and the Bitterness of Separation, Oppress me. Alas, the Repentance and Free Conversion of him who is Capable of Right Doing, what a Sure Thing you are! He who Puts you off, will Hardly Fail of being himself, Put-off. O Long Protraction of my Amendment, how much too Protracted hast thou not Proved! My Good Intentions, without Works, my Good Promises, without Performance, have Ruined me. I have said to God, "Tomorrow" and "Tomorrow", till I am Fallen-into the Night of Death. O Thou Almighty God, is it not a Misery, above all Miseries, ought it not Deeply to Afflict me, that I should thus have Lost the Whole of my Life, my Thirty, my Forty Years? I know not that I ever spent a day, Wholly, According-to God's Will, or that I ever Rendered to God, as in Reason I ought to-have Done, a Truly Acceptable Service. Oh, how the Thought, Cuts me to the Heart! O God, how Wretchedly shall I not-Stand before Thee, and the Whole Heavenly Host! Lo, now I am Departing hence; and now, even at this Hour, a Single (1) Pater Noster, uttered with Devotion, would Rejoice me more than if anyone, were to put into my hands, a Thousand Pounds of Gold.

Ah, my God, what have I not Eternally Neglected, what Evil have I not Inflicted on myself, in not having-Seen this, while it was in my Power! What Hours-upon-Hours, have Escaped me! How have I Allowed myself to be led-Wrong, by Small Things, in the Great Affair-of my Salvation! It would now be more-Agreeable to me, and would Procure me more-Eternal Reward, if, from Divine Love, I had Foregone the Pleasure I took at the Sight-of a Friend, when such Pleasure was Contrary-to God's Will, than if that Friend were to Demand a Reward for me from God, Thirty Years Long on his Knees. Hear, Hear, all Men, a Lamentable Thing: I go Begging, round-and-round, because my Time is Short, and Beg a Small Alms, out-of the Merits of Good People, as an Expiation for myself, and it is Refused me; for they are all Afraid, lest they should want Oil in their Lamps. Alas, Thou God of Heaven, let this move Thy Compassion, that with my Healthy Body, I could have Earned such Great Reward and Wealth, on so many a day, when I went about Idle, and that now this Small Alms, Begged only as an Expiation, not as a Reward, for which, moreover, I should Stand Indebted, no one will give me. Oh, let this, ye Old and Young, go-to your Hearts, and Hoard-up in the Good Season, while ye can, so that ye may not become Beggars, and be Denied, in an Hour like this.

The Servant -- Alas, my Dear Friend, thy Distress Rends my very Heart. By the Living God, I Conjure thee, give me some Advice so that I may not come into Trouble.

Unprepared Dying Man -- The Best Advice I can give thee, the Greatest Wisdom and Prudence on Earth, is this: That thou Prepare thyself by a Full Confession-of and an Abstinence-from all those things with which thou Knowest thyself to be Infected, and that thou Hold thyself, at all times Ready, as though thou shouldst have to Depart hence in a Day, or at Latest in a Week. Imagine now, in thy Heart, that thy Soul is in Purgatory, and Doomed-to remain there Ten Years for her Evil Deeds, and that this Year alone, is Granted thee to Help her in. Look at her very-often, see how Woefully she Calls-out to thee and Speaks-to thee: O thou my Best Beloved Friend, Reach me thy Hand, have Pity on me, and Help me to Pray, that I may Speedily come-out of this Raging, Fire-of Purgatory, for I am so Miserable, that there is nobody, except thee alone, to Help me with Charitable Works. I am Forgotten by all the World, because everyone, is Busy-about himself.

The Servant -- This were a Choice Doctrine, for whoever might actually Feel it like thee, in their Hearts. But though thy words are so-Piercing, yet do people sit here and give little-Heed to them; they have Ears and Hear not; they have Eyes and See not; no one will really Die, before his Soul departs out of him.

Unprepared Dying Man -- Wherefore, when at last they are Caught-on the Hook-of Death, and Cry-aloud in Woeful Distress and Cruel Pain, they are not Heard. Lo, even as among a Hundred Persons who wear the Appearance of Holiness (of others I will say Nothing), not One (1), Pays Attention-to my Words, that he may be Converted, and Reform his Life, so is it come-to that pass, that among a Hundred, not One but Falls-into the Snare-of Death, Unprepared; as also Certainly Happens to those who Die Suddenly, or in an Unconscious State; for the Comforts-of the Body, Perishable Love, and the Greedy Pursuits of Sustenance, Blind the Multitude. But if thou wouldst be Delivered-from this Miserable and Unprovided Death, then follow my Advice. Behold, Diligent Meditation-on Death, and Faithful Assistance given to thy Poor Soul, who Appeals so Piteously to thee, will Advance thee so far, that thou wilt not only be without-Fear, but more, thou wilt Expect Death with all the Ardor-of thy Heart. Think of me every Day, and Write-down my Words in the Bottom-of thy Heart. In my Bitter Distress, see what thy Future Lot will be; look what a Night this is. Oh, Happy the Man, that ever he was Born, who Arrives Well-prepared at this Hour, for his Passage will be a Good one, however Bitter his Death; Behold, the Bright Angels will Guard him, the Saints Escort him, the Celestial Court Receive him; his Final Marching-forth will be a Glorious Entry-into his Everlasting Fatherland. But me, alas! where will my Soul Lodge this very Night, in that Strange, Mysterious Country? Oh, my Soul, how art thou Utterly Forsaken! O God, how very Miserable she will be, among all Miserable Souls! Who is there that will Help her with Entire Fidelity? And now let me Put an End to my Sad Complaints; for my Hour is come. I see now that it cannot be Otherwise. My hands begin to Grow Cold, my Face to Turn Livid, my Eyes to Lose their Sight. Alas, the Shocks of Furious Death, Wrestle-with my Poor Heart. I begin to Fetch my Breath very Hard. The Light of this World begins to Vanish-from me. I begin to see into the Next World. O God, my God, what a Sight! The Horrible Forms of Black Moors assemble together; the Wild Beasts of Hell surround me. They Gloat over my Poor Soul, to see if it will be theirs. O Thou Just Judge of the Severe Judgment Seat, how very Heavy in Thy Scales, are those things, which in ours, are so Light! The Cold Sweat of Death, Bursts-from very Anxiety, through my Flesh. Oh, the Wrathful Aspect of the Severe Judge, how very-Sharp, Thy Judgments are! Now let me Turn in Spirit, to that World where I am Led-by the Hand, into Purgatory, and where, in the Land of Torments, I see Anguish and Distress. O God, I see the Wild, Hot Flames dart-up on-high, and meet-over the Heads of Suffering Souls. They wander up-and-down amid the Dark Flames, and Great is their Affliction. What Heart would like to Contemplate our Pangs, the Bitterness of our Woe? Many a Sad Cry is Heard. Help! Help! ah, where is all the Help of our False Friends? Where are the Fair Promises of our False Friends? How have they Deserted us, how have they Utterly Forgotten us? Oh, have Pity on us, some little Pity; at least you, our Best Beloved Friends! What Services have we not Rendered you, and how are we now Repaid. Oh that we should not have Warded-off these Sufferings, when we could have done so, with Things so Trifling! Is not the Least Torment here, Greater, much Greater, indeed, than any Torment ever was on Earth? One Hour in Purgatory lasts a Hundred Years. Lo! now we Boil, now we Burn, now we Shriek Aloud for Help; but, more-than-all, it is our Misfortune to be Deprived so-Long, of the Joy of His Countenance; this it is that Cuts-through the Heart, the Sense, the Soul! -- And thus I Expire.

The Servant -- O Eternal Wisdom, how hast Thou Forsaken me! O God, how has Death, all at once, become Present before me! Alas, thou Soul of mine, art thou still in my Body? Lord of Heaven, do I still Live? Ah, Lord, now will I Praise Thee, and Vow Reformation to Thee, till Death. Oh, how very-Terrified I am! I did not think Death was so near me. Truly, Lord, this Sight shall not Fail to Profit me; every Day, I will be on the Watch for Death, and will look about me that he take me, not by Surprise. I will Learn how to Die; I will Turn my Thoughts to Yonder World. Lord, I see that there is no Remaining here; Lord, in Sooth, I will not Save up my Sorrow and Repentance till Death. Oh, how Terrified I am at this Spectacle, I Marvel that my Soul is still in my Body! Begone, Begone, from me, Soft Reclining, Long Sleeping, Good Eating and Drinking, Perishable Honors, Delicateness and Luxury! If but a little Suffering here, is so Painful to me, how shall I ever endure Immeasurable Agony? O God, if indeed I were now to Die thus, how would it be with me? What a Load have I not still, upon me! Lord, this very Day I will set a Poor Man to Pray for my Poor Soul, and since all her Friends have Forsaken her, I will Befriend her.

Eternal Wisdom -- See; this shouldst thou Diligently look-to whilst thou art in thy Youth, and whilst thou hast still Time to make things Better. But when, in Truth, thou hast Reached this Hour, and thou canst not Make things Better, then shouldst thou look at Nothing on Earth, except My Death and My Infinite Mercy; so that Thy Trust may Repose Wholly in Me.

The Servant -- O Lord, I Prostrate myself at Thy Feet, and I Beseech Thee with Bitter Tears, to Chastise me here as Thou Wilt, only keep it not in-Store for me in the Next World. Woe is me, Lord, the Fire-of Purgatory and its Unspeakable Torments, how could I ever be so Foolish as to Think Lightly of them, and how do I now Stand-in such Great Fear of them!

Eternal Wisdom -- Be of Good Heart, this thy Fear, is the Beginning of Wisdom, and a Path to Salvation. Or hast thou forgotten how all the Scriptures declare what Great Salvation is contained in the Fear and Diligent Contemplation-of Death? Thou shouldst always Praise God, for not to One (1) in a Thousand (103) has it been Granted-to Know Him, as to thee. Listen to a Lamentable Thing: They hear it spoken-of; they know-of it Beforehand, and yet they Allow it to Pass-by, and Heed it not till they be Swallowed-up by it, and then they Howl and Weep when it is too-Late. Open thy Eyes, Count-upon thy Fingers, see how many of them have Died around thee, in thy own Times; talk with them a little in thy Heart; join thy Old Man to them as though it were Dead; question them together; see with what Fathomless Sighs, with what Bitter Tears they will say: Oh, Blessed is he, that ever he was Born, who follows Sweet Counsel and, in the Misfortunes of others, learns Wisdom! Prepare thyself well for thy Departure hence; for Truly thou Sittest as a Bird on the Bough, and art as a Man who stands-on the Water's Edge, and looks at the Swift Sailing Ship in which he will presently Take his Seat, and Sail-away for a Strange Land, whence he will never more Return. Therefore, so Regulate thy Life, that when the Ship comes for thee, thou mayest be Ready, and mayest Joyfully take thy Departure hence.


CHAPTER XXII - How One Should Live an Interior and Godly Life

The Servant -- Lord, many are the Rules, many the Ways-of a Godly Life, the One is so, the Other so. Many and Various are the Ways. Lord, the Scriptures are Inexhaustible, their Precepts Innumerable. Teach me, O Eternal Wisdom, in a Few Words, out of the Abyss, of all the things they contain, to what I ought Chiefly to Hold-fast, in the Way of a Truly Pious Life.

Eternal Wisdom -- The Truest, most-Useful, and most-Practical Doctrine for thee in all the Scriptures that, in a Few Words, will more than Amply Convince thee of all the Truth, Requisite-for the Attainment-of the Summit-of Perfection, in a Godly Life, is this Doctrine: Keep thyself Secluded from all Mankind, keep thyself Free-from the Influence-of all External Things, Disenthrall thyself from all that Depends-on Chance or Accident, and Direct thy Mind, at all Times on High, in Secret and Divine Contemplation, wherein, with a Steady Gaze, from which thou never Swervest, thou hast Me before thy Eyes. And as to other Exercises, such as Poverty, Fasting, Watching, and every other Castigation, bend them all to this as to their End, and use just so-much and so-many of them, as may Advance thee to it. Behold, thus wilt thou Attain to the Loftiest Pitch of Perfection, that not One (1) Person in a Thousand (103) Comprehends, because, with their End in-View, they all Continue-in other Exercises, and so go-Astray the Long Years.

The Servant -- Lord, who can Exist-in the Unswerving Gaze of Thy Divine Vision, at all Times?

Eternal Wisdom -- No one who Lives here Below, in this Temporal Scene. This has been said to thee, only that thou mightest Know, at-what thou shouldst Aim, after-what thou shouldst Strive, to-what thou shouldst Turn thy Heart and Mind. And if ever thou Losest Sight of it, let it be to thee as if thy Eternal Salvation, were taken-away from thee; and do thou Speedily-turn to it, Again, so that thou mayest again, obtain Possession-of it; and then must thou look Carefully-to thyself, for, if it Escape-from thee, thou art like a Sailor, from whose Grasp the Oars in a Strong Swell, have Slipped, and who does not Know whither he shall Direct his Course. But if thou mayest not, as yet, have a Constant Abiding Place in Divine Contemplation, let the Perpetually Repeated Collecting of thy Wandering Thoughts, and the Assiduous Withdrawing of thyself to Engage-in it, Procure thee Constancy so far as it is possible. Listen, Listen, My Child, to the Faithful Instructions of thy Faithful Father. O give heed to them! Shut them up in the Bottom-of thy Heart; think Who it is that Teaches thee all this, and how very much in-earnest He is. Dost thou wish to become ever more-and-more Faithful? Then set My Precepts before thy Eyes. Wherever thou Sittest, Standest, or Walkest, think that I am Present to thee, and that I either Admonish or Converse with thee. O, My Child, keep within thyself, keep thyself Pure, Disengaged, and Retired. See, in this way wilt thou become Conscious-of My Words; that Good, too, will be made Known to thee which, as yet, is Greatly Hidden from thee.

The Servant -- O, Eternal Wisdom, Praised be Thou forever! Ah, my Lord and Most Faithful Friend, if I would not do it otherwise, Thou wouldst yet Force me to do it, with Thy Sweet Words and Thy Gentle Teaching. Lord, I Ought and Will, do my very Best towards it.


CHAPTER XXIII - How We Ought Lovingly to Receive God

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- Eternal Wisdom, if my Soul could only Penetrate the Heavenly Shrine of Thy Divine Mysteries, I would Question Thee further about Love. And this would be my Question: Lord, Thou hast so entirely Poured-out the Abyss of Thy Divine Love in Thy Passion, that I wonder if Thou canst show any more Signs of Thy Love?

Eternal Wisdom -- Yes. Even as the Stars of Heaven are Countless, so the Love-tokens of My Unfathomable Love are Uncounted.

The Servant -- Ah, Sweet Love of mine! ah, Tender Lord Elect! how my Soul Languishes for Thy Love! Turn Thy Mild Countenance towards me, Outcast Creature that I am; see how everything Vanishes and Passes-away in me, except only the One (1) Treasure of Thy Ardent Love, and therefore tell me something further, of this Rich and Hidden Treasure. Lord, Thou knowest well, that it is Love's Right, never to be Satisfied-with what concerns the Beloved; that the more it has, the more it Desires, how Unworthy soever it may acknowledge itself to be, for such is the effect of the Omnipotent Power of Love. O, Beautiful Wisdom, now tell me the Greatest and Dearest Mark of Thy Love, that in Thy Adopted Human Nature, Thou didst ever Manifest, without taking into account the Unfathomable Love-Token of Thy Bitter Death.

Eternal Wisdom -- Answer Me now a Question. What is that of all Lovely Things, which is most-Agreeable to a Loving Heart?

The Servant -- Lord, to my Understanding, nothing is so agreeable to a Loving Heart, as the Beloved Himself and His Sweet Presence.

Eternal Wisdom -- Even so. See, and on this Account, that nothing which belongs to True Love, might be wanting to those who Love Me, did My Unfathomable Love, as-soon-as I had Resolved to Depart by Death out of this World to My Father, Compel Me to give Myself and My Loving Presence at the Table-of the Last Supper to My Dear Disciples, and in all Future Times, to My Elect, because I knew Beforehand, the Misery which many a Languishing Heart would Suffer for My Sake.

The Servant -- Oh, Dearest Lord, and art Thou Thyself, Thy very Self, really here?

Eternal Wisdom -- Thou hast Me in the Sacrament, before thee and with thee, as Truly and Really God and Man, according to Soul and Body, with Flesh and Blood, as Truly as My Pure Mother carried Me in her Arms, and as Truly as I am in Heaven, in My Perfect Glory.

The Servant -- Ah, Gentle Wisdom, there is yet something in My Heart, may I be Allowed to Utter it to Thee? Lord, it does not Proceed from Unbelief, I Believe that what Thou Willest, Thou canst do; but, Tender Lord, it is a Marvel to me (if I may venture to say so) how the Beautiful, the Delightful and Glorified Body of my Lord, in all its Greatness, in all its Divinity, can thus Essentially Conceal itself under the little Shape-of the Bread which, Relatively Considered, is so out of all Relation. Gentle Lord, be not Angry with me on this Account, for, as Thou art my Wisdom Elect, I should be glad by Thy Favor, to hear something on this head, out of Thy Sweet Mouth.

Eternal Wisdom -- In what manner My Glorified Body and My Soul, according to the Whole Truth, are in the Sacrament, this can no Tongue Express, nor any Mind Conceive, for it is a Work of My Omnipotence. Therefore oughtest thou to Believe it in all Simplicity, and not Pry much into it. And yet I must say a little to thee about it. I will Thrust this Wonder aside for thee, with another Wonder. Tell Me how it can be in Nature, that a Great House should shape itself in a Small Mirror, or in every Fragment of a Mirror, when the Mirror is Broken? Or, how can this be, that the Vast Heavens should Compress themselves into so Small a Space, as thy Small Eye, the Two being so very Unequal to each other in Greatness?

The Servant -- Truly, Lord, I cannot tell, it is a Strange Thing, for my Eye is to the Heavens, but as a Small Point.

Eternal Wisdom -- Behold, though neither thy Eye nor anything else in Nature is Equal to the Heavens, yet Nature can do this thing, why should not I, the Lord of Nature, be able to do many more things, above Nature? But now, tell me further, is it not just as Great a Miracle to Create Heaven and Earth, and all Creatures out of Nothing, as to Change Bread, Invisibly into My Body?

The Servant -- Lord, it is just as possible for Thee, so far as I can Understand, to Change something into something, as to Create something out of Nothing.

Eternal Wisdom -- Dost thou Wonder then at that, and not at this? Tell Me further, thou Believest that I fed Five (5) Thousand Persons with Five (5) Loaves, where was the Hidden Matter, which obeyed My Words?

The Servant -- Lord, I know not.

Eternal Wisdom -- Or dost thou Believe thou hast a Soul?

The Servant -- This I do not Believe, because I 'Know' it, for otherwise I should not be Alive.

Eternal Wisdom -- And yet thou canst not See thy Soul with thy Bodily Eyes.

The Servant -- Lord, I know that there are many more beings Invisible to Human Eyes, than such as we can see.

Eternal Wisdom -- Now Listen: many a Person there is, of Senses so-Gross, as hardly to Believe that anything which he cannot Perceive with his Senses, really exists, concerning which the Learned know that it is False. In like manner, does the Human Understanding stand Related-to Divine Knowledge. Had I asked thee how the Portals of the Abyss are Constructed, or how the Waters in the Firmament are held together, thou wouldst perhaps have Answered thus: It is a Question too-Deep for me, I cannot go into it: I never Descended into the Abyss, nor ever Mounted-up to the Firmament. Well, I have only asked thee about Earthly Things, which thou Seest and Hearest, and Understandest not. Why shouldst thou Wish, then, to Understand what Surpasses all the Earth, all the Heavens, and all the Senses? Or why wilt thou Needs inquire into it? Behold, all such Wondering and Prying Thoughts, proceed alone from Grossness of Sense, which takes Divine and Supernatural things, after the Likeness-of things Earthly and Natural, and such is not the Case. If a Woman were to give-Birth to a Child in a Dark Tower, and it were to be Brought-up there, and its Mother were to tell it of the Sun and the Stars, the Child would Marvel Greatly, and would think it all against Reason, and Incredible, which its Mother, nevertheless, knows so well to be True.

The Servant -- Indeed, Lord, I have Nothing-more to say, for Thou hast so Enlightened my Faith, that I ought to think of Marveling in my Heart again, or why should I seek to Inquire into the Highest, who cannot Comprehend the Lowest? Thou art the Truth which cannot Lie; Thou art the Highest Wisdom, that can do all things; Thou art the Omnipotent Who can Dispose-of all things. Oh, Noble and Loving Lord, I have often Desired-in my Heart that, like Holy Simeon in the Temple, I might have Received Thee Bodily in my Arms, might have Pressed Thee to my Heart and Soul, so that the Spiritual Kiss of Thy Presence might have been as Truly Mine, as it was his. But now, Lord, I see that I Receive Thee as Truly as he, and so much the more Nobly, as Thy Tender Body is now Glorified, and Impassable, which then was Passable. Wherefore, Dearest Lord, if my Heart had the Love-of all Hearts, my Conscience the Purity-of all the Angels, and my Soul the Beauty-of all Souls, so that by Thy Grace I should be Worthy of Thee, I would Fain Receive Thee today so-Affectionately, and so-Bury and Sink Thee in the Bottom-of my Heart and Soul, that neither Joy nor Sorrow, neither Life nor Death, could separate Thee from me. Ah, Sweet Lord, hadst Thou, my Chosen Love, only sent me Thy Messenger, I should not have known, for all this World, how I ought to offer him a Sufficient Welcome. How then ought I to Behave myself towards Him, Whom my Soul Loveth? Truly art Thou the only One (1) Thing in which everything is included, that, in Time and Eternity, my Heart can Desire. Or is there any thing else that my Soul can Desire, of that which is Contrary-to Thee, or which is without Thee, for that would be Repugnant-to me. Truly art Thou the Comeliest of all to the Eyes, the Sweetest of all to the Mouth, the Tenderest of all to the Touch, the most-Beloved of all to the Heart! Lord, my Soul neither Sees nor Hears, nor Feels aught of all, that is here below, but she finds it Severally a Thousand Times Lovelier in Thee, my Chosen Love. Ah, Eternal Lord, how am I to Restrain myself in Thy regard, from Wonder and Delight? Thy Presence Inflames me, but Thy Greatness Terrifies me. My Reason will Needs, do Honor to its Lord, but my Heart Desires to Love its only Good, and Lovingly to Embrace it. Thou art my Lord and my God, but Thou art also my Brother, and, if I may venture to say so, my Beloved Spouse. Oh, what Love, what Rapture, and what Great Joy, what Dignity do I not Possess in Thee alone! Ah, Sweet Lord, methinks that had I only been Vouchsafed the Grace to Receive out of Thy Open Wounds, from Thy Heart, One Single Drop of Blood into my Mouth, if I could have had my Desire, it would have given me the Fullness-of Joy. Ah, Heartfelt, Inconceivable Wonder, now I have not only Received One (1) or Two (2) Drops, but I have received all Thy Hot, Rose-colored Blood through my Mouth, into my Heart and Soul. Is not this a Great Thing? Ought I not to Appreciate this, which to the Exalted Angels is Precious? Lord, would that all my Limbs, and all that I am, were Transformed-into an Unfathomable Love, for the Sake of this Sign of Thy Love. Lord, what is there else in all this World, that could Rejoice my Heart, or that it could Desire, when Thou givest Thyself thus Cordially to me, to Enjoy and Love! Truly is it called a SACRAMENT OF LOVE. When was there anything Lovelier Seen or Heard of, than to Embrace Love itself; than to be Changed-by Grace into Love itself? Lord, I see no difference, except that Simeon received Thee Visibly, and I receive Thee Invisibly. But as little as my Bodily Eyes can see Thy True Humanity, just as little could his Bodily Eyes contemplate Thy Divinity, except through Faith, as I do now. Lord, what New Power is Lodged-in this Bodily Sight? He whose Spiritual Eyes are Opened, has not much to see with his Bodily Eyes, for the Eyes-of the Spirit see far more Really and Truly. Lord, I know by Faith, so far as one can know it, that I have Thee here; what do I wish for more? Lord, it is a Thousand Times better for me that I am unable to See Thee; how could I ever have the Heart thus Visibly to Partake-of Thee! As it is, that which is Lovely and Delightful remains, while that which is Inhuman, Falls away. Lord, when I Truly Reflect how Inscrutably Well, how Lovingly and Wisely, Thou hast Regulated all things, my Heart with a Loud Voice, exclaims: Oh, the Great Treasure of the Abyss of Divine Wisdom, what must Thou not be in Thyself, if Thou art so much in Thy Fair Emanations! Now, O Glorious Lord, look at the Great and Sincere Desire of my Heart. Lord, never was King or Emperor so-Worthily Received, never Dear Strange Guest so-Cordially Embraced, never Bride so-Beautifully and Tenderly taken Home, nor so-Honorably Maintained, as my Soul desires to receive Thee, my most Honored Emperor, my Soul's most Lovely Bridegroom, this day, and to introduce Thee to the Innermost and the Very Best that my Heart and Soul are able to Afford, and to Offer it Thee, as Worthily as ever it was Offered Thee by any Creature. Wherefore, Lord, Teach me how I should Behave myself towards Thee, how, with due Honor and Love, I should Receive Thee.

Eternal Wisdom -- Thou shouldst Receive Me Worthily, thou shouldst Partake of Me with Humility, thou shouldst Keep Me Earnestly, thou shouldst Embrace Me with Conjugal Love, and have Me in My Godly Dignity before thy Eyes. Spiritual Hunger and Actual Devotion must Impel thee to Me more than Custom. The Soul that Wishes to Feel Me Interiorly, in the Recesses of a Secluded Life, and Sweetly to Enjoy Me, must, First of all, be Cleansed from Sin, must be Adorned with Virtue, Encircled with Self-denial, Decked-out with the Red Roses of Ardent Love, Strewn over with the Fair Violets of Humble Submission, and the White Lilies of Perfect Purity. She should Pray to Me with Peace of Heart, for in Peace is My Dwelling-place. She should Clasp Me in her Arms, to the Exclusion-of all Strange Affections; for these I Avoid, and Flee, as the Free Bird, Avoids and Flees the Cage. She should sing Me the Song of Sion, which is a song of Fervent, Loving, and Measureless Praise; then will I Embrace her, and she shall incline herself on My Breast. There, if she finds a Calm Repose, a Pure Vision, Unusual Fruition, a Foretaste of Eternal Bliss, let her Preserve it, let her Keep it for herself, and, with a Sighing Heart, let her Speak as follows: Truly art thou the Hidden God, the Secret Good, which no one can Know, that has not Felt it.

The Servant -- Alas, the Great Blindness in which I have hitherto Lived! I have Plucked the Red Roses and have not Smelt them; I have Wandered among the Blooming Flowers, and have not Seen them; I have been as a Dry Branch amid the Fresh Dews of May. Never, O Never can I Sufficiently Repent, Thy having been for Many a Day so-Near me, and my having been so-Far from Thee. O, Thou Sweet Guest of Pure Souls, what a Sorry Welcome have I hitherto given Thee, what an Ill Return, have I so-Frequently made Thee! How little Desirous have I not shown myself of the Sweet Bread of Angels! I had the Precious Balsam in my Mouth, and Felt it not. Ah, Thou Delight of all Angelic Eyes, never as yet did I Feel, True Delight in Thee! If it were Announced to me, that a Bodily Friend would visit me in the Morning, should I not Rejoice at it, all the Night before? And yet, Never, did I Prepare myself for the Reception-of Thee, as in Reason I ought, Thou Worthy Guest, Whom Heaven and Earth, Equally Honor. Alas! how have I been Wont to Turn Quickly-away from Thee, how to Drive Thee, out of Thy Own! O Eternal God, Thou, even Thou Thyself, art here so Truly Present, and the Angelic Host is here, and yet I have Approached so Shyly and Sluggishly. Of Thee I will say Nothing; but, Truly, Lord, I know of no-Spot within many Miles, whither, if I had Known for Certain of the Presence of Blessed Angels, those High and Noble Guests, who at all-Times, Behold Thee, I should not have Repaired of my own Accord, and even if I had not Seen them, still my Heart, on their Account, would have Leapt in my Body for Joy. O Sweet Lord and God, that Thou Thyself, the Lord of all Angels, shouldst have been Present here, and shouldst have had with Thee, so many Angelic Choirs, and that I should not have given more Heed to the Place; this, this must ever be a Sore Affliction for me! I ought, at all Events, to have Approached the Place where I knew Thee to be thus Present, even though Nothing else might have come of it. O God, how often have I stood Distracted, and without Devotion, on the very spot where Thou wast Before me and With me, in the Blessed Sacrament; my Body indeed stood there, but my Heart was elsewhere. How often have I Thought so little of Thee, in Thy Presence, that my Heart has not even Offered Thee an Affectionate Salutation, with a Devout Inclination. Gentle Lord, my Eyes ought to have Looked-at Thee with Joyous Delight, my Heart ought to have Loved Thee with the Fullness of Desire, my Mouth ought to have Praised Thee with Heartfelt, Fervent Jubilee; all my Strength ought to have Melted, in Thy Glad Service. What did not Thy Servant David do, who leapt so joyously with all his might before the Ark, in which there was nothing but Corporal Bread of Heaven, nothing but Corporal Things! Lord, now do I stand here before Thee, and before all Thy Angels, and with Bitter Tears, Fall-at Thy Feet. Remember, O, Remember, Tender Lord, that here, before me, Thou art my Flesh and my Brother, and Forego Thy Displeasure. O, Forgive me all the Dishonor that ever I Offered Thee, for I am Sorry for it, and must ever be Sorry for it; for the Light of Thy Wisdom begins only now, to Enlighten me; and the Place where Thou art, not only according-to Thy Divinity, but according-to Thy Humanity, shall be Honored by me, Evermore. Ah, Thou Sweetest Good, Thou Worthy Lord and Lovely Guest of my Soul, another Question would I gladly ask: Tell me, Gentle Lord, what is it Thou givest Thy Beloved with Thy Real Presence in the Sacrament, provided she Receives Thee, with Love and Desire?

Eternal Wisdom -- Is that a Fitting Question for a Lover? What have I better than Myself? He Who Possesses the Object of his Love, what else has he to ask for? He who gives himself, what has he Refused? I give Myself to thee, and take thee from thyself, and Unite thee to Me. Thou Loseth thyself, and art Wholly Transformed into Me. What does the Sun, in his Brightest Reflection, Bestow on the Unclouded Sky? Yes, what does the Bright Star of the Morning Dawn, Bestow on the Dark Night? Or what do the Fair and Ravishing Adornments of Summer, bestow after the Cold, Wintry, Melancholy Season?

The Servant -- O Lord, they Bestow Precious Gifts.

Eternal Wisdom -- They seem Precious to thee, because they are Visible to thee. Behold, the Smallest Gift that Flows from Me in the Blessed Sacrament, Reflects more Splendor in Eternity, than any Sunny Brightness; it Sheds more Light than any Morning Star; it Adorns thee more Ravishingly in Eternal Beauty, than ever did any Adornment of Summer, the Earth. Or is not My Bright Divinity, more-Radiant than any Sun, My Noble Soul more-Resplendent than any Star, My Glorified Body more-Ravishing than any Ravishment of Summer? And yet all these things hast thou Truly Received here.

The Servant -- O Lord, why then are they not more Sensibly felt? Lord, I often approach-in such Dryness that all Light, all Grace and Sweetness, are as Strange to me, methinks, as to a Man born Blind, who never saw the Sun. Lord, if I may Venture to say so, I could indeed wish that, in Thy Real Presence, Thou hadst given Testimony of Thyself.

Eternal Wisdom -- The Less the Testimony, the Purer thy Faith, and the Greater thy Reward. The Lord of Nature, Operates with such Secrecy, a Blessed Increase in many a Fair Tree, that no Eye nor other Sense, can Perceive it till it is Accomplished. Now, I am not an 'Exteriorly' Working Good, but an 'Interiorly' Shining Light; an 'Interiorly' Working Good, which is so much the Nobler, as it is the more Spiritual.

The Servant -- Alas! how Few Men there are who Perceive this, who Weigh Thoroughly what they Receive. They Draw-near like the Rest, Generally-in an Ill and Inconsiderate Manner, and, therefore, as they go-up Empty, they come away without-Grace. They do not Ruminate their Food, so as to Ponder what they have Received.

Eternal Wisdom -- To the Well-prepared, I am the Bread-of Eternal Life, to the Little-prepared, the Bread of Dryness, but to the Unprepared, I am a Deadly Blow, an Eternal Curse.

The Servant -- O Lord, what a Terrible Thing is this! Lord, whom dost Thou call the Well-prepared, the Little-prepared, and the Unprepared?

Eternal Wisdom -- The Well-prepared are the Purified, the Little-prepared such-as, cleave-to Temporal Things, but the Unprepared, are the Sinful who continue by Will and by Deed in Mortal Sin.

The Servant -- But, Tender Lord, if at the Time a Person is Heartily Sorry for his Sins, and Strives, to the Best of his Ability, to Rid himself wholly of them, conformably-to Christian Precept, how is it then with him?

Eternal Wisdom -- In such a Case a Man is, for the Time, no-longer in Sin.

The Servant -- Lord, in my Opinion, it were One of the Greatest Things this World could Accomplish, if any Person, while Living in this Temporal State, was able to Prepare himself Worthily enough, for Thy Reception.

Eternal Wisdom -- That Person was never yet born; nay, if a Man had the Native Purity of all the Angels, the Sanctity of all the Saints, and the Good Works of all Mankind, he would yet be Unworthy.

The Servant -- Ah, Beloved Lord, with what Trembling Hearts ought not Persons so Unworthy, so Deprived of Grace, as we are, to-approach Thee.

Eternal Wisdom -- If a Man only does his Best, nothing more is required of him, for God Completes, what is left Incomplete. A Sick Man should cast-aside all Reserve, and should Approach the Physician, whose attendance is his Cure.

The Servant -- Lord, Beloved Lord, which is better, OFTEN, or SELDOM, to Receive Thee in the Blessed Sacrament?

Eternal Wisdom -- For him whose Grace and Devotion, Perceptibly Increase by it, to Receive Me Often, is Profitable.

The Servant -- But, Lord, if a Man, in his own Opinion, remains the same, and cannot Prove that he either Increases or Decreases by it in Holiness, or if he is often visited-by Spiritual Dryness, how should he then behave himself?

Eternal Wisdom -- A Man, provided only he does his part, should not withdraw himself because of Spiritual Dryness. For the Salvation of that Soul, which by God's Will, Suffers-from Spiritual Dryness, is often accomplished as Nobly in the Light of Pure Faith alone, as in Great Sweetness. I am a Boon which, turned to account, Increases, but which, Saved up, Wastes away. It is better to Approach once a Week, with a Deep Sense of Real Humility, than once a Year with an Overweening Self-approbation.

The Servant -- Lord, at what Time does the Influence of Grace from the Blessed Sacrament, take place?

Eternal Wisdom -- In the very Moment-of Actual Reception.

The Servant -- Lord, but what if a Man have a Fervent Desire for Thy Bodily Presence in the Sacrament, and he must yet be Deprived of it?

Eternal Wisdom -- Many a Man, after being Filled-with Me, goes away Hungry, and many a Man obtains Me, though the Table be Empty; the Former merely receives Me Bodily, the latter enjoys Me Spiritually.

The Servant -- Lord, has that Man any Advantage, who receives Thee Bodily and Spiritually, over him who only Receives Thee Spiritually?

Eternal Wisdom -- Tell me whether that Man has more, who has Me and My Grace, or he who has only My Grace alone?

The Servant -- Lord, how long dost Thou remain in Thy Real Presence, with a Man who has received Thee?

Eternal Wisdom -- As-long-as the Image and Likeness of the Sacrament remain.


CHAPTER XXIV- A Prayer to be Said When Thou Goest to Receive
Our Lord's Holy Body

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) O Thou Living Fruit, Thou Sweet Blossom, Thou Delicious Paradise, Apple of the Blooming Fatherly Heart, Thou Sweet Vine of Cyprus in the Vineyard of Engaddi, Who will give me to Receive Thee so Worthily this day that Thou shalt Desire to come to me, to Dwell with me, and never to Separate from me! O Unfathomable Good, that fillest Heaven and Earth, incline Thyself Graciously this day, and Despise not Thy Poor Creature. Lord, if I am not Worthy of Thee, yet do I Stand, in Need of Thee. Ah, Gentle Lord, art Thou not He Who, with One Word, Created Heaven and Earth? Lord, with One Word canst Thou Restore Health to my Sick Soul. O Lord, do unto me according to Thy Grace, according to Thy Infinite Mercy, and not according to my Deserts. Yes, Thou art the Innocent Paschal Lamb, Which at this day is still Offered up for the Sins of all Mankind. Ah, Thou sweet-tasting Bread of Heaven, which contains all Sweet Tastes according to the Desire of everyone's Heart, make the Hungry Mouth of my Soul to Rejoice in Thee this day; give me to Eat and to Drink; Strengthen, Adorn, and Unite me Interiorly to Thee. Ah, Eternal Wisdom, come down so Powerfully this day into my Soul, that all my Enemies may be Driven out of her, all my Crimes be Melted away, and all my Sins be Forgiven. Enlighten my Understanding with the Light of True Faith. Inflame my Will with Thy Sweet Love. Cheer up my Mind with Thy Glad Presence, and give Virtue and Perfection to all my Powers. Watch over me at my Death, that I may enjoy Thy Beatific Vision in Eternal Bliss.



CHAPTER XXV - How We Should at All Times Praise God

crucifixion3.jpg (1600 bytes) The Servant -- "Praise the Lord, O my Soul, in my Life I will Praise the Lord; I will sing to my God as long as I shall be".

Who will Grant, O God, to my Full Heart, to Fulfill before my Death, its Desire for Thy Praise? Who will Grant me Worthily to Praise, in my day, the Beloved Lord, Whom my Soul Loveth? Ah, Tender Lord, would that there Issued from my Heart, as many Sweet Tones, as ever have Issued from Sweet Harpings, as-many-as there are Leaves and Blades of Grass, would that they were all Addressed on High, to Thee in Thy Heavenly Court, so that a Song of such a Delightful and Unheard of Praise, might Burst from my Heart, as would be Pleasing to the Eyes of my Lord, and Full of Joy, to all the Heavenly Host! Ah, Beloved Lord, although I am not Worthy to Praise Thee, still my Soul Desires that the Heavens should Praise Thee, when, in their Ravishing Beauty and Sublime Splendor, they are Lit-up with the Multitude of Glittering Stars; and the Fair Delightful Meadow, when, in all the Bliss of Summer, it Glistens Afresh in Blithesome Beauty, in Manifold Flowery Adornment; and all the Sweet Thoughts and Fervent Desires that ever a Pure and Affectionate Heart conceived for Thee, when it was encompassed-by the Refreshing Summer Delights of Thy Illuminating Spirit. Lord, when I but think of Thy High Praise, my Heart is ready to Melt in my Breast; my Thoughts, Wander-from-me; Speech, Fails-me, and all Knowledge, Escapes-me. Something Shines-in my Heart, beyond the Power of Words, when I will Needs, Praise Thee, O Infinite Good; for, if I take the Fairest Creatures, the most Exalted Spirits, the Purest Beings, Thou yet Surpassest them all, Unspeakably. If I enter the Deep Abyss of Thy Goodness, there, all Praise disappears-in its own Littleness. Lord, when I behold Living Forms of Beauty, Creatures Gentle and Engaging, they say to my Heart: Oh, see how Right Gracious He is, from-Whom we Emanate, from-Whom all that is Beautiful, has Issued! If I Traverse, Heaven and Earth, the Universe and the Abyss, Wood and Grove, Mountain and valley, lo! they One and All, fill my Ears with a Rich Canticle of Thy Unfathomable Praise. Then, when I Mark, with what Infinite Beauty and Harmony, Thou Orderest all things, both Evil and Good, I am Dumb and Speechless. But, Lord, when I remember that Thou Thyself, art this Praiseworthy Good, which my Soul has chosen-out, Solely for Herself, as Her One, Only and Undivided Love, my Heart, for Praise, is like to Burst within me, and to Cease its Throbbings. Oh, Tender Lord, have regard, therefore, for the Great and Ardent Desire of my Heart and Soul, and Teach me how to Praise Thee Worthily, and how to Serve Thee Acceptably, before I Depart hence, for this is what my Soul Thirsts after, in my Body.

Eternal Wisdom -- Wouldst thou then Gladly Praise Me?

The Servant -- Alas! Lord, why dost Thou Provoke me? Thou Knowest all Hearts, Thou Knowest that my Heart is Ready to turn-round in my Body, from the True Desire of Thy Praise, which from my Childhood's Day, till now, I have had.

Eternal Wisdom -- Praise becometh the Upright.

The Servant -- Alas! my Lord, all my Uprightness lies in Thy Boundless Compassion. Beloved Lord, the Frogs, Praise Thee in the Pool, and if they cannot Speak, yet do they Croak. Full well, do I know who I am. Lord, I know that rather than Praise Thee, I ought to Lament and Beg Pardon for my Sins. And yet, O Unfathomable Good, Scorn not the Desire I have to Praise Thee, Miserable-Worm that I am. Lord, though the Cherubim and Seraphim, and the Countless Number of all Exalted Spirits, Praise Thee according-to their Utmost Powers, yet what can they do more as regards Thy Infinite Dignity, far Removed above all Praise, than the very-Least of Thy Creatures? Lord, Thou standest in Need-of no-Creature's Praise; but Thy Infinite Goodness is made all the more Manifest, the more Thou givest Thyself to the Praise of those, who are without Desert.

Eternal Wisdom -- Whoever thinks he can Praise Me, to the Fullness of My Worth, Acts like him who Chases the Wind, and trys to Grasp a Shadow. And yet it is Permitted to thee, and all Creatures, to Praise Me according-to your Ability; for there never was a Creature so-Little, nor so-Great, nor so-Good, nor so Wicked, neither will there be One, but it either Praises Me or Testifies to My Praise; and the more it is United with Me, the more Praiseworthy it finds Me; and the more thy Praise is like the Praise-of Eternal Glory, the more Praiseworthy it is to Me; and the more this Praise of thine is Abstracted in Imagination from all Creatures, and United in True Devotion to Me, the more it is like the Praise of Eternal Glory. A Fervent Contemplating, sounds better in My Ears, than merely a Praising with Words, and a Heartfelt Sighing, Sounds better than a Lofty Appeal. A Total Subjection of One's self, under God and all Mankind, in the Wish to be as-Nothing in their Sight, is a Sound for Me, above all Sweet Sounds. I Myself, never Appeared-on Earth so Worthy of Praise before My Father, as when I Hung in Mortal Agony on the Cross. Some Persons Praise Me with Fair Words, but their Hearts are Far-from Me, and of such Praise I make no Account. So likewise, some Persons Praise Me when things go according-to their Desires, but when things begin to go Wrong with them, their Praise Ceases, and such Praise is Disagreeable to Me. But that Praise is Good and Precious in My Divine Eyes when, with thy Heart, thy Words and Works, thou dost Praise me as Fervently in-Sorrow, as in-Joy, in-Utter Adversity, as in-Full Prosperity; for then, thou thinkest of-Me, and not of-thyself.

The Servant -- Lord, I Desire not Sufferings from Thee, neither will I give Cause for such things; but I will give myself up Wholly and Entirely, according to the Desire of my Heart, to Thy Eternal Praise, whereas, before, I never could Truly Forsake and Utterly Forget myself. Lord, if Thou wert to Permit me to become the most Despised Person the Whole Earth could Produce, Lord, even this I would Suffer for the Sake of Thy Praise. Lord, I Yield myself up this day to Thy Grace and Mercy; nay, if I were to be Accused of the Foulest Murder that ever any Man Committed, so that whoever say me should Spit in my Face, Lord, I would Willingly bear it in Praise-of Thee, provided I only Stood Guiltless in Thy Sight. But even if I were Guilty, I would still Endure it in Praise of Thy Blessed Justice, which is a Thousand Times more Precious to me, than my own Honor. For every Term of Reproach, Cast at me, I would give Thee a Particular Praise, and with the Good Thief would say to Thee: Lord, I Receive the due Reward of my Deeds, but what hast Thou done Amiss? Lord, Remember me, when Thou comest into Thy Kingdom! And should it be Thy Will to take me Now from Hence, if it were for Thy Praise, I would not look about me for a Respite, but I would Desire to be taken hence; and I would Desire that, if it should have been my Lot, to have become as Old, even as Methuselah, every Year of the Long Period, and every Week of the Years, and every Day of the Weeks, and every Hour of the Days, and every Minute of the Hours, might Praise Thee for me, in such Rapturous Praise, as never did any Saint in the Veritable Bright Reflection of the Saints, and this as many Times as the Grains of Dust are Countless in the Sunshine, and that they might Fulfill, this my Good Desire, as though I myself had all the Time, Lived-to Fulfill it. Therefore, Lord, Take-me Early or Late to Thyself, for such is my Heart's Desire. Lord, I will say still more, that, if I had Now to Depart Hence, and it were to Thy Praise that I should Burn Fifty Years in Purgatory, I am ready to incline myself at Thy Feet, and Gladly accept it all, to Thy Eternal Praise; Blessed be the Fire-of Purgatory in which Thy Praise is Fulfilled in me! Lord, Thou, and not myself, art what I here Love, and here Seek. Lord, Thou Comprehendest all things, Thou Knowest all Hearts, Thou Knowest that these are my Unshaken Sentiments; nay, if I knew that I should have to Lie for ever at the Bottom of Hell, however it might Afflict my Heart to be Robbed of Thy Ravishing Vision, I yet would not Cease from Thy Praise; and could I Retrieve the Lost Time of all Men, Reform their Misdeeds, and by means of Praise and Honor, make Full Amends for all the Dishonor that ever was shown Thee, I would Willingly do it; and if it were indeed possible, then, from the Lowest Abyss of Hell, must needs Burst Forth from me a Beautiful Song of Praise, which would Penetrate Hell, the Earth, Air, and all the Heavens, till it arrived before Thy Divine Countenance. But, if this were not possible, I would yet Wish to Praise Thee here, all the more, that I might even here, Rejoice in Thee, all the more. Lord, do with Thy Poor Creature what is for Thy Praise; for let what will happen to me, so long as there is any Breath in my Mouth, I will utter Thy Praise; and when I Lose my Utterance, I Desire that the Raising of my Finger may be a Confirmation and Conclusion of all the Praise I ever spoke; nay, when my Body Falls-to Dust, I Desire that, from every Grain of Dust, an Infinite Praise may Pierce through the Hard Stones, through all the Heavens up to Thy Divine Presence, till the Last Day, when Body and Soul shall again Unite in Thy Praise.

Eternal Wisdom -- In this Desire and Good Intention thou shouldst remain till Death -- such Praise is Pleasing to Me.

The Servant -- Ah, Sweet Lord, since Thou Deignest and Desirest to Receive Praise from me, Poor Sinful Person that I am, it is my Desire that Thou wouldst show me Three (3) things, namely, how, wherewith, and at what time, I ought to Praise Thee. Tell me, Dearest Lord, is the External Praise which is given by Words and Singing, any way Profitable?

Eternal Wisdom -- It is certainly Profitable, and especially as it Stirs-up the Interior Man, which it very often Stirs-up, above all in the Case of Newly Converted Persons.

The Servant -- Lord, I also am Filled-with the Desire (seeing that one should be Glad, to-Begin in Time, what One will have to-Practice in Eternity) to Attain the Diligent Praising of Thee, in my Interior, and that I should not be Interrupted in Thy Praise, at any Time, even for the Space of a Second. Lord, out of this very Desire I have often Spoken as follows: O, thou Firmament, why dost thou Hasten and Revolve so fast? I Beseech thee, Stand still in this Moment, until I shall have Thoroughly Praised my Lord, according-to my Heart's Desire. Lord, when Perchance I have been a Little while Neglectful of Thy Present Praise, and have shortly come to myself, I have Interiorly cried out as follows: O Lord, it is a Thousand Years that I have Thought no more of my Beloved! O Lord, Teach me, then, as much as Thou canst, while my Soul is yet in my Body, how I may Attain to Praise Thee, Continually and without Relaxation.

Eternal Wisdom -- He who in all things, is Mindful of Me, who Keeps himself from Sin, and is Diligent in Virtue, Praises Me at all times; but still, if thou wouldst Seek after the Highest Sort of Praise, Listen-to something more: The Soul is like to a Light Peacock's Feather; if Nothing is attached-to it, it is very Easily Borne aloft by its own Mobility towards the Sky, but if it is Laden-with anything, it Falls-to the Ground. In like manner, a Mind that is Purified-from all Heaviness of Sin, is also Raised by Virtue-of its Native Nobility, with the Help of Gentle Contemplation, to Heavenly Things; and therefore, when it happens that a Mind is Disengaged from all Bodily Desires, and is set 'Interiorly' at Rest, so that its every Thought, Cleaves at all Times, Inseparably to the Immutable Good, such a Mind Fulfills My Praise at all Times; for in the State of Purity, so-far-as Words can Express it, Man's Carnal Sense is so Wholly Drowned and so Wholly Transformed from Earthiness, into a Spiritual and an Angelic Semblance, that, whatever he Receives 'Exteriorly', whatever he Does or Operates, whether he Eats, Drinks, Sleeps, or Wakes, is Nothing else but the very Purest Praise.

The Servant -- Ah, Lord, what a Truly Sweet Doctrine is this! Lovely Wisdom, Three (3) things there are still, that I should be Glad to have Explained. One (1) is: Where shall I find the most Reasons to Praise Thee?

Eternal Wisdom -- In the First, Origin of all Good, and then in its Out-flowing Springs.

The Servant -- Lord, as to the Origin, it is too High for me, too Unknown to me; there let the Tall Cedars, Praise Thee, the Heavenly Spirits, the Angelic Minds. And yet will I too Press Forward like a Rude Thistle with my Praise, that they may be Admonished by the Spectacle of my Impotent Longings of their own High Worthiness, that they may be Incited in their Pure Brightness, to Praise Thee, just as though the Cuckoo were to give the Nightingale, occasion-to Sing a Ravishing Song. But the Outflowings of Thy Goodness; these will be Proper for my Praise. Lord, when I Ponder Well what I was, Formerly, how often Thou hast Protected me, from what Evil Chains and Bonds Thou hast Delivered me, O Thou Everlasting Good, it is a Wonder that my Heart does not Wholly Melt in Thy Praise! Lord, how Long didst Thou not Wait for me, how Kindly didst Thou not Receive me, how Sweetly in Secret didst Thou not Anticipate me and Interiorly warn me! How Ungrateful soever I might sometimes be, still Thou didst not Desist, until Thou hadst Drawn me, to Thee. Ought I then, not to Praise Thee, my Gentle Lord? Yes, Truly do I Desire that a Rich Praise should Ascend before Thy Eyes, even such a Great and Joyous Praise, as that Rendered-by the Angels, when they First Beheld the Sight of their own Constancy, and the Reprobation of their Fallen Companions; as that Uttered-in the Joy, felt by the Miserable Souls in Purgatory, when they come-forth from their Grim Prison House before Thee, and Behold for the First time Thy Countenance, Beaming-with Delight and Love; a Praise even as that Unfathomable Praise which will Resound in the Streets-of the Heavenly City, after the Last Judgment, when the Elect shall be Separated in Everlasting Security, from the Wicked. Lord, one thing I should also like to Know, respecting Thy Praise is this: How all that is Naturally Good in me, may be referred-to Thy Everlasting Praise?

Eternal Wisdom -- Inasmuch as Nobody in this Temporal State can be sure, from Actual Knowledge, of the True Difference between Nature and Grace, so when anything Gracious, Joyous, or Agreeable, arises in thy Mind, whether it be from Nature, or from Grace, enter Quickly and Speedily into thy Interior, and make an Oblation of it to God, so that it may be Consumed in My Praise, because I am the Lord of Nature and Grace, and in this Way will Nature, now to thee, become Supernatural.

The Servant -- Lord, but how then shall I turn even the Imaginations of Evil Spirits to Thy Eternal Praise?

Eternal Wisdom -- To the Suggestions or Inspirations of an Evil Spirit, speak thou as follows: Lord, as often as this Wicked Spirit or any other, sends me against my Will, such Disagreeable Thoughts, let me of my own Premeditated Will, send Thee the most Fervent Praise in his stead, even the very Praise which the same Evil Spirit ought to have given Thee throughout all Eternity, had he remained Loyal, so that in his Reprobate State, I may Represent his place, in Praising Thee; and as often as he Inspires me with such Odious Thoughts, let my Good Praise, Ascend to Thee.

The Servant -- O Lord, now do I indeed see that to Good Men, all things may be turned into Good, when even the very Worst Things of the Evil Spirit can in such a Way, be made Good Things. But now tell me One (1) Thing more. Ah, Thou Gracious Lord, how am I to turn all that I Hear, all that I See, to Thy Praise and Glory?

Eternal Wisdom -- As often as thou seest a Great Number of People, as often as thou beholdest an Exceeding Fair Multitude, say from the very Bottom of thy Heart: Lord, as Often and as Beautifully must the Thousand times a Thousand Angelic Spirits, who stand before Thee, salute Thee Lovingly this Day in my Name, and the Ten Thousand times a Thousand Spirits who serve Thee, Praise Thee today for me, and they must Desire for me all the Holy Desires of the Saints, and that the Ravishing Beauty of all Creatures, may do Thee Honor today, for me.

The Servant -- O my Sweet Lord, how hast Thou not Refreshed and Increased my Zeal in Thy Praise! But Truly, Lord, this Temporal Praise has Stirred-up my Heart and alas! set my Soul a-Longing for the Praise which is Everlasting and Eternal. When, my own Elected Wisdom, when will the Bright Day arise, when will the Glad Hour arrive of a Perfectly Prepared Death, and Departure from this Scene of Wretchedness, to my Beloved! Ah me, I begin so to Languish, so Ardently to Long after my Heart's only Love! When, O when, shall I ever Possess it? How Lingering is the Time, how Late it will be before I behold Face-to-face, the Delight of my Soul's Eyes, before I Enjoy Thee according-to my Heart's Desire! O Misery of Banishment, what a Misery thou art to him who considers himself Banished in very Truth! Behold, Lord, there is hardly any One on Earth, but has some Friend to visit, some Place on which to rest his foot a little while. Alas, my only One, Thou Whom my Soul alone Seeks and Desires, Thou Knowest that I have no other Refuge, than in Thee alone! Lord, whatever I Hear and See, if I find Thee not, is a Torment to me; the Society of all Mankind, without Thee, is Bitterness to me. Lord, what should Rejoice me, what Detain me here?

Eternal Wisdom -- Here on Earth, shouldst thou often wander in the Delightful Orchard of My Blooming Praise. In this Transient Life, there is no Truer Prelude to the Celestial Habitations, than is to be found among those who Praise God in the Joy of a Serene Heart. There is nothing that Cheers a Man's Mind so much, and Lightens his Sufferings; that drives away Evil Spirits, and makes Sadness Disappear, as Joyous Praising of God. God is near those who Praise Him; the Angels are familiar with them; they are Profitable to themselves; it Betters their Neighbor and Gladdens the Soul; all the Heavenly Host is Honored by Cheerful Minded Praise.

The Servant -- Sweet Lord, my Tender, my Eternal Wisdom! I Desire that when my Eyes, First awaken in the Morning, my Heart may Awaken too, and that there may Burst from it, a High-flaming Fiery Love-torch of Thy Praise, with the most Fervent Love of the most Loving Heart that exists in time, according to the most Ardent Love of the most exalted Seraphim in Eternity, in the Fathomless Love with which Thou, Heavenly Father, Lovest Thy only Son, and with the Most Sweet Love of the Holy Ghost, Who Proceeds from Father and Son; and I Desire that this Praise may Resound so Sweetly in the Fatherly Heart, as never did yet the Strings of all Earthly Instruments in a Joyous Mind; and that this Love-torch may send up so Sweet a Savor of Praise, as though it were Smoking Incense, Composed-of all Precious Herbs and Spices of all Virtues, Finely Powdered together in their Highest Perfection; and Lastly, that the Sight of it may be so Beautifully Blooming in Graces, as never any May was known to be in its most Ravishing Bloom; so that it may be a Delightful Aspect for Thy Divine Eyes, and all the Heavenly Host. All my Desire is, that this Love-torch may at all times Blaze-out Fervently in my Prayers, from my Mouth in my Singing, in my Thoughts, Words, and Works, that it may Subdue all my Enemies, Consume all my Sins, and Obtain for me a Happy End, so that the End of this, my Temporal Praise, may be but the Beginning-of my Everlasting, my Eternal Praise.



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Let everybody who Desires to Meditate Briefly, Properly, and Earnestly on the Passion of our Lord Jesus Christ, in Whom all our Salvation lies, and who Desires to-be Thankful for His Manifold Sufferings, Learn by-Heart, the Hundred, Choice Meditations which hereafter follow, severally, according to their Sense, which is comprised in Few Words, and go over them Devoutly, every day, with a Hundred Venias or otherwise, as it may suit him best, and at every Venia (Recitation of Petition), when it relates to our Blessed Lady, let him say a Pater Noster, or an Ave Maria, or a Salve Regina, for in this manner were they Revealed to a Preacher by God, at a time when he stood before a Crucifix after Matins, and fervently complained to God that he could not well Meditate on His Torments, and that it was so Bitter a thing, for him to Meditate on them, inasmuch as; up to that Hour, he had had herein Great Infirmity, from which he was then Relieved. The Prayers he afterwards Appended, in a Short Form, so that all might be Free to find matter for themselves to Pray agreeably to their own Feelings, but should the Prayers prove too-many, for a Person all at once, let him Divide them into even Daily Hours, or into the Seven (7) Days of the Week, according as they are here Noted-down.

THE THIRD PART (Part 3 of 3)



O Eternal Wisdom, my Heart reminds Thee of Thy Sorrow of Soul.

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) When after the Last Supper on the Mount, Thou wast Bathed in Thy Bloody Sweat because of the Anxiety of Thy Heart;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And when like an Enemy, Thou wast made Prisoner, Cruelly Bound, and led Miserably Away;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) When, Lord, Thou wast Sacrilegiously Maltreated, in the Night with Hard Blows, and with Blindfolding of Thine Eyes;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Early Accused before Caiphas and pronounced Worthy of Death;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Seen by Thy Affectionate Mother, with Unspeakable Sorrow of Heart;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou wast Ignominiously Presented before Pilate, Falsely Accused, and Condemned to Die;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou, O Eternal Wisdom, wast Mocked as a Fool, in a White Garment before Herod;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Fair Body was Torn and Rent, without Mercy, by the Cruel Whips of Thy Scourgers;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Delicate Head was Pierced with Sharp Thorns and Thy Sweet Face, in consequence, Drenched with Blood;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thus Condemned, Thou wast Led, Miserably and Shamefully, with Thy Cross to Death.

Alas, my only Hope, let me, therefore, remind Thee to give me Thy Fatherly Aid in all my Distresses. Oh, unloose my Sinful Fetters, Guard me against Secret Vice and Open Guilt, Shelter me from the False Councils of the Enemy, and from the Occasion of all Crime, Inspire me with a Sincere Sympathy for Thy Own Sufferings and for those of Thy Tender Mother. Lord, at my Last Departure, Judge me Mercifully, Teach me to Condemn Worldly Honors, and to Serve Thee Wisely. Let all my Infirmities be Healed in Thy Wounds. Let my Reason be Fortified and Adorned by the Injuries Inflicted on Thy Head, and may Thy Whole Passion be Imitated by me according to my Ability.


Sweet Lord!

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) When on the High Branches of the Cross, Thy Eyes were Extinguished and turned in their Sockets;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Divine Ears, filled with Mockery and Blasphemy;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Delicate Nostrils stopped with Rank Smells;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Sweet Mouth with Bitter Drink;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Tender Feeling visited with Rude Blows.

Therefore do I Beg that Thou wouldst Guard this Day, my Eyes from all Dissolute Sights, my Ears from Voluptuous Speech. Lord, take away from me all Relish of Bodily Things, make all Temporal Things, Unpleasant to me, and rid me of all Tenderness for my Own Body.



Ah, Tender Lord!

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) When Thy Divine Head was Bowed-down by Weakness and Utter Debility;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Fair Throat, very Grievously Distended;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Blessed Features, Polluted with Spittle and Blood;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Clear Complexion, made Livid;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) All Thy Beautiful Form, Smitten with Death.

Grant me, therefore, O Lord, to Love Bodily Pain, and to Seek all my Rest in Thee, to Endure Injuries Willingly from others, to Desire Contempt, to Die to my Affections and all my Lusts.

Sweet Lord!

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) When Thy Right Hand was Nailed-down;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Left Hand, Struck-through;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Right Arm, Extended;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Left, Stretched-out;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Right Foot, Hammered-through;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Left, made Fast;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou didst Hang Suspended, in a Swoon;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And in Great Weariness of Thy Divine Limbs;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) All Thy Tender Joints were Immovably Strained on the Hard Bed of the Cross;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Body was Drenched in many places, with Thy Hot Blood.

Therefore, O Lord, I Beseech that I may be made Immovably Fast to Thee, in Joy and Sorrow, that all the Powers of my Body and Soul may be Distended on Thy Cross, and my Reason and Affections nailed to it. Grant me Inability to Indulge in Bodily Pleasure, Promptness in Seeking Thy Praise and Honor. I Crave that no Limb of my Body may be without a Living Token of Thy Death, a Spontaneous Proof of the Image of Thy Passion.



Tender Lord!

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Blooming Body, Pined and Withered away on the Cross;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Weary and Tender Back, Leant Uneasily against the Hard Wood;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Heavy Frame, Painfully Gave-way;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) All Thy Limbs were Covered with Sores;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Heart endured it Lovingly.

Lord, be Thy withering, a re-Blooming to me for ever. Thy Uneasy Leaning, my Spiritual Rest. Thy Giving-way, my Powerful Support. All Thy Wounds must Heal mine, and Thy Loving Heart, Inflame mine with Fervor.

Sweet Lord!

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) First in Thy Mortal Agony, Thou wast Mocked with Scornful Words;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And with Contemptuous Gestures;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou wast Utterly Annihilated in their Hearts;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou didst continue under it Steadfast;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And didst Pray to Thy Father for them Lovingly;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou, the Innocent Lamb, wast Numbered with the Guilty;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou wast Condemned and Reviled by the Thief on Thy Left;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) But wast Invoked by him on the Right;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou Forgavest the Latter all his Sins;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou didst Unlock for him the Gates of Paradise.

Beloved Lord! Teach me, Thy Servant, to Bear with Firmness, every Ignominious Word, every Scornful Gesture, and all sorts of Contempt, for Thy Sake, and Lovingly to Excuse my Enemies before Thee. Ah, Thou Infinite Good, behold, this day I Offer up, before the Eyes of Thy Heavenly Father, Thy Innocent Death for my Guilty Life. Lord, with the Thief, I cry out to Thee: Remember me when Thou comest into Thy Kingdom! Condemn me not for my Evil Deeds, Forgive all my Sins, Undo for me the Gates of the Heavenly Paradise!



Tender Lord!

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) At that Hour, Thou wast Forsaken, for my Sake, of all Men;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Friends had Renounced Thee;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou stoodst Naked, and Robbed of all Honor and Raiment;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Power then seemed Overcome;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) They treated Thee without Mercy, and Thou didst Bear it all, in Meekness and Silence;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Alas, for Thy Gentle Heart, Thou who alone didst know at that time, the Depth of Thy Mother's Sorrow of Heart;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And didst see her Deplorable State;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And didst hear her Lamentable Words;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And at Thy Mortal Separation, didst commend her to the Filial Piety of Thy Disciple;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And the Disciple to her Maternal Love.

Oh therefore, Thou Pattern of all Virtues, take away from me all Pernicious Love of Men, and all Inordinate Affection of Friends; strip me of all Impatience; give me Steadfastness against all Evil Spirits, and Meekness against all Violent Men. Give me, Gentle Lord, Thy Bitter Death in the Bottom of my Heart, in my Prayers, and in the Practice of Good Works. O Tender Lord, I commend myself this day to the True Fidelity and Care of Thy Pure Mother and Thy Beloved Disciple.

[Here say a Salve Regina or an Ave Maria.]

O Pure and Tender Mother, I shall remind thee today of the Infinite Sorrow of Heart which thou didst Endure. --

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) At the First Aspect of thy Dear Child, when thou didst see Him Suspended in Agony;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou couldst not then come to His Assistance;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou didst Gaze in Anguish of Heart, at thy Beloved Son, Expiring before thine eyes;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou didst Lament over Him with Great Lamentation;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And He Comforted thee very Kindly;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) His Divine Words, Pierced thy Heart;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Lamentable Gestures, Softened the Hard Hearts of the Jews;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Maternal Arms and Hands, were most Reverentially lifted up;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) But thy Sick Body, Sank Exhausted on the Ground;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Where thy Tender Mouth did Affectionately Kiss, His Fallen Blood.

Oh, then Mother of all Graces, watch over me like a Mother, for my Whole Life, and Graciously Shield me in the Hour of my Death. O Gentle Lady! Behold, that is the Hour, for the sake of which, I Desire to be thy Servant all my Days. That is the Dreadful Hour, which Frightens my Heart and Soul, for then there will be an End to Prayer and Supplication. Then shall I, Poor Wretch, not know to whom to turn. Therefore, thou Unfathomable Abyss of Divine Compassion, I Fall at thy Feet this day, with the Fervent Sighs of my Heart, that I may then be found Worthy of thy Joyous Presence. How should he ever Despond, or what can Injure him whom here, O Purest Mother, thou dost Protect? Ah, thou only Consolation, Defend me against the Terrible Looks of the Wicked Spirits, lend me Aid and Protection against the Hands of the Enemy! Hearken Consolingly to my Wretched Sighs, look kindly with the Eyes of thy Compassion, on my Ghastly and Enfeebled Frame. Reach me thy Beneficent Hands. Receive my Poor Soul. With thy Radiant Countenance, present it before the Severe Judge, and install it in Everlasting Bliss!



O Thou most Intimate Delight of the Heavenly Father!

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How wast Thou Abandoned, at that Hour on the Cross, to every Pang of Bitter Death Exteriorly, and Robbed of all Sweetness and Solace Interiorly!
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou didst Utter a Cry of Misery to Thy Father;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Will, Thou didst Unite Wholly to His;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou didst Thirst Bodily by Reason-of Great Dryness!
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou didst Thirst Spiritually by Reason of Great Love;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Thirst was Bitterly Quenched;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And when all things were Fulfilled, Thou didst Exclaim: Consummatum est?
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thou wast Obedient unto Thy Father, even unto Death;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And Thou didst Commend Thy Spirit into His Fatherly Hands;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And then Thy Noble Soul separated from Thy Body.

Ah, Thou Loving Lord, in this Thy Love, I desire that Thou wouldst open Thy Fatherly Ears at all times to my Call, and give me in all things a Will United to Thine. Lord, Quench in me all Thirst after Bodily things; make me Thirst after Spiritual Goods. Sweet Lord, let Thy Bitter Drink change all my Afflictions into Sweetness. Grant me to Persevere in Perfect Thoughts and in Good Works until Death, and that I may never swerve from Thy Obedience. Eternal Wisdom, let my Spirit be Transferred from this day forth into Thy Hands, so that at its Final Departure, it may be Joyfully Received by Thee. Lord, grant me a Life, Pleasing in Thy Sight; a Death well prepared for; an End, made sure, by Thee. Lord, let Thy Bitter Death make Amends for, and Complete my Insufficient Works, so that at my Last Hours, Guilt and Punishment may be Wholly Effaced.



Ah, my Lord, remember,

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How the Sharp Spear was Thrust into Thy Divine Side;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How the Purple Blood ran out;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How the Living Water gushed forth;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And with what Bitter Toil Thou didst Garner me up;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) And how Generously Thou didst Ransom me;

Loving Lord! may Thy Deep Wounds, Shelter me from all my Enemies; Thy Living Water, Cleanse me from all my Sins; Thy Rose-colored Blood, Adorn me with all Graces and Virtues. Tender Lord! May the Praise Thou didst so Bitterly Win, bind me to Thee! The Ransom Thou didst so Freely Pay, Unite me Eternally with Thee. Oh, thou Chosen Consolation of all Sinners, Ho, thou Sweet Queen, remember today.

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How thou didst stand under the Cross, and how, as thy Son Hung Dead above thee, thou didst cast on Him many a Look of Misery;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How Affectionately His Arms were Received by thee;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) With what Fidelity, pressed to thy Blood-stained Face;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) His Bleeding Wounds, His Dead and Ghastly Features, were by thee Kissed, again and again;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How many a Death-wound thy Heart then Received;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How many a Fervent Unfathomable Sigh, burst from thee;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) How many Scalding Tears, thou didst shed;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Miserable Words were so Full of Sorrow;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy most Gracious Figure was so Steeped in Affliction;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Woeful Heart, was without Consolation from all Mankind.

Oh, Pure Lady, on this Account, forget not to be a Constant Protectress of my Whole Life, and my Faithful Guide. Turn thy Eyes, thy Mild Eyes, at all times, with Compassion on me. Watch over me like a Mother in every Temptation. Protect me Faithfully against my Enemies, Protect me beneath thy Tender Arms. Let thy Faithful Kissing of His Wounds, be to me as a Tender Reconciliation with Him; Let the Wounds of thy Heart, obtain for me a Cordial Repentance of my Sins; Thy Fervent Sighing, procure for me a Constant Yearning; and let thy Bitter Tears, Soften my Hard Heart; Be thy Lamentable Words, even as a Renunciation to me of all Voluptuous Speeches; Thy Weeping form as a casting away of all Dissolute Conduct; Thy Disconsolate Heart as a Despising of all Perishable Affections.



littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) O, Thou Ravishing Brightness of Eternal Light, how art Thou at this Moment, when my Soul Embraces Thee under the Cross as Dead in Thy Sorrowful Mother's Lap, with Lamentations and Thanksgiving, how art Thou Utterly Extinguished! Extinguish in me the Burning Desire of all Vice.
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) O, Thou Pure Clear Mirror of the Divine Majesty, how art Thou Defiled for very Love of me! Wash out the Great Stains of my Evil Deeds.
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) O, Fair and Shining Image of the Fatherly Goodness, how Grievously Disfigured Thou art! Restore the Disfigured Image of my Soul.
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) O, Innocent Lamb, how Piteously art Thou Abased! Atone and Reform for me my Guilty Sinful Life.
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) O, King of all kings, O, Lord of all lords, Vouchsafe me, since my Soul embraces Thee with Sorrow and Lamentation in Thy Abasement, that it may be embraced by Thee with Joy in Thy Eternal Glory.

O, Pure Mother, Worthy of all love, remember today,

littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) The Forlorn Condition in which thou foundest thyself when they tore thy Murdered Son from thy Breast;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Remember thy Separation-from Him;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Faltering Steps;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) Thy Heart, Sighing again for His Body;
littlegoldcross.gif (962 bytes) The Constant Fidelity which thou alone didst Evince for Him in all His Woe till He was Laid in the Grave.

Obtain for me, from thy Tender Son, that in thy Sorrow, and His Sufferings, I may Subdue my own. Moreover, that I may shut myself up with Him, in His Sepulcher, from all Temporal Anxieties; that I may be Inspired with Disgust for all this World; that I may only Cherish a Perpetual Desire of Him, and may Persevere in His Praise and Service, to the Grave.